i cannot believe that i'm feeling good this week, but then again, it is only monday. i really don't want to do a 60 hour week this week. that's gonna be crazy, but i do need the money i guess.

i have this thing about asking people for money. i don't do it. i hate it. i am so proud and independent that it just kills me to think that i might have to do it, so i just don't. the only person i ask, and that's once in forever, is my dad, and i really hate asking him. it's just not right. and i don't like people constantly asking me for money. it's like, come one. you work, i work, i don't ask you for money, you don't ask me for money, it's all good. you have bills, but so do i and i have to straighten out all my stuff before i can help anyone else. that's really getting annoying to and two people constantly do that to me. but i ain't naming no names.

anyway, leaving on a happier note...i saw coming to america again last night and i loved the part where eddie murphy is playing all those dudes in the barbershop. the whole movie is so funny. better than 'she-devil' though? i don't know about that.
coming up: "coming to america" vs. "she-devil".

holla.

jenn

i made over $1300 last week alone and then the f'ing governement takes out almost 50%-like $500. that is so crazy. but it's still gonna be a sweet check. get a lot of bills knocked out on that one check. so that's cool.

anyways, i haven't much to talk about this week. today's no different.

holla!

jenn

i have been trying so so so hard to get some FREE gavin degraw tickets for the 23rd. if i do get them...for FREE...i'd be the happiest girl in the world. gavin degraw is soo good. i know all his songs word for word, i just love him. if gavin was to come up to me and offer me sex (yeah right), i'd take it. i'd jump all on that. no hesitations at all. i think he's really cute, can't say that about a lot of white guys though.

but anyway, gonna try again all weekend long to get some. 23rd is coming up really soon.

all right, i'll holla!

jenny

i went out to get some apple juice down from the corner store one day last week and i saw this guy parked like two spots down from me on the passenger side staring at me. so i go into the store, get my juice and go out to my car. this asshole parks right next to my on the driver's side and he gets up out of his car and it's this big tall fat ugly black dude and he comes over to my car and i'm trying to hurry up and get inside and drive away, but this idiot runs over, holds out his hand and says, 'hi, i'm rick james'. rick james? ok. so i don't wanna be rude, so i shake his hand and say hi, big mistake. this negro doesn't let go of my hand for the next couple minutes. i had to snatch it away. geeze louise! i can't stand niggas. some black people all right, but the niggas have got to go.

anyway, i think the moral of the story is that if i get orange juice next time, i might be all right.

holla!

jenny "you don't have to outrun the bear, only your slowest friend" jenn jenn
-i told that to sam, the bear thing, and she cracked up.

i went out to get some apple juice down from the corner store one day last week and i saw this guy parked like two spots down from me on the passenger side staring at me. so i go into the store, get my juice and go out to my car. this asshole parks right next to my on the driver's side and he gets up out of his car and it's this big tall fat ugly black dude and he comes over to my car and i'm trying to hurry up and get inside and drive away, but this idiot runs over, holds out his hand and says, 'hi, i'm rick james'. rick james? ok. so i don't wanna be rude, so i shake his hand and say hi, big mistake. this negro doesn't let go of my hand for the next couple minutes. i had to snatch it away. geeze louise! i can't stand niggas. some black people all right, but the niggas have got to go.

anyway, i think the moral of the story is that if i get orange juice next time, i might be all right.

holla!

jenny "you don't have to outrun the bear, only your slowest friend" jenn jenn
-i told that to sam, the bear thing, and she cracked up.

it's tuesday, nothing to write about. i really need to be in school soon because this shit ain't cutting it.

holla!

jenny

the weekend went by so fast and i am still sleepy. i don't know what to do. hopefully this week won't be as crazy as last week. i need some friggin rest?

i saw four brothers, which was really really really good. and i saw skeleton key this weekend with my sister. skeleton key sucked. but at least we didn't have to pay for it if you know what i mean. yeah, so anyway, next week, we're gonna go see that red eye. that looked pretty good.

all right then, gonna start on this work. i'll holla.

jenn

i'm gonna go see that four brothers movie this weekend and skeleton key. looks like me, sam and darnell. maybe we can have a slumber party afterwards! that would be fun.

so tonight, i'll straighten out my hair, wrap it up then go to bed. this week has been too much, but i'll have a really sweet check, like always. i love this job.

you know that 'soul glo' commercial on coming to america? i love it. i love the song. vickey, my stepmom, she had a jheri-curl back in the day. the kind where you're sitting on the couch and when you get up, there's a big juicy stain from all the activator dripping from that person's head. it's really gross.

anyway, back to work, i'll holla.

oh yeah, nice blog darnell. glad i could inspire one person.

holla.

jenny "do these jeans make my butt look big" "no, your butt makes your butt look big" jenn jenn

i am so lazy. i always put stuff off until i can't even do them at all. i need to work on that.

