sometimes i ask myself why i even bother. boyfriends can be so "AAAH!" sometimes ya know. he just needs to follow through. ugh, i don't even want to talk about it.

anyways, my sister sam's birthday was today. she's 14 now. that seems a little weird. the little girl's gettin grown. i said little, that girl towers over me, but everybody does anyways.

i got a new job. i quit the value village cause i was offered something so much better. i now work for this credit reporting company. i sit in a cubicle all day and type up property deed reports for banks. so far it's pretty good and pretty easy. plus i'm making some good money doing it. thank god, cause i have so many bills that i need to pay off. i know my credit is just crap. oh well. it's only seven years right? yeah right. that's really gonna screw me up.

i think i'm gonna go back to atlanta in a year or so. i miss it now. and south carolina/charlotte isn't really doing anything for me right now. so the plan, i think, is to do a couple years worth of catch up work at cpcc and get some experience and time in at this new job, then get everything changed over to atlanta. i'll go to an atlanta school, and i'll get my job transferred over to atlanta (i'm so glad my job has a location in atlanta). yeah, that sounds really good. riche wants me to come back and to get an apartment with her, so that's just what i think i'm gonna do.

anyways, i gotta get up early tomorrow for that 9-6. geeze louise it's gonna be a long week. good night.

jenny jenn jenn

i am so so tired. i had a long week. but it's gonna be worth it.

jenny jenn jenn

the next couple of weeks are gonna be crazy for me. i'm so excited. there's gonna be all these changes.

but other than that, there's not really anything that i need to talk about so, good night.

jenny jenn jenn

i've been through a whole lot of changes lately. well only a couple.

i miss my boyfriend.

i saw "the grudge" today with my sister and we just hung out for a few hours. i had a lot of fun.

jenny "do you have a grudge?" jenn jenn

i'm back. nothing new with me. i'm going to bed now. oh wait, i got that one guy, lamont who keeps putting hands on me fired yesterday. i had to tell the boss that he was stealing, i was getting so tired of him not taking 'no' for an answer. had he kept his hands off me, i wouldn't have said anything to the boss about him and he would have a job today, but oh well. and if that ass steve keeps lookin at me, he's gonna be next.

-jenny "not playing any 'f'ing games" jenn jenn

you know when you go poop and then afterwards it hurts to sit down? yep, me too. it took me like fifteen minutes this morning to get myself together. i could barely walk.

-jenny jenn jenn

you know when you go poop and then afterwards it hurts to sit down? yep, me too. it took me like fifteen minutes this morning to get myself together.

-jenny jenn jenn

i really like my job, but the customers i could do without. they're really starting to piss me off. and now the store manager (my partner in crime and lawrence and mitch's uncle) is all mad cause the guy that i talked about in an earlier blog, lamont, the guy who keeps touching me, keeps stealing stuff but he can't catch him. i'm such a mole at work. i tell the store manager everything that lamont and a couple of other people that i don't like does and steals. i already got one heiffer fired (stephanie--i really didn't like her, she thought she was better than me), now i'm going for lamont. after he's gone, then i'll get rid of steve. i don't like steve either. every time i look up, he's staring at me. he's so fucking ugly and dumb. he's gotta be like 30 something, but i think something's wrong with him. he's so slow.

and so the customers are getting on my nerves. mostly the regulars. i need to wear a sign from now on that says "Do Not Fucking Tell Me How to Wrap a Plate, How to Bag Your Merchandise, What Tags are on Sale, and Do Not Ask Me to Double Bag Your Bag...I Have Been Working Here Longer Than You Have Been Shopping Here, I Know What I Am Doing. Thank You. -Jennifer" one day, i swear i'm just gonna take everybody out.

anyway, i gotta go do something different with my hair. these cornrows are getting really old and really old looking, i gotta go straighten it out now. well maybe tomorrow. i'm gonna shower then sleep...but after madtv and cheaters and jerry. good night. later.

-jenny "i'm about to lose my mind, up in here, up in here" jenn jenn

i need to lose weight. i feel so big.

i've had a headache all day from training these girls for the past two weeks for the new Value Village that's opening up next week. that was a mouthful.

i'm gonna go eat now. oh crap.

i can't wait til sunday so i can sleep in all day.

oh and "the grudge" comes out in like two weeks. i have to go see it. sarah michelle gellar and jason behr are in it so me and sam will see it the saturday after it comes out. that same day, i'm gonna get some work done. it's gonna be painful, but fun.

goodnight.

