it's 4 in the morning, i can't sleep, and i could definitely use a nice, slow, deep back rub right now. mmmm.

jenny "i've never been with an older guy before" jenn jenn

so sam works at caribou coffe (boo!). that's so wack. everybody knows starbucks is the one that holds a special place in my heart.

anyway, this chick tries to win me over by bringing me all this caribou coffee stuff. she brings me cookies, brownies, all kinds of pastries, blended drinks, all that stuff. but the chick has yet to let me holla at that coffee. i don't get all that fancy stuff at starbucks, i just like the coffee. now, i need to sample this caribou coffee to see what's really up.

jenny "don't you have any non-infant clothes?" jenn jenn

and here this fool goes again...posted up in front of the sports profile at five points, doing his thang. what a mess.



jenny "you mean like a man dick?" jenn jenn

yeah, i think it's a wrap on me and torrey. i just really have not been feeling him lately...at all. he...i don't even know what to say about the dude. i think the last time i'm ever gonna talk to him is next week after he takes me to my dentist appointment (it had to get rescheduled). i'm not feeling it.

jenny "take off that vest...you look like aladdin" jenn jenn

and then once again, my boo. dancing in downtown atlanta, making a damn fool of himself one more time.



jenny "she perioded on my leg?" jenn jenn

so my oral surgery got pushed back from today to tomorrow.

then me and sam are taking a little one day long road trip from atlanta to charlotte and back all in the same day. i gotta go pick up the car my dad bought for me.

i'm supposed to be starting at grady soon in the infectious diseases department. i have to interact with HIV/AIDS patients and tell them all about the disease, how it works, what to expect, what kind of medicines to take, give supportive care...all that. i'm excited about that too. i should be starting next week cause this week is all full for me.

i just ordered my new sprint phone today. it's a rant. it's supposed to be good for texting, which i do all day long every day. and it has a really good camera and i can supposedly watch youtube videos and listen to music on it. i was gonna get the rumor 2, but i think i need to try something new. more people had more good things to say about the rant anyway.

ok, well i gotta finish getting ready for work. peace out.

jenny "break yo self fool. aaaaaaahhhhhhhh! tight." jenn jenn

and y'all know i couldn't leave y'all without putting up another video of my boo dancin up on here. this man is a trip. i see him all the time at the underground just a dancin and i saw some kids filming him one day, so i checked youtube and found like 20 videos of this fool dancing around the underground.

so here's another one:



jenny "you dance hot!" jenn jenn

oh, what i wanted to talk about...this stalking thing.

ok, so i thought i had this whole stalker situation in check, but apparently not. now its just getting bizarre. just really weird. everytime i think about it, i think about this song. the words are so scary, but they try to put it to a nice, melodic beat so you won't notice.



and in case you didn't hear the words:

Whatcha� doin� tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealin' your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive

[Chorus]

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life

[Chorus]

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...

[Repeat Chorus]

If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...


CREEPY!!!

jenny "evan, that's psycho shit" jenn jenn

so once again, me and torrey have fallen out.

ok, so my car broke down on me and it's not working right now. i need to get my transmission fixed/replaced ($$$yikes$$$). so with him being my boyfriend, i asked him to take me to work and pick me up. he seemed cool about it the first day he dropped me off, but after that...he had been being such a dick! i'm talking about fucked up stank ass attitude, being all quiet when he dropped me off or picked me up. picking me up late and dropping me off late.

he was late one day and i got mad and told him what was up and this dude had the nerve to tell me that he was doing me a favor and that i wasn't allowed to be mad at him for dropping me off late. WHAT AN ASSHOLE! when i say i wanted to hop up and punch this dude square in his face...but i held my tongue cause i needed a ride. but i swear to god, i wanted to sock this dude right in his stupid face.

i told him...after he took me home that night, i wouldn't ask his stank ass for nothing else and that was it. i really have nothing to say to the dude. what an ass, that's all i can say. i haven't talked to him since. that was a couple days ago. he's been pissing me off. i need to stop fuckin with him for good though.

my dad's supposed to be buying me a newer car this week. it's a 97 something. i forgot what he said. but i hope he gets it cause ya girl is hurtin for a car right about now. my baby pooped out on me. i'm not gonna lie, i'm gonna be so sad when i have to let it go for good. i'm gonna try to sell it somewhere/someplace/somehow.