but i have been giving some serious thought to this boyfriend in a wheel chair thing. that is such the perfect situation for me. a paraplegic, not a quadraplegic, dude living in charlotte. that would be so sweet. i might have to start working on that. i'm sure there's a paraplegic community that stays in touch in charlotte. a network or something. there even has to be a paraplegic dating site. i'm gonna start looking and see what i come up with.

anyway, so far this week i've done 3 back to back 12+ hour days. looks like it'll be the same all week, and then next week and then the week after that. geeze louise! i'm so friggin tired, but i gotta make that cheese, that green, that bread, them dollas!

ok, i'm done, i'll holla.

jenny "will you holla for a dolla, do something strange for some change" jenn jenn

like i was telling lamar, i need to just get a boyfriend that's in a wheelchair and there would be no sexual problems. we both would be happy. they CAN'T have sex and i DON'T WANT to have sex. perfect.

holla.

jenn

i'm sleepy, so tired, nothing to write about this morning so i'll holla.

jenn

you know that one part on coming to america where the landlord is about to take them upstairs to see their apartment when they first get to queens? then this one dude comes rolling down the stairs and the landlord goes...'don't pull that fallin down the stairs shit, yo rent is due motha fucka!" that was so funny. i gotta try that one.

anyway, what's going on with me. nothing really. gonna re-teach myself calculus since i'm going back to school in january. DARNELL'S gonna help me out. my calculus sucks. i only got a 1 on the ap test for it. i got like a 'C' or 'D' in the class. ever since i did all that moving around in tenth grade, after algebra II, i'm dead at math. so DARNELL is gonna help me out. he's so smart. he said he got a 1460 or something like that on the SAT's, but he does like to tell stories. and he said he got a 2 or 3 on the ap test, i forget which one, but i don't know, he tells so many stories.

oh yeah, and it was so weird yesterday, we were just talking about sex and virginity and he was actually telling me that i should be sleeping with lamar. they like hate each other and this dude is telling me that it's not fair for me to be with him for four years and not be having sex with him. i was like, i know this isn't coming out of DARNELL'S mouth. wow, i'll give it some thought but...i doubt it.

anyways, talked to daniel this weekend. a lot of dudes that i talk to, they love to talk. and i don't talk so much, so it's perfect. like when i talk to lamar, he does most of the talking, darnell does most of the talking, daniel does most of the talking. i only do most of the talking when i'm talking to sam or to my mom. that's it. but i don't mind. i guess these dudes just know me and know i don't talk much, so they do enough talking for the both of us.

so, all right. feeling sick this morning, so i'm praying this day goes by fast and i won't have to do any kind of overtime, although, i really won't mind the overtime. i'm paying the last $1000 this month on my student loan. after this month, i'm just gonna be saving all kinds of money. saving for so many different things though. for school, and that'll probably be it. i'll save for school and then work this job in the daytime and go to school at night. save up for graduate school i guess. sounds like a plan.

all right then, i'll holla!

jenn

you know that part on coming to america when they just get to queens and they get their luggage out of the cab and leave it at the front door step of this apartment complex and go inside to look at an apartment. as soon as they close the door to step inside, a whole lot of people come up and start taking bags. the next day, all these homeless folks and little kids are walking around with big fur coats and crowns and gold on? then this one guy tries to sell them back their own gold blow dryer and comb set and watches? that was too funny.

but anyways, can't wait for the weekend. i have so much cleaning and sleeping to catch up on. as soon as i get home, i gotta take a nap or something.

i was flashing back and i remember DARNELL was such a big dude in high school. he was way too big to be having a little bitty book bag...which he only wore on one shoulder...all the time. it made him look so much bigger and for some reason, so soft. it was so funny. i was thinking about that cause when i saw him the other day, he had another book bag, but not such a small one and he wasn't as big as he was, but still. too big for a book bag. why do black dudes carry around book bags everywhere now? just go ahead and get a man purse...that's why you're carrying a book bag around anyways. it's not gay at all...the man purse. nothing wrong with it.

yeah, so i'm gonna go ahead and roll up out of here. peace up, a town down. i cannot stop saying that. 'peace up, a-town down'. it's just stuck in my head. whenever i hang up with my sister now, i say it, then start doing the beat to the song (yeah-uRsher). yeah, lame, i'm trying to quit, but it's hard.

work now, holla!

jenn

yeah, so i haven't written anything about DARNELL in a while. let's talk about DARNELL. it turns out DARNELL never left charlotte. he was supposed to be going out of the country to africa and london, but it didn't work out so he'll be staying in charlotte now. hmm. seeing other people? might have to pick that up again. lol, anyways.

there are just too many guys and i can't even have any kind of fun...or can i? maybe i can do it on the sneak sneak. i think i deserve to anyways, as much as i've been screwed around. that's something to think about right there i guess.

