Another thing to add to my bucket list: stand-up comedy. I'd LOVE to hit the stage with my always #WINNING jokes. It'd def help with my social anxiety too.

I was seeing a therapist for a couple of months and recently stopped going. The past couple of weeks, I've been EXTREMELY depressed. I need to start going again

I think I want a dog so bad right now cause I don't have a baby. There's a void in my life that needs to be filled :-(

Geeze, Prince William is getting married next year in April on Vickey's birthday, which is one week after my 26th birthday. I cannot believe that I'll be 26 in 5 months. That just sounds soo old, lol, dang. But I bring up the Prince's wedding because I heard about it on Wendy Williams' show. I could just imagine myself being a princess and marrying a prince. I wish someone would fall in love hard with me like that and ask to marry me, and offer me the world and actually be able to deliver. Hey, I'm still young and cute, it can still happen for me. Is make a bomb ass princess too. Is always be able to have my nails done, hair done, everything did...fancy huh? I could wear all the cute clothes, cute shoes, makeup always did, nice jewelry, just perfect. Hey, I got tons of potential, I'm just so damn lazy and just don't care about all that. That's one of my New Year's resolutions..to take better care of my body/appearance, to be more "girly" by wearing more skirts and dresses and heels, less jeans and pajamas, no more hats!, nails done, hair on point, keep up with this weight loss, be more active physically and socially, and finally, I would say spend the entire year being single, but I already know how I am, but I will try really hard. But Idk, I really want 2011 to be my year to shine, my year of change, my year to step out of my box. I'm kinda excited about it. I think something really exciting is gonna happen for me next year, a really dramatic change. We'll see. Ok, back to studying for finals for this week.

-Jenny

I'm really starting to think I was a witch in my past life. From my mom's last name to some recurring dreams I had when I was younger...Idk, maybe..

*Breathes deeply* Aah. Fresh air. Smells nice! It's been far too long, but exactly what I needed. I want to do it right this time so it'll be perfect next time.

There are things that I need to do more of in my next relationship and there are things I need to do less of. Each relationship is a learning experience and I am REALLY ready to meet "Thx One". I keep saying this, but I'm 26 almost and I still haven't found a man who is on the same page as me. I'm almost 30 for God's sake. Maybe I'm just too picky and should just take what I've been getting...but I know I deserve soo much more than what I've had. I don't know, I think I'll wait for however long it takes to get what I really want. I'm too good to settle for the B.S. I've been getting.

-Jenn

I'm almost 26. I know what I want, but I don't have it yet..not even close. It shouldn't be this hard but it is this hard..for me. I'll just have to pray on it.

i have been "reading" a lot of stephen king books. i listen to his books and stories at work and so far, i've listened to:

-Carrie
-Salem's Lot
-The Shining
-Jerusalem's Lot
-Graveyard Shift
-Night Surf
-The Mangler
-The Boogeyman
-Gray Matter
-Battleground
-Sometimes They Come Back
-Strawberry Spring
-The Ledge
-The Lawnmower Man
-Quitters, Inc.
-I Know What You Need
-The Last Rung on the Ladder
-The Man Who Loved Flowers
-The Woman in the Room
-The Dark Tower I: The Gunslinger
-Rita Hayworth and the Shawshank Redemption
-Apt Pupil
-The Body
-The Breathing Method
-Pet Cemetery
-The Talisman
-The Monkey
-Mrs. Todd's Shortcut
-The Raft
-Gerald's Game
-Rainy Season
-Suffer the Little Children
-The Green Mile
-Desperation
-Bag of Bones
-The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon
-Hearts in Atlantis
-Blood and Smoke
-Riding the Bullet
-Dreamcatcher
-Black House
-Autopsy Room Four
-The Man in the Black Suit
-All That You Love Will Be Carried Away
-The Death of Jack Hamilton
-In the Deathroom
-The Little Sisters of Eluria
-Everything's Eventual
-L. T.'s Theory of Pets
-The Road Virus Heads North
-Lunch at the Gotham Cafe'
-That Feeling, You Can Only Say What It Is In French
-1408
-Luckey Quarter
-The Colorado Kid
-Cell
-Lisey's Story
-Duma Key
-Willa
-The Gingerbread Girl
-Harvey's Dream
-Rest Stop
-Stationary Bike
-The Things They Left Behind
-Graduation Afternoon
-N.
-The Cat From Hell
-The New York Times At Special Bargain Rates
-Mute
-Ayana
-A Very Tight Place
-Thinner

Believe it or not, this is not even half of the stuff Stephen King wrote. He's sooo good. I want to eventually read ALL of his writings. He's really good. And I've noticed that whenever he writes about a black person, they always seem to have some special power; whether it be telekinetic power, mind-reading power, healing power, it's always something. It's very interesting.

Anyway, back to this homework.