anyways, i've been up for over 30 hours...so i'm going to sleep now.

peace.

jenny "oh my god, it's in!" jenn jenn

Oh sweet sleep! Please come take my body for the next 12 to 13 hours.

i see this crackhead all the time just a dancin at five points. i smile and laugh every time i see this dude. he has two signature moves that i always watch for. the one where he does the backwards waggle thing and the one where he puts his finger up in the air and rotates his hips. everytime i see him, i gotta see him do those two moves before i can move on.

he is too funny.



jenny "i've got a goddamn veteranary exam. this is bullshit" jenn jenn

i bought my first bag of weed the other day. i bought a dime bag. it was so weird. i usually let other people buy and i share it with them. but this time, i actually bought and paid for it. so this thursday when i'm done with summer classes, i'm gonna have some fun.

my surgery is one week from today. four teeth. damn. that's gonna hurt. i might have to call out from work. we'll see. i'm gonna tell the dentist to drill holes through the teeth so i can make a necklace. lol, that's so stupid.

i gave an oral presentation today and for the very first time, i wasn't even all that nervous. i knew exactly what i was talking about and i made eye contact with the audience and i even made them laugh. so i'm getting better and better.

the whole stalking situation i was experiencing...it's died down. i think this dude is coming to his senses.

i talked to my dad today and he told me that he got all of his teeth removed. oh my god! he said he was having really bad oral problems and had to get all of his teeth removed. he's only 53! geeze louise! so he has a set of dentures right now, but in three months after his gums have healed, he's gonna get 28 teeth implanted into his gums. that's $1,000 per tooth. hey, i'd spend that much too to avoid having to wear dentures. i just can't believe it. he got 22 teeth removed. that's gross. i hope i can see his mouth before he gets the implants. i'd probably cry if i saw that. that's sad.

i must have gotten my teeth from my mom. my mom doesn't have teeth that looks like mine, but my brother tj and my sister katrina have teeth like mine...big. we must have gotten them from a grandparent or something.

i was excited about these braces i'm supposed to be getting, but now i'm not really looking forward to them. they're expensive, they require a lot of upkeep, i can't eat candy...it's gonna suck. there'll be a lot of things i won't be able to eat ;). whatevs...its all good cause i haven't been eating much lately anyways. i'm trying to lose 8 pounds by halloween.

so there's this asian dude that's tryin to holla at me now. i've never had an asian dude trying to get at me before. well, scratch that. this will be the second asian dude, but the first asian dude trying hardcore to get at me. the first guy was just kinda being laid back about it. but this new dude is waiting on me to lose my man. he told me that when i'm looking forward to moving on, i should come holla at him.

it's cool cause now, i can have whatever guy i want. i remember when there was a time where i couldn't get anybody that i wanted. i liked this one guy, alex, from 7th grade to 10th grade, but ya boy was just not feeling me at all. he was mexican, but he had green eyes or blue eyes or something. but he showed ya girl no love. he would get with me today, i'm sure. but then, i have to admit, i wasn't hittin on nothin. i couldn't blame him. then this other guy i liked in middle school, uriah. he's an albino. i found him on myspace and facebook last year and i had asked him if he remembered me cause i had a hardcore crush on him. i told him that he wasn't feeling me at all though. he said, "i don't know why i wasn't feeling you cause you're a gorgeous girl." so that was sweet, but i did let him know that i was a beast then. i'm just glad that i'm through with that phase in my life.

so apparently i have good ninja skills. i'm supposedly pretty good at black jack too. i'll leave it at that.

one of my life's goals is to go to an open mic thing and to do some freestylin. i've been thinking about that a lot lately. i would never have the guts to do it, but one day, i will do it.

so i'm still prett set on this bangs thing. i really want some bangs, but torrey is just not feeling it. like really not feeling it. im like wtf? what's the big deal? i'm definitely not gonna get it just cause he doesn't like it. maybe he had a bad experience with a girl who had bangs.

anyways....gonna get ready to go to work. i'll holla.

jenny "he's fast...he's the fastest kid alive" jenn jenn

so myspace has this new feature where it tells you how many times each particular picture that you have posted has been viewed.

and for some reason...i can only guess as to why...but this one particular picture has WAAAAAAAAY MORE views than any other picture that i have. it has at least three times as many views as any other pic.

i'm gonna blame it on horny guys that may be looking at it at 3 in the am.



