i keep doing this thing where i'm typing and pull my hair across my lip and start typing with a mustache. it is so funny. this job is so friggin boring that i have to amuse myself.

i didn't wear a bra to work today...is that wrong?

Title: Shake It Off [chorus]
I gotta shake you off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake you off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake you off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake you off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
Shake you off
By the time you get this message
It's gonna be too late
So don't bother paging me
Cause I'll be on my way
See I grabbed all my diamonds and clothes
Just ask your mama she knows
You're gonna miss me, baby
Hate to say I told you so
Well at first I didn't know
But now it's clear to me
You would cheat with all your freaks
And lie compulsively
So I packed up my Louis Vuitton
Jumped in your ride and took off
You'll never ever find a girl
Who loves you more than me
[chorus]
I gotta shake you off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake you off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake you off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy, I gotta shake you off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby, and that means I gotta
Shake you off
[bridge]
I gotta shake, shake, shake, shake, shake it off [repeat]
I found out about a gang
Of your dirty little deeds
With this one and that one
By the pool, on the beach, in the streets
Heard y'all was
Hold up, my phone's breakin' up
I'ma hang up and call the machine right back
I gotta get this off of my mind
You wasn't worth my time
So, I'm leaving you behind
Cause I need a real love in my life
Save this recording because
I'm never coming back home
Baby, I'm gone
Don't cha know
[chorus]
I gotta shake you off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake you off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake you off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciated all the love I give
Boy, I gotta shake you off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby, and that means I gotta
Shake you off



it's so perfect.

jenn

i was listening to mariah carey's song "shake it off" and it is so true. i laughed through the whole song.

darnell thinks that just because i kicked his ass in debate that he has to try to beat me in everything we talk about. we don't have conversations, we have arguments. i think i'm always right, and he thinks he's always right. we're so much alike.

anyway, holla!
jenn

i don't know what's going on, i've been feeling really naseous over the past few days. worrying. that's what it is. stress. stressing myself out and making myself sick. but after i get my money back, i'll be fine. through. over it.

but i was reading my car insurance papers and darnell's right. i hope they don't fine me and make me turn in my tags. i'm gonna go saturday morning and get some more insurance. that would be really fucked up though if i have to go through all that. and for what? some stupid jackass stealing from me? that is so fucked up! that's why i've been so fucking sick. making myself sick over this shit. i just don't get it. it will forever boggle my mind.

anyways, let me get to work so i can get the hell up out of here. i am so sick of this fucking place.