the thing is though is that i'm 20, i live alone, have a car, doing things, but not doing things. with independence like this, i can't be stuck in the house waiting on phone calls every night. that's lame. i want to have some fun. i want to be able to mingle. to go out with not just one person, but with a bunch of different people. to go on a date. to go to the movies or to the mall or go ride in some bumper cars or go hang out uptown. i need to be doing these things instead of wasting time sitting at home next to the phone all night. cause the thing is, i can't go hang out with girls, they don't like me (cause they're haters!) so i have to hang out with guys. so to keep it platonic, i would have to go hang out with ugly dudes, but i don't want to hang out with ugly dudes, so i gotta hang out with decent looking dudes who probably like me and who i probably like too. so i'm stuck there, but i think i'll go for it.

and i'm talking all this big game and probably won't even get to do it, but we'll see.

work now, i'll holla.

jenn

'coming to america' is the funniest movie in the world. one of the funniest anyways. i laugh everytime i see it, even though the jokes are old and played out. so i think i'll start quoting the movie at the end of every blog.

anyways, been so tired this week. haven't been getting enough sleep. mucho trabajo poco sleep (yeah, i forgot 'sleep' en espanol). so yeah.

i think i'm gonna get a tattoo on the inside of my arm, like underneath where no one really sees. it'll be cool. thinking about getting a bar code down there. or a bar code near my groin region. who knows. i'm gonna get something soon.

so i have a lot to do this morning. gonna go now. i'll holla.

"COMING TO AMERICA" quote of the day:
-the old barber asks why hakeem's hair is so good and soft.
...'nothing, i use nothing but juices and berries'
...'boy that ain't nothin but ultra-perm'.

holla!

it's all over now. it's all over and suprisingly i don't feel like i normally feel. but i'm sure when the actual time comes, i'm gonna be crying like a baby, but i don't think so. somehow its different this time. i'm sad, yeah, very sad, but i don't think i'll be crying. maybe i've gotten used to it, who knows?

so anyways, i sent crystal an email yesterday and that chicken head didn't have anything to say cause she knows she's wrong. uh huh. thought so bitch.

so my plan for the next few months....to work my ass off and just save up. try to get back to school in january. i am now 2 years behind everybody, but at least i'm trying. it seems like longer than two years though. time is going by so so so slow.

i don't know what the hell i'm gonna do with myself, i need to get the hell up out of charlotte. go back to atlanta. where everybody knows my name (like cheers right), so i need to get a start on doing that. cause right now, i have no direction. i don't want to live here, in charlotte, are you serious? charlotte is so friggin lame.

but somebody who is doing good things with their life is daniel. that boy is just all over the place. he goes to georgia tech, has a great job/internship deal, is gonna be working for the CIA for the big bucks, he's just doing great. he does a little too much, but he's doing his thing. i am like 98% sure that if i move back to atlanta...which he always asks me "when are you coming back" "i need to take you out when you get back"...that he's gonna try to hook back up. i'm trying to tell you, once you've had a taste of this, there ain't no going back buddy. that's it. you are hooked for life.

anyway, trying to be serious now. got so much to say, but gotta save some stuff for later. gonna get started on this 12+ hour day now. oh god, and it's gonna be like this for the next few weeks too, but gotta make that bread i guess. ok, holla!

jenny

i am not lying when i say that like every person i know tried to call me yesterday on sunday. well every person i know that i hadn't talked to in forever. i talked to mitch, daniel, a whole lot of folks.

this dude that likes me at this job just stopped by my desk straight from coming in the door. guess he wanted to see if i still worked here, i hadn't been here for the past four days. mm-hmm.

anyways, i'm out, i'll holla!

jenn

i hate people that just talk talk talk. they don't know when to shut up. i have a boss like that and this one dude at work that thinks i like him, he's like that too. they just from one thing to the next and just talk. those kind of people are just lonely and don't have anyone to talk to when they get home, so they talk everybody else's ears off. it's really sad.

saw the island last night and it was pretty good. gonna have some fun on this four day weekend coming up too, hopefully, if everything goes right. we'll see though. if folks ac' right. i hate how people say "axe" instead of "ask" and "ac" instead of "act". whenever i hear stuff like that, the song "ghetto girl" by lil bow wow always pops into my head. whether its a girl or a dude saying it. anyway.

gonna go finish up this last day for the week so i can get the hell up out of here. holla!

jenn

IT'S FINALLY HERE AND I JUST SHRUNK UP AGAIN. I TRIED NOT TO DO IT THIS TIME, BUT I DID. ONE DAY I'LL GET OVER IT, BUT I DON'T KNOW. I REALLY HOPE ITS SOON. THIS ISN'T A GOOD THING.

HOLLA!

JENNY

i feel kinda stupid. i look kinda stupid too with my eyebrows gone, but they'll grow back, one day, and i'll never get them done again. anyway, i had such a busy weekend. had a lot to do. now i get to have fun this week, holla!

jenny