-Jenny

i actually got to use this line on someone for the first time the other week! LOL, it was hilarious (to me). they told me: "if you scratch my back, i'll scratch yours" and i said: "the funny thing about my back is...its located on my cock!" then i fell out. i finally got to use it! its been sitting in my back pocket for years and someone finally set me up to use it. LMAO.

i already can't wait to use it again the next time someone different asks me.

on another note, i finally set up an appointment with a therapist. let me tell you, BOA offers amazing benefits. i get my first three sessions absolutely free (no copay or nothing) then i am covered to go as many times as i want throughout the year, but i have to pay a $15 copay after the third free visit. that's not bad cause BOA gives us a $600 debit card to use for our copays each year (which is completely free to us). BOA has the best benefits ever, i swear. i get 24% off my sprint bill and we get discounts and reduced prices for like everything and the health benefits are just awesome. i think i pay like $25 a week, $100 a month for my health insurance and it is well worth it. even part time people get all these benefits. i don't ever want to leave BOA. i think once i find a full time job, i'm still gonna try to work part time for the bank just to keep the benfits. they have some positions that are only like 10 hours a week.

i'm trying to find a real job. soon. i ultimately want to end up out west, but idk. i need to do something soon.

so the therapy thing. i have my first appointment on tuesday. oh, and come to find out, my therapist graduated from gsu and told me that we can get free counseling at gsu each semester as students. well ok! but the problem is, i won't be a student after next semester, so i'll just stick with this chick i have. i wish i would have known this two years ago though. :-(

ok, ttyl.

-jenny

i'm sooo in LOVE with this game. gotta play it again real soon one of these weekends.



-jenn

PSA

This is a PSA for all of the men...

Fellas, if you run into a female that looks like this:



and this:



at another angle:



And just in case you weren't completely clear, here's a video of this thing in action. Again, DO NOT HAVE SEX WITH THIS THING!!!!

It's name is Kuato. It will make your penis sad:



That is all.

-courtesy of me,

jenny

and you know who else can get it? this guy:



he can GET IT all day.

and you know who else CAN NOT get it?? guys who wear brown hats with a green shirt/vest combo. WARM EARTH TONES are not for GROWN MEN!!! DENIED!!!

and you know who else CAN NOT get it?? guys named Mike Harris. #justsayin.

<3 jenny

I have been feeling extremely depressed lately. To the point where I want to cry. I've been so unhappy. i don't know what it is. its been this way for the past week or so. i hope i get over it soon though. its not a good look. i caught myself shedding a tear last night at work even because i was feeling so down. for no reason! i was on the verge of breaking down and crying hard for no reason at work last night. i had to stop and breath and calm down for a second. anyway...

so i'm planning on moving to new mexico within the next year. i'm really nervous about it and really excited. fresh start.

another new thing...ok, i've always been adamant about drake's fugliness. he was just not cute and i was never shy about saying it. however...drake has been stepping up his sexy. i am not mad at what he's talking about.



oh yeah. HE CAN GET IT. anytime any place.

i've been noticing how much in love with facial hair. whether it be stubble (heavy stubble though), a full mustache, a nice beard...i love it. it gets me hot. it represents manliness. and that's what i want, a rugged manly man.

i want a man with a really deep voice, a lot of facial hair, over 6 feet tall, HONEST, will laugh at my jokes and has jokes for me to laugh at, has an awesome job with benefits, has a car, no kids (not at this stage in my life), someone who doesn't have EX issues or baby mama drama.

when i move to new mexico, i'm gonna find me a native american man that fits the bill. i think i'll find him too. man, can you imagine me with a native american?? that would make for some really good looking babies! those baby would have hella cheeks too, lol. yeah, that sounds like a plan. i'll be on the hunt.

the prototype that i'm looking for?? this dude right here:



if anybody can get it...he can get it. more so than gavin degraw!!!

this fine piece of man here is Jason Momoa. he's 31, from hawaii, and he's part native american, german (what what!), irish (like my boo conan), and Hawaiin. he's 6'4 and dude is DOING IT! his eyes are gorgeous. and i cannot believe that Lisa Bonet booed this dude up. this is her boyfriend and baby daddy. lucky bitch.

he was in the movie "Johnson Family Vacation" (the clip below at around 0.37 seconds) but he's supposedly most known for "Stargate Atlantis" on SciFi (never seen it!).



so don't be surprised when you see a dude who looks like this on my arm out there in the new mexico desert.

you know one dude that can't get it?? this ugly dude right here:



DENIED!!! lil wayne is looking real rough in jail. NOT CUTE BOO!!!

i got most of these pics from mediatakeout.com by the way. i love that site now.

ok, before i go, there's one more dude that can get it. this guy, Brett Young.



yeah, HE CAN GET IT too.

he's a singer. i first heard one of his songs on an episode of the Real World and i was just like, "that sounds just like Gavin Degraw". i figured out who he was and listened to some of his music online. one of his songs, "Let it All In". i am so in love with this song. he sings the hell out of it. he did a cover of "Walking in Memphis", just like Gavin Degraw did, but guess who's was better? yep, my boo GDG...of course. i'm sure gavin could even sing "Let it all in" better than this dude, but i must admit that this dude is much cuter than gavin. sorry, boo!

here's brett's song that i am soooooo in love with right now.