jenny "oh shit! the cops!" jenn jenn

man..."i feel like a dick."

i've seen "say anything" like six times in six days. i never realized that it was such a great movie.

jenny "and one little bottle of spermicidal lube" jenn jenn

well fuck me!

so i'm 24...going on 25...and my first wisdom tooth is just now trying to come in. these things are supposed to pop out when you're 17 or so. everything happens late for me. i started school late. i haven't had sex yet. maybe i'll hit a growth spurt later and end up being 5'10. that would be nice.

but yeah, i was looking in my mouth today and i see a new tooth trying to peek through my gums in the back of my mouth. its so weird. but that's a non-issue cause in about two weeks, that tooth will be gone. my insurance finally approved my teeth removal. so i'm getting all four of my wisdom teeth taken out. they're gonna have to cut through my gums to get to them, but they're coming out. they wanted to take out a fifth tooth, but i was like "does that tooth really need to come out? can't i just get braces to pull it back in line?". so that's what they're gonna do. after i get these four wisdom teeth pulled, i'll get my teeth cleaned and then maybe a few months later...braces. that'll be weird, but we'll see how it goes. just when i thought my smile couldn't get any more perfect ;)

so i'm gonna have this major mouth surgery in two weeks. torrey is taking me. they want someone to drive me there and drive me home. i have to be on some serious meds like a week and a half before the surgery and then probably afterwards too. when i get there, there's gonna give me two different types of anesthesia. one of which is nitroux oxide, which i am so exicted about. i cannot wait to get some of that N2O. i'm gonna be laughing my ass off at nothing before i fall asleep.

but i'm glad i'm getting this done now so i can have it done before i take my new orleans trip. hey, what if i get down there and then want to eat some meat ;). that's why i'm gonna wait a few months on the braces. i don't want to be trying to look all hot and then smile and have a mouth full of metal. i bet when i get my braces, i'll look even younger than i do now. i can see it now. i'm gonna get mistaken for 12 and 13. i just know it.

oh shit! i just realized that torrey is gonna HATE when i get braces. cause that'll mean no more...woooooow. lol. that is too funny. i guess i'll be single for a few months (or however long i have to wear braces for). wow, i never even thought of that. dah well.

well i'm gonna go get about three hours of sleep and then i won't get to sleep again until thursday night. i have a calculus test to study for and that means no sleep until the test is done...which is thursday night. that'll be another 36 hour day/night for me. ah shit.

ok, well i'm gonna peace on out of here.

later bitches.

jenny "ow! what the shit was that!" jenn jenn

guys love my pie. hey, girls love to eat my pie too.

and now for a really banging song. the video sucks, but the song rocks.



jenny "hey! back the fuck off before i beat the shit out of you!" jenn jenn

i saw this one commercial where the bk king put some shaving cream onto this girls hand, tickled her nose, and made her hit herself in the face with the shaving cream. it made me laugh cause i remembered this one episode that happened back in 03.

we were here in atlanta for our national hosa championships. so akia was here and i was sharing a room with her and raven and fallon. i think we even shared a bed cause i think raven and fallon shared a bed (they're sisters). i can't remember, but that had to be the way that it went.

anyway, it was late at night and me and fallon and raven didn't want to go to sleep yet, but akia was knocked the fuck out. she can lay down and be asleep in a matter of seconds. she laid down and litterally five seconds later, you could hear her snoring sooo loud. so i tell fallon and raven to give me their makeup. i got some ketchup packets and filled her hands with ketchup. i drew makeup all over her face. i gave her a ketchup mustache. it was hi-larious. i could not stop laughing.

then the bitch woke up in the middle of my artwork-ing. and ya girl was pissed! i ran my little ass into the bathroom and locked the door cause i litterally thought that girl was gonna beat my ass. lol, it's funny now. i stayed in the bathroom for like two hours, i was soo scared. i mean, the girl is over 300 lbs i'm guessing...that's more than three of me. it was too funny though.

like two hours later, raven came and knocked on the door and told me that akia had finally went to sleep and that i could come out and go to bed now. so i did. i went to lay down and fell asleep. i wake up like thirty minutes later and akia is trying to do something to me. i think she was trying to put mayonnaise or relish on my face or something like that. so everybody woke up and we just laughed for the longest time.

