it's all over now. it's all over and suprisingly i don't feel like i normally feel. but i'm sure when the actual time comes, i'm gonna be crying like a baby, but i don't think so. somehow its different this time. i'm sad, yeah, very sad, but i don't think i'll be crying. maybe i've gotten used to it, who knows?

so anyways, i sent crystal an email yesterday and that chicken head didn't have anything to say cause she knows she's wrong. uh huh. thought so bitch.

so my plan for the next few months....to work my ass off and just save up. try to get back to school in january. i am now 2 years behind everybody, but at least i'm trying. it seems like longer than two years though. time is going by so so so slow.

i don't know what the hell i'm gonna do with myself, i need to get the hell up out of charlotte. go back to atlanta. where everybody knows my name (like cheers right), so i need to get a start on doing that. cause right now, i have no direction. i don't want to live here, in charlotte, are you serious? charlotte is so friggin lame.

but somebody who is doing good things with their life is daniel. that boy is just all over the place. he goes to georgia tech, has a great job/internship deal, is gonna be working for the CIA for the big bucks, he's just doing great. he does a little too much, but he's doing his thing. i am like 98% sure that if i move back to atlanta...which he always asks me "when are you coming back" "i need to take you out when you get back"...that he's gonna try to hook back up. i'm trying to tell you, once you've had a taste of this, there ain't no going back buddy. that's it. you are hooked for life.

anyway, trying to be serious now. got so much to say, but gotta save some stuff for later. gonna get started on this 12+ hour day now. oh god, and it's gonna be like this for the next few weeks too, but gotta make that bread i guess. ok, holla!

jenny