I have been feeling extremely depressed lately. To the point where I want to cry. I've been so unhappy. i don't know what it is. its been this way for the past week or so. i hope i get over it soon though. its not a good look. i caught myself shedding a tear last night at work even because i was feeling so down. for no reason! i was on the verge of breaking down and crying hard for no reason at work last night. i had to stop and breath and calm down for a second. anyway...

so i'm planning on moving to new mexico within the next year. i'm really nervous about it and really excited. fresh start.

another new thing...ok, i've always been adamant about drake's fugliness. he was just not cute and i was never shy about saying it. however...drake has been stepping up his sexy. i am not mad at what he's talking about.



oh yeah. HE CAN GET IT. anytime any place.

i've been noticing how much in love with facial hair. whether it be stubble (heavy stubble though), a full mustache, a nice beard...i love it. it gets me hot. it represents manliness. and that's what i want, a rugged manly man.

i want a man with a really deep voice, a lot of facial hair, over 6 feet tall, HONEST, will laugh at my jokes and has jokes for me to laugh at, has an awesome job with benefits, has a car, no kids (not at this stage in my life), someone who doesn't have EX issues or baby mama drama.

when i move to new mexico, i'm gonna find me a native american man that fits the bill. i think i'll find him too. man, can you imagine me with a native american?? that would make for some really good looking babies! those baby would have hella cheeks too, lol. yeah, that sounds like a plan. i'll be on the hunt.

the prototype that i'm looking for?? this dude right here:



if anybody can get it...he can get it. more so than gavin degraw!!!

this fine piece of man here is Jason Momoa. he's 31, from hawaii, and he's part native american, german (what what!), irish (like my boo conan), and Hawaiin. he's 6'4 and dude is DOING IT! his eyes are gorgeous. and i cannot believe that Lisa Bonet booed this dude up. this is her boyfriend and baby daddy. lucky bitch.

he was in the movie "Johnson Family Vacation" (the clip below at around 0.37 seconds) but he's supposedly most known for "Stargate Atlantis" on SciFi (never seen it!).



so don't be surprised when you see a dude who looks like this on my arm out there in the new mexico desert.

you know one dude that can't get it?? this ugly dude right here:



DENIED!!! lil wayne is looking real rough in jail. NOT CUTE BOO!!!

i got most of these pics from mediatakeout.com by the way. i love that site now.

ok, before i go, there's one more dude that can get it. this guy, Brett Young.



yeah, HE CAN GET IT too.

he's a singer. i first heard one of his songs on an episode of the Real World and i was just like, "that sounds just like Gavin Degraw". i figured out who he was and listened to some of his music online. one of his songs, "Let it All In". i am so in love with this song. he sings the hell out of it. he did a cover of "Walking in Memphis", just like Gavin Degraw did, but guess who's was better? yep, my boo GDG...of course. i'm sure gavin could even sing "Let it all in" better than this dude, but i must admit that this dude is much cuter than gavin. sorry, boo!

here's brett's song that i am soooooo in love with right now.

Let it All In by Brett Young

ok, well all that sexiness lifted my spirits a bit. hopefully my mood will be lited for the rest of the day anyway, cause i really have been feeling shitty and depressed.

ta ta for now.

<3 jenny