it's the last day of march. i'll be 22 in about three weeks. i've never done anything huge on my birthday, so maybe this year can be different. since the 21st is on a saturday and the 22nd is on a sunday, maybe me and darnell can do a weekend thing. i don't know, go somewhere. daytona beach? new york maybe? i don't know. i want to do something. i think he'll be able to show me a good time and he might even be able ot keep up with me. so i'm kinda excited about that. we gotta start planning this now.

it's like 6 in the morning. i work up about an hour ago and couldn't go back to sleep. i have a long day, lots to do, so i'm gonna go get myself together now. i'll holla. peace out.

jenn

it's friday. i'll be spending this weekend alone, sam's got this thing going on and josh went to iraq on wednesday. i plan on having a lot of me time. i'm actually still gonna dress up and go out alone. i'm gonna go to the movies, go to the mall, do something. i actually have a lot to do, so i'm kinda excited about it.

hopefully today will go by pretty quick.

ok, i'm gonna finish getting ready for work. peace out bitch.

jennifer

it's thursday. it's raining, and i don't feel like going to work today.

well the sweetest thing happened to me yesterday. i was at the store playing the powerball right and i'm leaving...this little boy goes out the store before me and doesn't realize that i'm leaving behind him. so he walks out the door and i have to like catch the door so it doesn't close on me and he's like, my bad and goes and holds the door for me. this little boy is like three or four. he was with his dad. i thought it was so cute.

it just made me realize...i'm about to be 22, i really wish i was in a different place with my life. i would love to have a family right about now. i would love to have a COMMITTED guy and a little boy. that's how i feel. that's what i want. i don't know, i guess i have nothing but time. but if i want to have 20 kids, i was thinking, i really need to be getting started soon.

well i gotta find the dude first then i can worry about the family part. maybe i can adopt a little boy as a single parent. i'm gonna look into that.

holla y'all.

jenny

wow, i haven't blogged in like four or five months. well i blame myspace. ever since i got up on there, it's consumed me.

anyways, well, me and lamar broke up again. did i already say that? well we broke up again back in september and we finally FINALIZED it last month when i kicked his ass out. at first, i was sad. yeah, for about two days, then i got angry, now i'm just at peace. out of the five years we were together, i swear to god, this is the first time that it's felt like it really was over between us and i'm not even sad about it. i'm just really happy and excited and anxious to be with somebody new.

i mean, i know i'm a pretty girl, i'm smart, what guy wouldn't want me? and i'm a virgin...what sane guy wouldn't want that? and what stupid guy would fuck that up? well lamar did, but he was...special is the word i guess. i guess he thought he was too cute or what ever the hell he thought he was, to treat me with any kind of respect. i guess he thought i should kiss his ass like those ugly little girls that just LOVED him up in new jersey. that idiot must not have known that i was in a totally different class than those monkeys. he should have been kissing my ass.

but it's all good. i've moved on. i'm hopeful for the future. i know i'll find the guy that's for me. lamar wasn't THE ONE for me, so it's gonna be fun trying to find him. or maybe it's a her. but i hope it's a him.

peace out blogger. i'll holla atcha tomorrow. we have a lot of catching up to do.

holla,

jenn