so i didn't make it to riche's game night cause i couldn't get off work. it was last friday night and i was supposed to meet that guy there. not like meet up with him or anything, just meet him for the first time. so since i didn't, i guess he's taking the iniative and requested my friendship on facebook. now, i've never talked to this dude, this whole thing was to be set up by riche.

so he finally put up pictures of himself and...he's ok.

pro: he has green eyes
con: he's light skinned

pro: i get to kiss someone new
con: i get to kiss someone new

pro: he's cute and has a great smile
con: he's a year and a half younger than me

so am i gonna go there? who knows. i think the most amount of time i've spent in between relationships is about two months. of course, i want it to be a lot longer this time around, but who know's how it'll all turn out.

i feel like in my relationship with torrey, i felt like the dude who was kinda like "whatevs" about the whole relationship and he was the girl who was always all emotional and feeling. i don't know, that's how i've felt in all of my relationships...more or less.

but i kind of do want to move on though. i can date around, i don't have to be serious with anyone. and this dude seems...experienced (sexually). so that's probably all it would end up being anyway. i wonder if riche even told him about my situation. actually, i wouldn't mind being with a few different guys. nothing long or serious. just having fun. i like the sound of that.

oh, so i found out that i'm graduating cum laude. it's not magnum or summa, but i'll take it. i got a 'c' in orgo 2 and a "c+' in calculus, so that's not bad. maybe i'll retake those two classes after i graduate to wipe those ugly things from my record. 'c's are for losers. and i ain't a loser. i'm a winner baby. i'm on my way to the top.

so i need to do two of my life goals...or start working on them anyways. i want to run a marathon and i want to go to an open mic and just freestyle. i need to start doing some research about what marathon i can run in and start training and i need to up my lyrical skills so i can go up on stage with my ish. i'm thinking i'll finish the marathon thing before the rapping thing. those are two so totally different goals, but hey, that's what i do boo.

i'm gonna end with my favorite song of all time. i had a quiz on facebook about me and one of the questions was: "what is my favorite song?" and of course i had a gavin degraw song as one of my choices, but guess what....WRONG!!! it ain't a gavin degraw song that's my favorite. it's this 1975 Queen song written by the lead singer Freddie Mercury who, interestingly, was actually a queen (he was gay) and he was like middle eastern or something. that kinda blew my mind. anyways, here's my favorite song of all time and the most geniously written song of all time. it's Queen's "Bohemian Rhapsody".





by the way, the band 'the darkness' is like a late 90s, early 2000s knockoff of Queen. the darkness had a song out called "i believe in a thing called love" that sounded a lot like a lot of queen songs, especially like "bohemian rhapsody". i still love it though. here it is:



on that note...good night everybody. i love you. well some of you. maybe.

jenny "and take of that vest, you look like aladdin" jenn jenn

so this was my facebook status earlier this week and i got a few responses. the guys that i talked to about it won't admit it, but they know it's the truth. i asked my friend sanjay in my biochem class and he denied it too, but i know what the deal is. anyways, this was what it is:

ladies--if you are dating a guy and you two are not having sex, then you guys are JUST FRIENDS. You are NOT his girlfriend.

so i took my graduation pics...well i just needed to take some quick pics to send out with my invitations. i'm gonna take the "real" pics next month sometime when i get MY real cap and gown. i had to rent a cap and gown to use for the photos. but they did turn out really well. i'm very happy with them. i'm gonna scan and post them soon.

i registered to take the GRE next monday. i register for my first set of graduate classes tomorrow. i think i may take 5 classes in the spring. i can get this master's degree in just three semesters (spring, summer, and fall) which means i get fall of 2011 off and that summer off before i head to med school. bitchin' huh?

and since i'm graduating in less than two months, i've been thinking about this and i would really LOVE to take a week long vacation somewhere ALONE. maybe i'll go to Roswell, New Mexico. that would be so nice. actually, that would be REALLY nice. i need to look into that. a week in the desert alone in a hotel room. that would be so bitchin. i could fly out. actually, i don't care for flying anymore, so maybe i'll take a train out cause that's waaaay too long of a drive by myself. then rent a car when i'm down there and just relax.

ok, anyway, i'm going to work now. FML.

TTFN.

jenny "that's why you picked a dumb fucking fairy tale name" jenn jenn

I will say that 1 thing i didn't really like about torrey was that he wasn't a big cuddler, he needed his own space. I want a cuddler when i get serious again.

