my birthday is in two weeks. i don't know what i'm gonna do yet. then daniel's coming to charlotte the weekend after that, so i have to take him out. when i get back to atlanta, i'm gonna try to hook back up with him. daniel was pretty straight. i wish i appreciated him more when i had him.

but right now, my head is banging. the lady did my cornrows sooo tight.

i did my taxes today and i'm getting like $1500 back, so that's great, since i'll be out of a job in a matter of days. i'm so glad vickey will let me stay with her for free.

i've been thinking about what i want to do with my life. i want to move back to atlanta, finish school. go to school full time, even take summer courses to catch up as much as i can. go to optical school (they make like 180k a year, i can handle that) maybe join the army or marines as an optometrist after i get my phd in optometry, then adopt a little boy. that's what i want to do, cause i know i won't be having sex within any of that time, but who knows, maybe i'll find the one. single and in atlanta, that's hot. then i have a lot of single friends in atlanta too, even hotter.

future's lookin bright for ya girl.

peace out bitches.

jenny

weekend number 2 of 3 alone. actually, i won't be alone. i actually have people that want to hang out with me this weekend.

and today, i'm getting my hair did. getting out of this fro and into some braids. i'm excited about how it'll turn out. i won't be seeing my real hair for a long time. months. maybe a couple years to really let it grow back out.

ok, well i got up at like two this morning because i didn't work on friday so i slept all day and when 2 a.m. rolled around, i was back up. it's gonna be a long day. i'm gonna have to take a break this afternoon and come take a nap or something. well, i have to pick out hte fro. peace out blogspot.

jennifer

i don't get my hair. it'll grow, then break off. grow, then break off. i realize now its because i heat it waaay too much. so this will be the last time for it to break off. from now on, i need to pay more attention to it. and it had gotten the longest it's ever been, but broke off again. it keeps doing that like every three or four years and i'm really getting pissed off now. i'm just happy all of it didn't fall out. and maybe it's falling out because of the stress. i gotta let it grow out without heat this time. so i'm planning on wearing cornrows or some kind of braids for like a year. i'm sure that'll work. but my hair's been growing pretty fast. i grew all the honey blonde out from high school in like three years to get it to the length that it was. so that's really good for my hair.

i'm done complaining. i'm just happy i still have my smile. hair will come and go, but a smile and a face is forever. don't ever forget that. a pickle face is for life. and i can't possibly imagine kissing a face that looks like a pickle (crystal) just because it has long hair coming out of it. i can't imagine kissing a face that looks like a jack-o-lantern (laneesha) for the rest of my life with nappy hair coming out of it. and i can't imagine a face that really closely resembles a great silver back baboon (sarah) every morning. gross. but hey, some dummies (lamar) are into weird shit like that. more power to them. they must have stomachs of steel.

jenny

i didn't win the 15 million last night. but maybe next time.

i have a job interiew today, so my life is looking a little brighter.

peace out.

jenny

i don't know what the hell to do with my life right now. im becoming so so depressed. i need to get out of this rut.

it seems like everybody's coming home from school this weekend. a FEW people actually want to meet up with me and hang out with me this weekend. can you believe that? and sam's gonna be in atlanta for spring break. finally, i get a chance to meet up with old acquaintances.

so next weekend, i should be in atlanta too. a three day weekend for me, so i can go to georgia state and take care of some business. i really need to be down there friday morning cause i have a lot to do if i want to start there soon.

ok, well i'm gonna go on to work, for one of the last times at this place. peace out.

jenny

well i applied for re-entry into georgia state today. i'm gonna be out of a job in the next two weeks or less and i'm not trying to stay up in this shitty town. i can go live with my step mom vickey and go to school full time. i'm gonna apply for a couple student loans tomorrow. i'm excited about moving actually. hopefully that'll happen in the next couple months. i'm so unhappy right now, i need to be around people who want me around and who love me and want to hang out with me. i can't really find that in charlotte. anyways, peace out bitch.

jenny

the sweetest thing happened to me last night. i was crying in my room because, i don't know, it just felt like the world was against me. but anyways, i was sitting on my floor like really crying, which i haven't done in a long long time, and prince walks up to me and jumps up on my lap and just starts likcing my face. i thought that was the sweetest thing in the world. i really did. it's like he knew i was feeling crappy and he made me feel so much better. of course, i started crying a lot more when he did that, but i would never have thought he would do that.

ok, so i'm felling a lot more better and optimistic today. thanks a bunch to a great new kick ass boyfriend that i don't speak enough about, but we're just tring to keep this low-key. you know i think about you though baby.

all right, i need to stop messing around and get ready for work.

oh yeah, i joined facebook. i have so many friends on there now. people i went to middle school with, high school, worked with, it's so cool. i know more people on facebook than myspace. myspace is all about random dudes wanting to holla, facebook is all about my friends. reconnecting with people. lamar dropped me as his friend on there. that loser didn't find me worthy enough to see all of his page. i'll never understand that jerk, but thankfully, i'll never have to. i really don't know what's the deal, i'm not even his girlfriend. i'm just a chick who wanted to check out his page. but i know it's only because he knows i'll find out so many awful things about him that he did. but what the hell does he care? you did me wrong, everybody else sees the inappropriate comments, let me see them. but he's being a bitch about it and there's nothing i can do. truthfully, i don't need to see it to know what went down.

on that note, i won't be talking about "douche bag" lamar anymore and that's a promise. unless he does something really really really stupid. which i don't doubt.

ok, peace out.

jenny

my hair has been breaking off so so so bad. i don't know what to do. it's terrible. i think it's time for a hair cut or something.

jennifer

confusion-ness.

jenny