jenny

SO, THIS IS WHAT REALLY HAPPENED THIS WEEKEND. UNCUT.
LAMAR'S ACCOUNT WAS SUPPOSEDLY GONNA GET OVERDRAWN AND HE NEEDED $12. OK, I CAN DO THAT. $12 ISN'T A LOT OF MONEY AND I CAN AFFORD THAT RIGHT NOW. SO HE KNOWS MY ACCOUNT INFORMATION AND I TELL HIM TO GO AHEAD AND TAKE $12. THIS ASSHOLE TAKES IT UPON HIMSELF TO JUST GO AHEAD AND TAKE OUT $40. OK. SO THIS IS ON Friday. SO WE TALK THAT WEEKEND, HE SAYS NOTHING ABOUT TAKING THE EXTRA MONEY. I DIDN'T CHECK THAT WEEKEND BECAUSE I THIS IS MY BEST FRIEND, MY BOYFRIEND, MY LAMARFER. YEAH RIGHT. SO ON Monday, HE DOES IT AGAIN...HE TAKES $40 AND THEN GOES BACK AND TAKES ANOTHER $2. THE TOTAL IS NOW $82...$70 MORE THAN WHAT I SAID HE COULD TAKE. HE WENT BACK BECAUSE HE FIGURED I DIDN'T NOTICE THE FIRST TIME. OH, SHE WONT' NOTICE THAT I TOOK $70 EXTRA OUT OF HER ACCOUNT. ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS!
SO ON Monday, I TRY TO PAY A FEW BILLS. ONE OF WHICH WAS MY CAR INSURANCE. I HAVE TO PAY IT BY MIDNIGHT ON THE 22ND OR IT'S CANCELLED. I ALWAYS PAY IT THE DAY BEFORE, ALWAYS PUT IT OFF. SO I'M LIKE, WAIT, LET ME CHECK MY BALANCE FIRST. I'M NEGATIVE ON MY ACCOUNT. WHAT! IT SHOULDN'T BE NEGATIVE, I SHOULD HAVE JUST ENOUGH FOR MY CAR INSURANCE. BUT NOPE, I'M NEGATIVE. NOT ONLY AM I NEGATIVE, BUT I'M ABOUT TO GET THREE OVERDRAW FEES.
SO NOW MY CAR INSURANCE HAS BEEN CANCELLED BECAUSE I COULDN'T PAY IT ON TIME. I DIND'T GET THE OVERDRAFTS, I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, BUT OVERNIGHT SOMEHOW IT CAME BACK ON the PLUS SIDE.
SO ANYWAYS, I CALL LAMAR ON Monday AND ASK HIM ABOUT IT. I ASKED IF HE KNEW THAT HE HAD TAKEN OUT $42 AND HE SAID 'YEAH'. OK, WHY DID YOU DO IT? I TOLD HIM TO PUT IT BACK IN THERE. NO HE SAID 'WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO ABOUT IT'. I WAS SO HOT WHEN HE SAID THAT. HE COULDN'T PUT IT BACK IN BECAUSE HE WASN'T HOME YET SO I TELL HIM TO CALL ME WHEN HE GETS HOME AND PUT IT BACK IN. HE NEVER DOES. I KEEP CALLING AND CALLING AND LEAVING MESSAGES, BUT HE'S IGNORING ME. HE KNEW HE DID WRONG. IT WASN'T THE UNTIL THE NEXT DAY AT WORK UNTIL I REALIZED THAT HE HAD ACTUALLY TAKEN OUT $82 TOTAL. HE SAID NOTHING ABOUT IT BEING $82 WHEN I CALLED HIM Monday.
SO I CALLED BANK OF AMERICA TO FILE A FRAUD CLAIM AGAINST HIM FOR TAKING MY MONEY AND THEY SAID THEY COULND'T DO IT BECAUSE IT WAS DONE WITHIN MY ACCOUNT, MEANING ONLINE FROM MY ACCOUNT, AND THEY COULDN'T DO ANYTHING, BUT I CALL COULD THE POLICE AND FILE A REPORT AGAINST HIM. I REALLY DON'T WANT TO PUT HIM THROUGH ANY TROUBLE, (LIKE I SHOULD CARE RIGHT, LOOK AT THE TROUBLE I'M IN), BUT I'M GONNA GIVE HIM A FEW DAYS TO REFUND ME MONEY. AFTER THAT, I WANT ZERO CONTACT FROM HIM. I'M DONE WITH HIM FOR GOOD. THAT'S IT. THAT WAS IT FOR ME.
I SWEAR, I HATE HIM MORE AND MORE EVERY DAY. I REALLY DO. THIS WAS THE LAST STRAW FOR ME. I AM DONE WITH HIM. I DESERVE BETTER THAN THIS AND SOMEONE ELSE BESIDES LAMAR DESERVES ME RIGHT BACK. I'M NOT GONNA DEAL WITH IT ANYMORE. I'M 20 AND I WANT TO BE IN A SERIOUS, COMMITEED RELATIONSHIP WITH NO LYING, CHEATING, DECEIVING, MANIPULATING...FRAUD. NONE OF THAT. MONGAMOUS, NO-SEX, LOCAL. THAT'S WHAT I NEED AND THAT'S WHAT I'M GONNA GET. I'M THROUGH.

holla.

jenn

so i'm gonna tell the whole story, that bastard lamar stole my money out of my account. i told him to take out $12, he took $82 cause i guess he thought he had the right to. i thought i was gonna get three overdrafts, but instead, my last credit card purchase didn't go through, which was my insurance for my car. so i didn't get overdrafts, but now i don't have any fucking car insurance. i can't believe this bullshit. my week started off so great and now i'm all fucked up. i get more and more and more upset when i think about it. fuck! i will never ever ever be so stupid again. this has really opened my eyes.