You know, this would have been the month of our 2 year anniversary. Neither one of us really knew when it started. Thats funny. It just kinda happened.

so he wants all or nothing from me. i can totally respect that, but that's not what i want anymore. i think he's pretty greedy for the all or nothing thing, but i can't be mad at what he wants. i had always been like that in relationships but now, i'm just like..."fuck the dumb shit".

jenny

so there were a lot of sweaty black girls at the gym class heroes concert and all i gotta say is:



that's right, it pretty much happened to me...kinda sorta. it was bad man. those girls were...

anyways, travis (the lead singer) kept on sweating and shaking his sweaty ass face and hair into the crowd and i got some of his damn sweat on my cheek and my f-in' lip! sam got sweat in her mouth...twice. but it was still a good show.

ok, i'm going to bed now. bye.

jenny

i mean seriously...

he wants to be in a committed, monogamous, exclusive relationship and i don't, so i guess he is wasting his time. and anyway, i have told him that i don't think he's "THE ONE" for me, which was probably a little mean, but it's just how i felt. ultimately, i don't think it'll work out in the end anyways, so whatevs...

ok, i'm done.

-jenny

i haven't blogged in several days.

i've been good. i can't complain. i bought my cap and gown. i got my invitations all set and ready to go. i'm taking some cap and gown pics tomorrow. i'm taking the GRE sometime next week (probably Thursday). I have two more months until graduation. I'm feeling good.

so here's the current situation with me and torrey. there is no situation. we had recently started hanging out again, but he seems to be tryiing to push the whole us being back in a relationship thing. but like i keep telling him, i don't want to be in a relationship like that with him right now. i mean, i enjoy hanging out, but for the first time in my life, i don't want to be in a relationship. i don't want to be exclusive. i just want to be single and play the field.

so the other day, torrey just assumed that we were together (because i had asked him about some condoms he had in his room and got mad about it). but i let him know that we weren't and he hasn't talked to me since. whatevs. like vickey LOVES to say..."fuck the dumb shit".

so torrey doesn't want to have anything to do with me anymore. he told me he's tired of wasting his time. whatevs! again, "fuck the dumb shit."

ok, i'm gonna go study now. peace out.

ohhhh, i need to post the gym class heroes pictures and video soon. the show was hot.

ok, bye.

jenny

I'm at the Gym Class Heroes concert with Whyte Shads :-)

geeze, i haven't blogged in a little minute.

so you all remember back in the day when you were in elementary school and middle school and it was school picture day. well what type of background did you always get? that's right...lasers!



well here's mine. this was the third grade and ya girl was looking goofy as hell. no wonder no boys liked me, lol. i didn't get the attention of the boys til about tenth grade.

and my teeth were all jacked up. as soon as those teeth fell out, my teeth grew back in straight and perfect. looking at these pictures, looks like i must have had some type of braces along the way, but nope...i'm all natural ;)

anyways, here it is:




thank god i grew out of that mess. damn!!!

jenny "mclovin, were you just violating that young girl?" jenn jenn

I have not gone to see a movie in months. After all these exams i have in 2 weeks, i'm gonna go. Probably alone, but i'm definately going ...to see something.

two things that just ain't right:




"can you feel me inside of you?" just the way she said it was soooo creepy.


and...



lol, "put it in me scott." that just ain't right. that was such a gay oven. i didn't even know ovens came in gay.

so the thing i'm really gonna hate when torrey starts seeing somebody new is the fact that he's gonna cook for her. he's only supposed to cook for me. i've beenthinking about that lately and i'm not feeling that.

on another note...i think one of the reasons that i haven't had sex yet is cause i think i'll feel like such a dirty whore afterwards. like, i can't even imagine myself doing it. but like torrey said, there's not gonna be this magical moment where i just decide that, "hey, this is the moment. i really want to do this right now." cause that moment probably ain't gonna happen. i just need to commit to do it and let that be it. no second guessing it, no waiting on lord knows what.

it's just like, geeze louise. i'm gonna be 25 soon. that's 5 years til i'm 30. that's just unacceptable. i gotta make some changes...gotta make some things happen.

oh, and what i meant to talk about last time...
--i volunteered monday and had the best day all because of one little boy. i was at the IDP doing my volunteer thing and this little boy walks. he was like 4 or 5. so as soon as he walks in and sees me, he just smiles and waves at me. it was so cute. that was really the highlight of my day, my week even. it was nice.

ok well i'm sleepy now and i need to take a nap before work.

oh yeah, one more thing. so riche is trying to hook me up with another one of her friends. i told her that i MIGHT not be able to go to her halloween party where i'm supposed to meet this guy, so she's set up another little event at her place that she invited both of us to (and 15 other people). it's like an old school game night. scrabble, monopoly, twister ;) stuff like that. i really wanna go, but it's on a friday night. i work friday nights. i'm thinking about just going in to work late that night and going to riche's thing. it's usually slow friday nights anyways. i'm excited.

ok, ttfn.

jenny "you don't have any of your cop friends to help you keep your booze now" jenn jenn

really short guys bug me. i'm only 5'3, so whenever i see a guy my height or shorter, it bugs the crap out of me. i was walking behind this grown ass man the other day going to the train station and i could literally see the top of his head and all i could think was......



jenny "i got a boner!" jenn jenn

Off to work..... FML.