-jenny jenn jenn

my oldest brother israel has this thing for the big girls. now he can't be more than 160 himself but he likes the girls that are 300+. he showed me this picture book that he has of all of his old girlfriends in seductive poses. this book was full of all these big black girls just styling and profiling. it was really gross.

my second oldest brother c.j. has this kid by this mexican girl. the kid is 7 now but he looks like a baby still. he had hydrocephalus and he's still screwed up about it. i only met him once.

my other brother alan is in texas right now. he'll be in japan soon. he has a thing for the asians if you know what i mean.

my brother josh...i hope he graduates high school this year and does something about himself.

my sister sam is an albino...not really buti like to pretend that she is.

my brother t.j. is a little version of my brother josh.

i swear my sister katrina is gonna end up as a lesbian. she already told me so at the age of 9.

my brother mikey is so lame. he doesn't look like the rest of us, but i guess he is.

my brother landon, i miss him. he's pretty cool. he was so funny.

my sister jevonne, i really don't like her. she's a witch with a "b". i know i'm gonna end up fighting her. i don't know who she thinks she is, but...

anyway, that's it. i shared way more than i intended. i gotta go clean up now and get ready for work tomorrow. goodnight.

-jenny "if i had my mom's last name (Witchard) then i really would be a JennWitch" jenn jenn

so i went to work today. it was very uneventful.

there's been this white guy that's been coming in and he has this TERRIBLE, TERRIBLE acne! i swear to god, it's the worst crap i've ever seen in my life. this guy has pale skin and really red hair and he's really tall, but then scroll up to his face (that's so lame isn't it...i said scroll up to his face) and the skin around his nose is just so red and enflamed and all zit-ty. i swear the first time i saw him, i wanted to throw up. i even started gagging, i swear. he was kinda cute, but he just had the acne really bad. every time i see him, it just ruins my whole day and he's been coming in everyday lately. i really look forward to it tomorrow, really.

oh yeah, i gotta shave the dog tomorrow. he had mange, so i have to let the hair grow back even, so he's gonna get the lion cut tomorrow. anyway, i'm gonna go watch america's next top model now.

-jenny jenn jenn

i paid off like $400 in phone bills today and $200 in student loans. damn! i hate that so much. what a waste of $400. i'll know better next time. i won't get a phone cut on under my name for anyone else anymore. i'm so pissed off.

oh well. time to start saving back up.

-jenny "what a waste" jenn jenn

there's this guy at work, lamont. he calls himself having a crush on me. anyway, he always feels the need to keep his hands on me. he's always asking me if he can do all this stuff to me. i'm like, "hell no, my boyfriend says i'm not allowed to do that kind of stuff with other guys." and he's like, "well he's not here right now."

i'm seriously thinking about filing sexual harassment on him. ugh! he's so unattractive too. and he's old. well only 24, but too old for me.

anyways, i registered to vote. i feel so good about that too (i know, so lame). but i just gotta get to the polls in november now.

i caught up with an old friend today, leniqua. it feels good to do that every once in a while you know. there's that nostalgia again.

well i guess i should go find something productive to do since i don't have to go to work tomorrow. holla.

-jenny "so tired of it" jenn jenn

i was just thinking about this. when we were younger, i remember our dad being like really cheap (which of course he had to since he was raising four kids by himself) we used to have to take baths two at a time so it would be like me and alan and then josh and c.j. . whichever two took baths first were really lucky cause the last two had to get in the same bathwater. it would be all cold and dirty from the first two. and then i was the only girl there with my dad and three brothers in the beginning and having me bath with one of them...of course i didn't care at the time, but now it's kinda disturbing.

being the only girl, i guess i was spoiled a little. we would used to have to walk to wherever we went when we were younger cause my dad had no car, but my brother c.j. did have this bike so whenever we went anywhere, i would ride with my brother on the bike and my dad would walk alan and josh. i was such a tomboy. up until the end of middle school and the beginning of high school. i didn't play with barbies or dolls...i played with army men and toy cars and teenage mutant ninja turtles action figures. i remember me and alan and josh used to play with those action figures all the time. and then there were the video games. we were video game fiends. alan was always the best at it. he was really good. but it was nintendo, sega, super nintendo, all of the systems. i played in the dirt with my brothers and hung out with their friends.

i used to get into so many fights with little girls in elementary school. i was a little roughneck. i grew out of all of that though. yep, those were the days.