Let it All In by Brett Young

ok, well all that sexiness lifted my spirits a bit. hopefully my mood will be lited for the rest of the day anyway, cause i really have been feeling shitty and depressed.

ta ta for now.

<3 jenny

this is a pic of my mom that i found on my sister's myspace page. i haven't seen her in years. i think this pic was taken around this time last year. i miss my mom. i gotta go to florida one day soon to visit. she got that asian eye. her eyes are wide open in this pic. they call my mom "red". she's a red bone. they called her "china doll" back in the day too. i get my eyes from her. i get my cheeks from my dad though. i think i got my teeth from my mom too cause all my brothers and sisters from her side have big teeth. my skin comes from my dad. my temper definitely comes from my mom. brains from my dad. independence comes from me.

-jenn

so after this semester, i only have nine more credits that i need to graduate. so i'll be graduating in may. that means i'll be free to apply to jobs...unless i still wanna try for medical school. but i'm not sure if i want to at this point. i just want to go ahead and get a career started. i'm gonna be 26 soon (damn!) and i don't think i can handle like 7 more years of school. i'll be around 33-ish and have a but load of debt to pay off.

by that time, i already wanna be married with a house and kids and be already established in a career. so i was thinking about all this and i think that after i get my masters in a few months, it's time to make big moves. over the past few days, i've been doing some research. i found TONS of jobs out west that i can actually do! jobs that only require that you have a master's in biology (experience is not required), so my hopes are really up right now. i think i'm going to start applying for those jobs around March. and hopefully by this time next year, i can be long gone from atlanta, georgia. i really only came back in 2007 to finish up school. i did plan on going to medical school here and working in the area, but atlanta wasn't as cracked up and great as i remember it being. i'm ready to peace out of this lame ass place. start fresh somewhere else. and the possibilities are really exciting to me.

so hopefully by this time next year, i'll be blogging in a new state and happy to be working in the science field and not being in school anymore. being a career student just isn't for me.

i'm 26. i'm a virgin. but again, i'm 26. i've wanted a family for a really long time. i come from a really big family. both my grandparents had over 10 kids a piece, i'm one of 11 kids. i want to have kids too. and if i don't get to have 10, that's fine too, i just want some. and i'm tired of meeting these loser "boys". i need to meet a good "man". these boys around here, especially georgia, are kinda wack. so are these old ass men that keep trying to holla. out west, i'll be looking for a 30+, mature man with a job (with benefits), car, his own place (house, not apt...30 is too old not to have your own house). i just can't deal with the immaturity these young dudes bring to relationships. and i can't have ex drama. as soon as i know of ex issues, i'm out. i can't do it.

but anyway, i've been working on revamping my resume to add by B.S. and then my M.S. and...i cannot tell you how EXCITED i am about finally getting to New Mexico and moving on. i'm only gonna renew my lease for 6 months in april and not for the typical year because i'm really not planning on being here. which means that packing now wouldn't entirely be out of the question.

well anyway, i've been enjoying my labor day weekend. i got quite a few things done. got a HELLUVA LOT of sleep. it's been a good weekend. hopefully next weekend will be just as awesome.

ok, gonna do some more cleaning then get some more sleep. peace y'all.

-jennifer

i was talking to sam the other day about that dude that's always dancing in downtown atlanta at five points. i was telling her that i hadn't seen him in months and lo and behold, she saw him the very next day! just gettting down. this is my absolute favorite video of him on youtube. i couldn't find any newer ones since the last time i looked, but this is still my favorite. he always hangs out right in front of the Sports Profile at the 5 Points Marta Station and he just kills it. i laughed so hard just now watching this video. everytime i see it, i bust my gut. anyway, here it is.



then i found this video on youtube. it's not that dude that is always dancing downtown, but this shit in this video happens every single day in downtown atlanta. this video was shot right down the street from georgia state, going towards aderhold. this video is hilarious.



lol, i love how in the beginning of this video when the crackhead first starts to dance, the cameraman says "just the good foot, just the good foot". lol! H.A.M.

bye!

-jenn

i've been rediscovering rachel ray's "$40 a day". me and sam used to watch this show on the weekends and during the summer at my apartment in charlotte. i really really really miss those times. but it comes on twice a day now on the travel channel. me and sam both can't stand the woman, she's so corny. she uses these made up words ("yum-o") and has this stupid ass laugh. and the number one pet peeve that i can't stand about her is that whenever they give her a lemon on the side of her glass of water or on the side of her plate with her fish, she ALWAYS!!!!! uses it!!! come on rachel! everytime?!?! it doesn't need to be used every time. she'll squeeze it in her water and on her fish. she's such a ho.

anyway, that got me to thinking about what chris rock said about her and that in turn got me thinking about torrey's little crush on her. here's the clip. its really bootleg, but its the only one i could find.



-jennifer

You know how a boxer keeps getting hit & they get hit 1 hard time and never fully recover from it? They keep trying to stand until they just lay down/give up.

I said once before that i wanted to have sex with a handful of people, but after thinking about it for a bit, i would be perfectly fine with just 1.