I'm jizzing in my pants for this halloween costume i'm about to get. It's gonna be hotttt!

so it's 2 in the A. M. and i'm watching the outer limits. every time the outer limits comes on, i think about lamar. i don't know how the two got mixed together. i think its cause when i was living in my apartment in charlotte, i loved watching that show. i saw like every single episode and i could not get enough of it. i don't know, i guess i equated watching that all the time with lamar always being around. cause most of our relationship had been long distance and it was finally like a "real" thing, but i guess it wasn't really the "real" thing. i can't even watch the outer limits anymore without getting bad vibes. thank goodness i've seen them all already. that's funny how our minds equate two completely irrelevant things. like, i wonder what triggers lamar to have a thought about me. it's probably when he sleeps with a new chick. lol, that's funny. it's sad, and it's funny. for me, it's the outer limits and for him, it's sex with some chick.

anyways, now i'm watching superbad and i'm going to bed. there was something i wanted to talk about, but i can't remember what it was....


oh, now i remember. ok, so we were supposed to go to new orleans for the halloween weekend but like 7 people backed out and so now the trip is cancelled. riche is gonna throw a halloween party again instead. i'm not sure if i'm going yet cause that's sam's birthday and vickey wants to throw her own halloween costume party. and i have the perfect costume that i need to go get made. it's gonna be hot. i was a hooter's girl a couple years ago, but this is definitely gonna top that.

so apparently, riche has this friend that wants to holla at me...again. lol, hey, i can't be mad at that. riche always has a friend that wants to holla at me. he's light skinned and has green eyes. first of all, i already told riche that i don't care for light skinned dudes, so that's the first strike. second of all, if it's one of riche's friends, i'm kinda skeptical about that. riche's very promiscuous so i'm assuming that this guy is the same. third of all, i just got out of my relationship with torrey and i just want to stay single for a while. but on the other hand, there are some positives to it...i get to meet a new guy. riche is the one to hook me up with daniel, and he's one of the straightest people i know. he has green eyes. that sounds so sexy. i don't know. we'll see if i show up or not. i'm excited about the possibility of kissing a new guy. i like kissing. i don't have sex, so kissing it my release you know? but i don't know how long the hand holding and kissing will go with one of riche's friends.

i swear, before this is all over, there's gonna be a long list of guys who are pissed that they didn't get to sleep with me. lol, oh well! i let every single one of them know from day one what my situation is. it's their decision to stick around and get their feelings, and mine, hurt in the end. that's exactly why i need to stay single.

i just wish there was a guy who didn't want sex...at least right now. i will never ever ever ever find that and that sucks. but that doesn't mean i can't have fun kissing guys in the mean time, in between time.

and in case you can't tell...me and torrey are still broken up.

oh, Gym Class Heroes is gonna perform at georgia state in a couple weeks and i am so excited. i have their album "as cruel as schoolchildren" on vinyl and it's blue and i love it. travis is soo cute. i can't wait to go. me and sam are gonna go see them and hundreds or thousands of other georgia state students. torrey didn't want to go. whatevs! even though we broke up, i still talk to him. we're still gonna be friends. i doubt we'll be friends though once we start seeing other people, but i like where it is now.

i'm starting to develop a crush on seth rogen. but the chubby seth rogen and not the new, fitter seth rogen.

ok, those were just a few things i had to get off my chest. now it's sleepy time.

good night.

jenny "does your mom still have any of those pizza bagels?" jenn jenn

Life is just so much better/easier when you're a pretty girl ;)

hey!

so i finished volunteering today and now i'm supposed to be heading to class in about fifteen minutes, but i think i'm not gonna go. i'll go to my second class cause i kinda have to, but i won't go to the first one. i don't feel so great. i'm cramping so bad right now. i feel so nauseous.

anyway, i heard this Live song about two weeks ago and i cannot stop thinking about it. it's really good. it was in "Zack and Miri Make a Porno" and the first time i heard it, i had to look it up. and i've been listening to it since. here it is:



ok, peace out.

jenny "he's the fastest kid alive..." jenn jenn