well, i'm gonna sleep...gotta get up soon for work. holla!
-jenny "those were the days" jenn jenn

i don't remember if i wrote about this or not, but i am so tired of people asking me my age.

today at work, while i was hanging up clothes, this lady asks me..."excuse me, but how old are you." 'i'm 19.' "oh, i was gonna say 12. you look like a little girl." what the...?

people think i'm between 12 and 17. really now. come on. is it the glasses or what? ever since i took out my lip ring, i have been getting 'the question' again. i used to get it before the ring, but now it seems that i have to get it back and something else a little more drastic, i don't know what yet. i'm gonna have to switch to contacts again and start wearing makeup. i think i'll try the transformation and by the end of october hope to have everything changed. i want to look like a different person. we'll see how it goes.

-jenny "shut the hell up with that" jenn jenn

since i have nothing else to write about, i'll tell a little about myself that a lot of people might not know. let's see:

*i was a cheerleader in the fourth grade
*i have a skin disorder
*i have seven brothers (israel-32'ish, c.j.-26, alan-21, josh-17, t.j.-12, mikey-8, and landon-1.5) and three sisters (javonne-24, samantha-13, and katrina-11)
*i have a chihuahua (kyra-1.5)
*i really like the simpsons and ren and stimpy
*i love to sing, but only when noone else is around to criticize me
*i want to sing on like american idol, or i'll just settle for an open mike at a bar
*i'm a really funny person (maybe just around the people i feel the most comfortable with...my family)
*i think i'm gonna be a forensic pathologist with my sister and start up a forensics company
*i really miss ATL shawty!
*i liked big anthony douglass in high school for like two years. he didn't start liking me back until senior year, but it was too late then. damn! he should have said something.
*i'm really not 5'3 at all...i'm only 5'2.75-d'oh!
*and the final thing about me is...i have a big ol' booty...yeah, i know it's hard to believe but i do. don't be hatin.

yep, that's about it.

good night.

-jenny "i'll never tell" jenn jenn

i've been doing a lot of thinking lately. lots and lots and lots and lots of thinking. it's time for changes.

-jenn

black girls are just...i'm so speachless. what other race of girls will, no matter how short their hair is, manage to pull it into a ponytail? i swear every black girl i know can pull their hair into a ponytail no matter how long or short their hair is. and the girls with the shortest hair seem to wear ponytails the most often and at the farthest points on the top of their heads. we are so friggin ghetto.

we do a lot of ghetto stuff too. we are so loud and when we're not wearing out ghetto ponytails, we...i mean they in this case...wear these outrageously elaborate weaves. it's so ridiculous. we wear tight jeans and have big ol' booties and talk loud and get real and snap our necks and gum and get smart and we always seem like we want to kick someone's ass. white girls are afraid of us and afraid of talking to us or looking at us wrong because, even though we might be smaller than some of them, they think we'll turn on the bitch switch...which seems to always be on in black girls...and start kicking some ass.

i don't really like hanging out with black girls.

-jenny *really not one of those black girls because if i was, me and lamar wouldn't be dating cause i don't think he could handle a ghetto black girl with him being so...conservative* jenn jenn

so i told lamar that i'm getting a little chubby, or he read it in the blog and he's like, 'you should do some crunches then.' what the hell!!! he wasn't supposed to say that. and he didn't even hide the fact that he wasn't even joking with me. but you know what, i am not worried about him at all. even if i was fat, i could still pull a dude, OK!!!

anyways, that's it i guess. i gotta go watch america's next top model now. i'll holla.

-jenn

so i've been gaining a little bit of weight this past year. i need to tone down what i eat a little. i usually eat candy for breakfast and lunch and then junk for dinner, so i need to cut that out.

i've been getting chubby in all the wrong places. my stomach is exploding when i really wish it would go to my chesticles. and don't let me get started on my thighs and hips. boy oh boy. that thing is like KA-POW!!! i mean, damn. but what am i saying, i never hear any guys complaining if you know what i mean (wink, wink).

seriously though, these hips that i have, damn man! they're out of control. the guys don't know how to act when i put on "those jeans". girls know what i'm talking about when i say "those jeans". those pair of jeans that you wear that just show all the goodies. oh yeah. i have so many of those jeans. uh huh. i know exactly what i'm doing.

but anyways, let me stop being all conceited.

i'm actually gonna go to sleep now. ta-ta.

-jenny "from the block with them big old hips and that big ol' booty, especially when she wears 'those jeans', damn!" jenn jenn