holla
jenn

i am so so so pissed off this morning, i didn't even want to come to work today, but since the events unfolded over the past couple days, i know what i have to do.

holla.

jennifer

i cannot believe that i'm feeling good this week, but then again, it is only monday. i really don't want to do a 60 hour week this week. that's gonna be crazy, but i do need the money i guess.

i have this thing about asking people for money. i don't do it. i hate it. i am so proud and independent that it just kills me to think that i might have to do it, so i just don't. the only person i ask, and that's once in forever, is my dad, and i really hate asking him. it's just not right. and i don't like people constantly asking me for money. it's like, come one. you work, i work, i don't ask you for money, you don't ask me for money, it's all good. you have bills, but so do i and i have to straighten out all my stuff before i can help anyone else. that's really getting annoying to and two people constantly do that to me. but i ain't naming no names.

anyway, leaving on a happier note...i saw coming to america again last night and i loved the part where eddie murphy is playing all those dudes in the barbershop. the whole movie is so funny. better than 'she-devil' though? i don't know about that.
coming up: "coming to america" vs. "she-devil".

holla.

jenn

i made over $1300 last week alone and then the f'ing governement takes out almost 50%-like $500. that is so crazy. but it's still gonna be a sweet check. get a lot of bills knocked out on that one check. so that's cool.

anyways, i haven't much to talk about this week. today's no different.

holla!

jenn

i have been trying so so so hard to get some FREE gavin degraw tickets for the 23rd. if i do get them...for FREE...i'd be the happiest girl in the world. gavin degraw is soo good. i know all his songs word for word, i just love him. if gavin was to come up to me and offer me sex (yeah right), i'd take it. i'd jump all on that. no hesitations at all. i think he's really cute, can't say that about a lot of white guys though.

but anyway, gonna try again all weekend long to get some. 23rd is coming up really soon.

all right, i'll holla!

jenny

i went out to get some apple juice down from the corner store one day last week and i saw this guy parked like two spots down from me on the passenger side staring at me. so i go into the store, get my juice and go out to my car. this asshole parks right next to my on the driver's side and he gets up out of his car and it's this big tall fat ugly black dude and he comes over to my car and i'm trying to hurry up and get inside and drive away, but this idiot runs over, holds out his hand and says, 'hi, i'm rick james'. rick james? ok. so i don't wanna be rude, so i shake his hand and say hi, big mistake. this negro doesn't let go of my hand for the next couple minutes. i had to snatch it away. geeze louise! i can't stand niggas. some black people all right, but the niggas have got to go.

anyway, i think the moral of the story is that if i get orange juice next time, i might be all right.

holla!

jenny "you don't have to outrun the bear, only your slowest friend" jenn jenn
-i told that to sam, the bear thing, and she cracked up.

i went out to get some apple juice down from the corner store one day last week and i saw this guy parked like two spots down from me on the passenger side staring at me. so i go into the store, get my juice and go out to my car. this asshole parks right next to my on the driver's side and he gets up out of his car and it's this big tall fat ugly black dude and he comes over to my car and i'm trying to hurry up and get inside and drive away, but this idiot runs over, holds out his hand and says, 'hi, i'm rick james'. rick james? ok. so i don't wanna be rude, so i shake his hand and say hi, big mistake. this negro doesn't let go of my hand for the next couple minutes. i had to snatch it away. geeze louise! i can't stand niggas. some black people all right, but the niggas have got to go.

anyway, i think the moral of the story is that if i get orange juice next time, i might be all right.

holla!

jenny "you don't have to outrun the bear, only your slowest friend" jenn jenn
-i told that to sam, the bear thing, and she cracked up.

it's tuesday, nothing to write about. i really need to be in school soon because this shit ain't cutting it.

holla!

jenny

the weekend went by so fast and i am still sleepy. i don't know what to do. hopefully this week won't be as crazy as last week. i need some friggin rest?

