you know that part on coming to america when they just get to queens and they get their luggage out of the cab and leave it at the front door step of this apartment complex and go inside to look at an apartment. as soon as they close the door to step inside, a whole lot of people come up and start taking bags. the next day, all these homeless folks and little kids are walking around with big fur coats and crowns and gold on? then this one guy tries to sell them back their own gold blow dryer and comb set and watches? that was too funny.

but anyways, can't wait for the weekend. i have so much cleaning and sleeping to catch up on. as soon as i get home, i gotta take a nap or something.

i was flashing back and i remember DARNELL was such a big dude in high school. he was way too big to be having a little bitty book bag...which he only wore on one shoulder...all the time. it made him look so much bigger and for some reason, so soft. it was so funny. i was thinking about that cause when i saw him the other day, he had another book bag, but not such a small one and he wasn't as big as he was, but still. too big for a book bag. why do black dudes carry around book bags everywhere now? just go ahead and get a man purse...that's why you're carrying a book bag around anyways. it's not gay at all...the man purse. nothing wrong with it.

yeah, so i'm gonna go ahead and roll up out of here. peace up, a town down. i cannot stop saying that. 'peace up, a-town down'. it's just stuck in my head. whenever i hang up with my sister now, i say it, then start doing the beat to the song (yeah-uRsher). yeah, lame, i'm trying to quit, but it's hard.

work now, holla!

jenn

yeah, so i haven't written anything about DARNELL in a while. let's talk about DARNELL. it turns out DARNELL never left charlotte. he was supposed to be going out of the country to africa and london, but it didn't work out so he'll be staying in charlotte now. hmm. seeing other people? might have to pick that up again. lol, anyways.

there are just too many guys and i can't even have any kind of fun...or can i? maybe i can do it on the sneak sneak. i think i deserve to anyways, as much as i've been screwed around. that's something to think about right there i guess.

the thing is though is that i'm 20, i live alone, have a car, doing things, but not doing things. with independence like this, i can't be stuck in the house waiting on phone calls every night. that's lame. i want to have some fun. i want to be able to mingle. to go out with not just one person, but with a bunch of different people. to go on a date. to go to the movies or to the mall or go ride in some bumper cars or go hang out uptown. i need to be doing these things instead of wasting time sitting at home next to the phone all night. cause the thing is, i can't go hang out with girls, they don't like me (cause they're haters!) so i have to hang out with guys. so to keep it platonic, i would have to go hang out with ugly dudes, but i don't want to hang out with ugly dudes, so i gotta hang out with decent looking dudes who probably like me and who i probably like too. so i'm stuck there, but i think i'll go for it.

and i'm talking all this big game and probably won't even get to do it, but we'll see.

work now, i'll holla.

jenn

'coming to america' is the funniest movie in the world. one of the funniest anyways. i laugh everytime i see it, even though the jokes are old and played out. so i think i'll start quoting the movie at the end of every blog.

anyways, been so tired this week. haven't been getting enough sleep. mucho trabajo poco sleep (yeah, i forgot 'sleep' en espanol). so yeah.

i think i'm gonna get a tattoo on the inside of my arm, like underneath where no one really sees. it'll be cool. thinking about getting a bar code down there. or a bar code near my groin region. who knows. i'm gonna get something soon.

so i have a lot to do this morning. gonna go now. i'll holla.

"COMING TO AMERICA" quote of the day:
-the old barber asks why hakeem's hair is so good and soft.
...'nothing, i use nothing but juices and berries'
...'boy that ain't nothin but ultra-perm'.

holla!

it's all over now. it's all over and suprisingly i don't feel like i normally feel. but i'm sure when the actual time comes, i'm gonna be crying like a baby, but i don't think so. somehow its different this time. i'm sad, yeah, very sad, but i don't think i'll be crying. maybe i've gotten used to it, who knows?

so anyways, i sent crystal an email yesterday and that chicken head didn't have anything to say cause she knows she's wrong. uh huh. thought so bitch.

so my plan for the next few months....to work my ass off and just save up. try to get back to school in january. i am now 2 years behind everybody, but at least i'm trying. it seems like longer than two years though. time is going by so so so slow.

i don't know what the hell i'm gonna do with myself, i need to get the hell up out of charlotte. go back to atlanta. where everybody knows my name (like cheers right), so i need to get a start on doing that. cause right now, i have no direction. i don't want to live here, in charlotte, are you serious? charlotte is so friggin lame.

but somebody who is doing good things with their life is daniel. that boy is just all over the place. he goes to georgia tech, has a great job/internship deal, is gonna be working for the CIA for the big bucks, he's just doing great. he does a little too much, but he's doing his thing. i am like 98% sure that if i move back to atlanta...which he always asks me "when are you coming back" "i need to take you out when you get back"...that he's gonna try to hook back up. i'm trying to tell you, once you've had a taste of this, there ain't no going back buddy. that's it. you are hooked for life.