those were the days. now i can't stand the bitch. we were pretty good friends back in the day. i remember i was in a room with like five or six people and they were talking so much shit about this girl. i remember just being so mad and so angry that they were talking about her so bad.

i thought we were really good friends, but then she tries to hook up my boyfriend at the time with this ugly bitch. it was just like, what did i ever do to her? not a damn thing. she's wack. i shouldn't be mad at her...i should only be mad at the guy for taking the bait. but i can be mad at her cause we were supposed to be friends. she was just a hater though. she probably was just mad that she wasn't me.

she actually had the nerve to message me on myspace or facebook or something a couple years back trying to talk to me and request my friendship. i told her...weren't you the chick that was trying to hook my boyfriend up with some other girl when you knew we were going out? she never responded to me and never said anything else to me since. that's so funny.

i think her having something against me had something to do with me running against her in high school for treasurer of the national technical vocational honor society. i beat her and i think she secretly started hating me after that. hey, i wanted some kind of office? i was gonna run for secretary, but i knew leniqua was running for that too and she had a whole lot more friends than me. i knew i could beat akia, so i chose to run for treasurer. lol. that's so mean.

but i'm sure akia and crystal (the girl she tried to hook my ex up with) are happy we aren't together anymore. good. either one of them can have him. i don't give a fuck. i fought for him for a long time and i look back now and just ask myself why. it wasn't even that serious.

i remember how my ex used to call me "sunshine" and i thought that was his own little special name for me. so i saw a text that he wrote to this girl once saying "i miss you sunshine". wtf? what a tool. and i found pics of him and this girl in his phone. pics and video. all the time! not just once or twice. i was the dummy though, for sticking around.

i'm the kind of bitch that'll hold a grudge. so?

so for torrey to think that i'm the kind of girl to cheat and do that kind of thing when i'm in a relationship with him...it's really a slap in the face. that's not my style. if i wanna fuck around with somebody else, i won't lead you on. i can't even imagine how i'd handle trying to hook up with multiple guys. it's too much. one is enough for me. so i have no idea where torrey gets this idea that i'm some kind of whore or something. having gone through what i've gone through, i wouldn't dare think about doing that to somebody else. i mean, i know i talk a lot of shit, but it's just talk. i would never do something like that. it's just really not my style.

so i remembered all this stuff just because of a burger king commercial. lol. dang. i'm going to bed now.

peace out.

jenny "it's you...McMuffin!" jenn jenn

Just had a nice hot cup of starbucks coffee. Now gonna take a long hot bubble bath and then take a nap.

this is a very awesome video. possibly the most awesome video that i have ever seen on the internet....ever.



jenny "the skin comes right off" jenn jenn

i'm still here!

i've been away for a little while, but i really need to update this thing huh? well i'm in the middle of doing a project for one of my classes right now, so i'll do a brief update now and a more definitive one later.

the one thing i wanna say now is:

HALLOWEEN WEEKEND '09 --> NEW ORLEANS BABY!

its official. i'll be going with riche, sam, riche's "boyfriend", another couple that riche knows and another girl. i am so excited.

i won't be booed up while i'm in new orleans so i can really have fun. torrey is cool and everything, but ya boy be blockin! that's so wack when your boyfriend blocks like that, right?

no, it's gonna be fun though.

oh, and the stalker comment i made earlier? ok, so i was trying to be nice to this person, i won't say who and i won't say what i did, but i need to be not so nice in the future because stalking is not cute. it really isn't.

what else...ok, well there's a couple of guys who put messages in my honesty box saying that they're digging what i'm throwing out there. you know, they said they think i'm really pretty and one said he sees me around campus all the time and wanted to get together one day soon. i just wish i knew who it was. i think it might be darnell f-ing around or it might be torrey f-ing around to see what i'll do. for some reason, torrey thinks that i'm that kind of girl. but whatevs. that ain't my problem. so, but yeah. torrey got all mad cause i got excited about these dudes leaving me messages in my honesty box. i mean, duh! i'm a girl, of course i'm gonna get excited when a dude tells me that i'm pretty and that he thinks we should meet cause he thinks we'd really hit it off. that to me is telling me that, "hey, i think you're really pretty. i would like to go out with you sometime. maybe have the possibility of you being my girlfriend. that means that i get to kiss you and hold your hand while we're walking down the street and we get to be around each other all the time." that's what i get from that and its really flattering when a guy feels that way, so of course i'm gonna eat it up. torrey is just gonna have to get over himself on that one.