i saw four brothers, which was really really really good. and i saw skeleton key this weekend with my sister. skeleton key sucked. but at least we didn't have to pay for it if you know what i mean. yeah, so anyway, next week, we're gonna go see that red eye. that looked pretty good.

all right then, gonna start on this work. i'll holla.

jenn

i'm gonna go see that four brothers movie this weekend and skeleton key. looks like me, sam and darnell. maybe we can have a slumber party afterwards! that would be fun.

so tonight, i'll straighten out my hair, wrap it up then go to bed. this week has been too much, but i'll have a really sweet check, like always. i love this job.

you know that 'soul glo' commercial on coming to america? i love it. i love the song. vickey, my stepmom, she had a jheri-curl back in the day. the kind where you're sitting on the couch and when you get up, there's a big juicy stain from all the activator dripping from that person's head. it's really gross.

anyway, back to work, i'll holla.

oh yeah, nice blog darnell. glad i could inspire one person.

holla.

jenny "do these jeans make my butt look big" "no, your butt makes your butt look big" jenn jenn

i am so lazy. i always put stuff off until i can't even do them at all. i need to work on that.

but i have been giving some serious thought to this boyfriend in a wheel chair thing. that is such the perfect situation for me. a paraplegic, not a quadraplegic, dude living in charlotte. that would be so sweet. i might have to start working on that. i'm sure there's a paraplegic community that stays in touch in charlotte. a network or something. there even has to be a paraplegic dating site. i'm gonna start looking and see what i come up with.

anyway, so far this week i've done 3 back to back 12+ hour days. looks like it'll be the same all week, and then next week and then the week after that. geeze louise! i'm so friggin tired, but i gotta make that cheese, that green, that bread, them dollas!

ok, i'm done, i'll holla.

jenny "will you holla for a dolla, do something strange for some change" jenn jenn

like i was telling lamar, i need to just get a boyfriend that's in a wheelchair and there would be no sexual problems. we both would be happy. they CAN'T have sex and i DON'T WANT to have sex. perfect.

holla.

jenn

i'm sleepy, so tired, nothing to write about this morning so i'll holla.

jenn

you know that one part on coming to america where the landlord is about to take them upstairs to see their apartment when they first get to queens? then this one dude comes rolling down the stairs and the landlord goes...'don't pull that fallin down the stairs shit, yo rent is due motha fucka!" that was so funny. i gotta try that one.

anyway, what's going on with me. nothing really. gonna re-teach myself calculus since i'm going back to school in january. DARNELL'S gonna help me out. my calculus sucks. i only got a 1 on the ap test for it. i got like a 'C' or 'D' in the class. ever since i did all that moving around in tenth grade, after algebra II, i'm dead at math. so DARNELL is gonna help me out. he's so smart. he said he got a 1460 or something like that on the SAT's, but he does like to tell stories. and he said he got a 2 or 3 on the ap test, i forget which one, but i don't know, he tells so many stories.

oh yeah, and it was so weird yesterday, we were just talking about sex and virginity and he was actually telling me that i should be sleeping with lamar. they like hate each other and this dude is telling me that it's not fair for me to be with him for four years and not be having sex with him. i was like, i know this isn't coming out of DARNELL'S mouth. wow, i'll give it some thought but...i doubt it.

anyways, talked to daniel this weekend. a lot of dudes that i talk to, they love to talk. and i don't talk so much, so it's perfect. like when i talk to lamar, he does most of the talking, darnell does most of the talking, daniel does most of the talking. i only do most of the talking when i'm talking to sam or to my mom. that's it. but i don't mind. i guess these dudes just know me and know i don't talk much, so they do enough talking for the both of us.

so, all right. feeling sick this morning, so i'm praying this day goes by fast and i won't have to do any kind of overtime, although, i really won't mind the overtime. i'm paying the last $1000 this month on my student loan. after this month, i'm just gonna be saving all kinds of money. saving for so many different things though. for school, and that'll probably be it. i'll save for school and then work this job in the daytime and go to school at night. save up for graduate school i guess. sounds like a plan.

all right then, i'll holla!

jenn