anyway, trying to be serious now. got so much to say, but gotta save some stuff for later. gonna get started on this 12+ hour day now. oh god, and it's gonna be like this for the next few weeks too, but gotta make that bread i guess. ok, holla!

jenny

i am not lying when i say that like every person i know tried to call me yesterday on sunday. well every person i know that i hadn't talked to in forever. i talked to mitch, daniel, a whole lot of folks.

this dude that likes me at this job just stopped by my desk straight from coming in the door. guess he wanted to see if i still worked here, i hadn't been here for the past four days. mm-hmm.

anyways, i'm out, i'll holla!

jenn

i hate people that just talk talk talk. they don't know when to shut up. i have a boss like that and this one dude at work that thinks i like him, he's like that too. they just from one thing to the next and just talk. those kind of people are just lonely and don't have anyone to talk to when they get home, so they talk everybody else's ears off. it's really sad.

saw the island last night and it was pretty good. gonna have some fun on this four day weekend coming up too, hopefully, if everything goes right. we'll see though. if folks ac' right. i hate how people say "axe" instead of "ask" and "ac" instead of "act". whenever i hear stuff like that, the song "ghetto girl" by lil bow wow always pops into my head. whether its a girl or a dude saying it. anyway.

gonna go finish up this last day for the week so i can get the hell up out of here. holla!

jenn

IT'S FINALLY HERE AND I JUST SHRUNK UP AGAIN. I TRIED NOT TO DO IT THIS TIME, BUT I DID. ONE DAY I'LL GET OVER IT, BUT I DON'T KNOW. I REALLY HOPE ITS SOON. THIS ISN'T A GOOD THING.

HOLLA!

JENNY

i feel kinda stupid. i look kinda stupid too with my eyebrows gone, but they'll grow back, one day, and i'll never get them done again. anyway, i had such a busy weekend. had a lot to do. now i get to have fun this week, holla!

jenny

i'm so excited about next week!

holla!

jenn

it's early in the morning, i'm still sleepy, but have a whole 11 hours to go. oh my god, i hope i can make it. i've been doing 11 hour days all last week and then again this week. i get a break next week, but after next week, back to 11 hour days.

that's all i got.

jennifer

if it's not one thing, it's another with me. i need to get it together.

i was watching this documentary about aids....i didn't know they had indian prostitutes. india has more people with aids than any other country except south africa. i had no idea.

holla,

jenn

everything for me right now is just stuck. i'm going nowhere right now. i need to be doing something different.

yesterday, i almost ran into a no parking sign as i was trying to do a 3 point turn. i know how to do them, it's just that i got nervous cause another car was coming and i was taking up the whole road and was trying to hurry up and go, but i made it through it.

howard stern and conan o'brien are so funny. i have to watch both of them before i go to bed every night.

all right then, i'll holla.

jenn

this weekend, i bought one of the best things in the world. when i saw it in the store, i had to get it. it was originally $50, but it was half off so i only paid like $27 for it. it works and still looks brand new too. i got it from a thrfit store.

it's one of those really old wooden floor televisions. i'm gonna put it in my living room. it's so big, i bought it thinking it would fit in my car, but it was way too wide. so i had to ask the dude upstairs, and i hate asking him for stuff, to get his truck and take me to go get it. so i'm gonna hook the cable up to it when i get off work today sometime. it's gonna be so cool.

my car is really trippin. as soon as one light goes off...the "check oil" light...another one comes on...the "low coolant" light, even though i filled the coolant! what the "f" is that? anyway, whatever, i need to get a truck anyways. so other than that, my weekend was ok, it was so friggin hot all weekend though and it's gonna be in the mid 90s all week here, so i guess i gotta show a little leg at work. it'll be in the mid 90s but feel like its in the 100s with the heat index and humidity. it's gonna be crazy. i guess i'll have to stick with the ponytail all week cause my hair's just gonna fall anyways.

so i'm gonna go now. holla!

jenn

oh yeah, i had this dream last night that my teeth were all small and yellow and i pulled a couple of them out and they were sore and there was all kinds of caked up yellow tartar in between my teeth and they were just oozing. it was so gross. i think i dreamt it because i watched extreme makeover that night and this one lady had really small yellow teeth.

i hate it when people have all that caked up yellow tarter between EVERY tooth EVERY day...like they don't brush their teeth! that's so gross! i know a couple people like that. my friend lance's teeth are like that. i know they can brush, floss, pick or do something to that shit. it's just so bad to look at. so sickening. i try to look in their eyes when i talk to them, but my eyes drift down to their teeth. i find that i always look at a person's mouth when they're talking. i don't really looking into their eyes. i like to look at their teeth, their lips, whatever. i like teeth and lips. nice teeth and lips. can't stand really really really big lips and ugly, dirty teeth.

so yeah, just came back for that, holla!