so i keep talking about this sleeve that i'm gonna get. i really wanna get one soon. i'll probably end up starting it small and then gradually adding stuff onto it. i think i wanna get my right arm done and start it around the bicep area and eventually have my entire right arm tatted up. from writst to shoulder. that's gonna be hot (to me).

this thing that i've been saying and just wearing out now is: "i'm not trying to be rude or anything...but can you shut the fuck up?" i am killing that phrase.

my car is trying to die on me. awww.

this was supposed to be brief, but i know i have that presentation to work on and i'm trying to put it off. i ain't slick. i'm trying to trick myself, see?

sam registered for her classes for fall. she's gonna take five i think. i'm trying to coach her so she can get out in two years too. ("two years bitch, say somethin'!").

i got this little raise at work so i've been looking for a roommate. i've been living with vickey for almost two years now and i gotta say: i'm too grown for this shit. i need my own spot. well i only work part time, so i'll be getting a roommate this time around, so hopefully soon...

oh, and josh gets out of the marines at the end of this year (or so he says) and he says he gonna go to school in charlotte. he's gonna go to cpcc for a year or two then transfer to johnson and wales to do culinary arts or some crap like that. he says he's gonna get an apartment in the same complex that i used to live in when i lived down there. that's gonna be so funny, so weird. but i hope he does get his own place. that way if and when i ever come back to charlotte, i can stay at his place insteaf of my dad's. if i stay at my dads, that won't work out if i wanted to meet up with some people. been there, tried that. so, that'll be perfect.

i had this weird dream about mitch the other night. so mitch and i were talking a couple weeks back and he was telling me all this stuff. i won't get into it, but i think that's why i had a dream about him the other night. i dreamt that i was walking in the mall. i had on this short skirt and these heels right? so i'm walking out of a store and this little dude comes up and starts walking beside me. now i'm only 5'3, so this little dude comes up to me and only comes up to my waist-ish area and i look down and he puts his arm around my waist and starts walking with me. i look at this dude and it turns out its mitch! lol. i have no idea what that was supposed to mean, but it was so weird.

i was daydreaming about kissing mitch the other day. since torrey doesn't read my blog anymore, i can say that. i think one day its gonna happen. and when it does happen, i think that'll be the hottest kiss i will ever have in my entire life. cause, it's like years in the making you know? years of pent up sexual tension i guess. but yeah, i daydream about that kiss sometimes. it will most definitely one day happen; its now just a matter of when. i think the longer the wait the better it'll be.

and i was thinking about this sex thing. i actually found myself crying a couple weeks back about this whole virginity thing and about me not having sex still. but i got over it. i think that may have been my third crying episode over it. i mean, i get upset about it a lot, but i've only gotten to the point of tears maybe three times. but it is what it is. i'm over it (at the moment anyway). so i was thinking...there's at least two, maybe three guys from my past that i would like to try to have sex with after i start (we like to call it "bus' it wide open"). i'm not gonna say who they are. but two definitely, one maybe.

and sex with me and torrey. i think about it. a lot. actually, i'll say that 60% of the time when i think about it, i want to go ahead and have sex with him. but the other 40% of the time, i tell myself i'm not ready. so until i'm at 100% (cause there ain't no going back), i'm just gonna have to keep putting it off. i don't want to have any regrets.

one of my sexual fantasies...one of the top ones actually...is to have sex on a really squeaky bed. shhh! don't tell nobody.

so i bought this really cute dress at the mall really early last year. so its a size zero and when i bought it, it could fit and it was bad. now it's almost two years later and...dunh dunh dunh...i can put it on, but it will only zip halfway up now. that means...i need to lose a couple pounds. but fuck a couple pounds, i wanna go ahead and get down to 100. so i gotta lose about...8 pounds i'll say. that's very doable. i want to wear it at my graduation, so i better get started now. but if i start now, that means i'll have to lose only less than 2 lbs a month. that's less than 1 pound every two weeks. i'll need to lose half a pound every week. that's very doable. so i'm gonna get started now. but now i'm thinking, that dress may be too big if i go all the way down to 100. we'll see.

ok, what else?...i think that's it. i've procrastinated long enough, i gotta do this assignment.

ok, and, uh...thats it for now. i gotta go take a nap so i can do some work.

peace out!

jenny "can we get 13 road beers to go please" jenn jenn