ok, so i have a new apartment now. i just could not live by my step mom's rules so i got the 'f' out. i live with this african girl named Yaa now. she's pretty cool so far. she says she's quiet just like me and doesn't like a lot of noise, just like me. that's pretty good. it's almost a new year. one more day in 2003 and i could care less. i feel like such a loser now that high school is over with. in high school, i felt that i was somebody important, but out here in the real world, i'm a nobody again. it took me three and a half years to be half way cool at west meck and now i have to start right back over again. and since i'm making zero progress, i think i need to move back to charlotte and go to chapel hill or unc charlotte or just move closer to lamar. i have no other options other than to stay here and rot away. i'm so depressed now.

ok, so my new years resolutions are to :

brush my teeth at least three times a day instead of twice a day (i have this obsessive compulsive thing where i feel like i always have to brush my teeth now, i don't know what it is.)
work out for like 30 minutes at least twice a week, maybe three (yeah right, like this is gonna happen)
save up for a car
save up for tuition

me and lamar will have been going out for two years exactly tomorrow night at like 10 pm. that's so special. it lasted two whole years. i'm so proud of us. watch, when we break up, i'm gonna be all akward about writing this. anyways, i love him, so it's all good.

so i go back to school on jan 12. well that is if my dad gets this $3500 to me in the next two weeks. if not, i'll be working until august to get this money together for the next semester, which should actually be free since i'll have this HOPE scholarship. but we'll see what happens. as for now, i'm just trying to get stuff for my new apartment. i'll only be living there for six months though and then me and this girl that i know from work and that used to live upstairs from me, Porlisha, are gonna be moving into some cheaper, but just as nice, apartments. she's gonna be going to school for fashion marketing so she and i decided to move in together for a while. she'll be in school for four years and that's about how long i'm gonna be at georgia state, so it all works out. now i'd much rather be living with my boyfriend somewhere like riche is, but i guess i lucked out on that one huh. oh well, maybe in another life. ok then, i'm gonna go to sleep now cause i just can't seem to keep my eyes open. i'll holla.

jenn