jennifer

today is my last day with my sister. she goes back home today. she's been staying with me for the past month though. it's been so much fun. i'm gonna be so lonely again. and then josh started a new job so he'll be gone too. so it's just be me and the dogs. i'm thinking about giving the chihuahua away and getting a puppy. a puppy shi-tzu. a boy that i'll name fred. yeah.

i want to get a truck. i big full cab truck too, that seats 4 people, two in the front and two in the back.

well, i might be getting fired today, i've been making so many mistakes lately. my boss's boss got really mad earlier this week at all the people making errors. today is the big error meeting. hopefully i'll still have my job next week. if i don't blog on monday, then that's what's happened. i got cut.

i'm thinking about cutting my hair into a mullet. or a mohawk. but what's cool about my hair is that i can make a mohawk without having to cut my hair. i think i'm gonna wear one this weekend. it'll be crazy. i'm so friggin lame. no, maybe i'll get one of those really short boy cuts. not like fade short, i wanna have some hair, but really really short. the guys would stop harassing me then, or would they?

and i'm gonna try to get that lasik eye surgery before the year is over with. i really want that. to be able to see without wearing contacts or glasses. that would be cool.

anyway, gonna work now before i get caught on the internet. peace!

jenn

my job got threatened again yesterday. my boss had this whole big meeting with everybody saying our errors have to go down or we have to go.

so i've restarted my search for another job. i've been invited to go live in texas with my stepmom, she's supposed to be going there. i'm thinking about it. it sounds all right. when i lose my job here, i'm definitely getting out of charlotte. thinking about going to atlanta too, so it's all good.

ok, not much else to talk about, holla.

jenn

i'm thinking about getting that simpsons tattoo really soon. like in the next couple weeks. i think i might get it in my upper chest region. we'll see.

i've been watching a lot of documentaries lately. that's all i did over the weekend. i watched this one where they showed the facts how hitler was gay. but i don't know, the evidence on that wasn't that great. and i saw a few forensic files type documentaries. i saw some about people living with aids, gay white dudes who had like four black kids, all kinds of crap. they make all kinds of documentaries about anything. if i could make a documentary, it would show how much food fast food places throw away every single day. it's crazy. for the two days that i worked at bojangles, every night, they throw away pans and pans of food. they didn't let us take it either cause they said employees would start to make extra food to take home. it was such crap, but with all the food these places throw away every day, every year, they could be feeding millions of people. seriously. it's so bad.

but anyways, i gotta get started on these reports.

holla.

jennifer

you know, i hope i don't get any obscene comments on this thing again, really now.

my driving is getting so much better. better every day. soon i'll be able to go out and about as i please. go hang out with some folks i hadn't talked to in a while (brim, lang, raven, fallon) whatever.

i hate it when guys don't get the point. this one dude at work keeps trying to invite himself over to my apartment for me to cook for him. first of all, he's 28, he's ugly, he has the most nasty looking teeth i've ever seen, and he's shorter than me. then, he doesn't have a car, doesn't even have a license, so he wants me to pick him up to hang out with me. i don't think so. every day, i get the same email..."what you doing tonight?". uh..."i'm going to bed, i'm tired." everyday, it's the same email and i always give the same answer. when will the dude learn?

but this one dude at work is supposed to be taking me fishing sometime, but i don't know if that's gonna work out. he's the same dude that thinks i like him. the one that thinks i'm gonna change my hair for him. yeah right. he needs to get over himself. he's short and not even that good looking. i don't like short dudes. i'm short enough, i don't need anyone under 5'10. seriously.

well, ran out of stuff to say. gonna fire up this atlas so i can get started with these reports.

jenny

oh yeah, dkj, i haven't forgotten about you, i just have a problem with calling people and staying in touch with people. i'll call you. you can call me though you know. i'm always at home. come on now.

thinking about old memories with darnell in high school. calculus class (when i was scarred for life), debate tournaments (when i blasted you in that one debate when we went against each other), wendy's (i wiped your lip). really wish i could go back. darnell is the only person i talk to regularly from west. he's the only one who wanted to keep in contact with my anyways. that's so special.

anyways, can't be reminiscing at work. the number one rule here at TransUnion is "NO FUN!". we're not allowed to have fun, so i better go, holla.

jenn

i almost killed myself twice already trying to drive my car. once on friday and once on saturday. not on sunday cause i didn't drive it on sunday, but i'm sure today i'll do it again. but i am getting better every day.

so i need to make a little extra money to pay off old debts when i came up with this really good plan. i'm gonna auction off my virginity on ebay. i've already thought it out and the highest bidder gets to be the first one in my goodies. i think it'll go well into the five digits. then i'll have my schoolin paid for. i gotta contact ebay first to see if it's legal. i'm pretty sure it is. no, it's not prostitution! anyway, as soon as i get the details, i'm going for it.

ok, well i'm gonna start working now. i'll holla.

jennifer