wow, i haven't blogged in almost two months. myspace has just taken all my time. well i'm gonna start blogging again.

so...what's up? i don't really have anything to say right now, so...

...i'll holla!

jenny

wow, it's been a whole month, wassup?

sorry blogger, but i have something to say. i've been cheating on you with myspace.

i know i haven't called or talked in a while, but i promise to hit you up later ok?

all righty then, i'll holla.

jenny

i cannot get enough of myspace.

my myspace page


it's so great.

i'm hooked.

holla,

jenny

I'M THIS GIRL!!! ...one day, some lucky guy will find that out.


I'm the girl who will put her head on your shoulder, not because she's sleepy, but because she wants to be closer to you...

I'm the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain, more than inside your bedroom or in an expensive resturant...

I'm the girl who says,"ok, but you owe me..." jokingly not because I actually want something, but because it means I get to spend more time with you...I

'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and I will (or at least try to) have fun because it means I am spending time with you...

I'm the girl who is incredibly picky, but when I find someone I like I want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms...

I'm the girl who never forgets all the little things you do for me...

I'm the girl who never gives up hope even when I tell others I have...

I'm the girl who once I let you into my heart, there's ALWAYS a place there with your name on it. And even if we spend time apart, I'm the girl who never forgets you.

I'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss...

I'm the girl who you can talk to about anything...I

'm the girl who laughs at your jokes...

I'm the girl who will have many inside jokes with you and will remember each one...

I'm the girl who will listen to you talk...

I'm the girl who really does want to be friends after a break up...

I'm the girl who loves it when you hug me for no apparent reason...

I'm the girl who loves it when you hug me from behind or kiss me on the forehead...

I'm the girl who loves you for you, and doesn't care what other people say about us...

I'm the girl who loves it when you introduce me to your friends as your girlfriend...

I'm the girl who loves the feeling when you take me by the hand without saying a word...

SWEET HEARTED GIRLS : If you are this girl repost this saying "I'm this girl"

DUDES: If you want this girl repost "I want this Girl"

LUCKY BASTARDS: repost "I have this girl"

my heart is broken. i've never ever felt this way before.

but i guess i'll get over it

good to be single again though, i gotta say. i get to start something brand new with someone brand new. it's all good.

i won't go into it now, but i'll just say that i will never look at men the same again, i swear. but if i did learn anything, ladies, have sex with your boyfriends. even if you don't feel comfortable doing it or have had any kind of bad sexual experiences, who cares. that's the only way to keep them around.

but i'm just being bitter now. i guess in the end, it was all my fault.

wow, i can't stop thinking about how it happend, how long it took, all these little details that i need to let go of.

but anyways, oh yeah, i'm on myspace now. finally, everybody keeps telling me.

ok, so i'm going to work now. i'll holla!

jenny

oh, i feel so sad, so mad, so pissed, so depressed. but it's all good, i'll get over it.

i try to be the good guy and do a good thing, but i get screwed. or someone else does. whatever.

i'll holla.

jenn

sam was trying to sing the theme song to married with children...you know, "love andmarriage" by frank sinatra i think. well she's trying to sing it and goes...

'love and marriage, love and marriage,
goes together like peas and carrots'

of course the words are...

'love and marriage, love and marriage,
goes together like a horse and carriage'.

i thought it was so hilarious. anyway, i shall holla.

i had this really weird, bad dream last night.

i was on this school bus that had like two or three kids on it. black kids. i was like 'why are there only three kids on here and where's the bus driver?' so i get off the bus and there were like two hundred black people gathered outside at like a park or something. and it was sunny outside and there was nothing but black people walking around. so i start walking around, just seeing where the heck i was and what the heck was going on. so i'm about to get on the bus when out of nowhere, there's like 3 or 4 white people that walk up with shotguns. this one white dude, i guess he was the leader, he had all these black tattoss all over his back and his arms and face. and on the back of his head. he had on a white t-shirt and white shorts. they all had skinheads and had on white shorts and shirts. well he goes up to this one dude who has a kid on his shoulders. he aims the gun and at the little boy on his dad's shoulders and the boy just smiles at the gun like it's a camera. and it takes the white dude so long to pop off the shot. it takes him like a whole minute to get it out and he just shoots the little boy's head off. there's blood everywhere. and the weird part was, everyone just kept right on like nothing happened. the black people just kept on doing what they were doing. walking around, talkin, doing whatever. so these few white guys just start shooting these black people and they don't do anything. just keep going. and it takes them so long to pop off one shot. like, it should only take a second to pull the trigger, but it takes them a full minute or so to do a single shot. so i get back on the bus, cause apparently i'm the only one who notices that these white guys are killing folks. why i didn't shout and warn everybody, i don't know. but i get back on the bus and try to save these kids. i only see one little black boy left on there. so i go over to his seat and hear the door opening. its a white woman with a gun, one of them, so i grab the boy, get on the floor under the seat and see these dead black kids all on the floor. we hide under the seat as she walks down the aisle to the back door. as she's checking the handle to the back door to see if it was locked, i sneak up behind her and hit her in the head and knock her out. i take the gun and the little boy, sneak out the back door of the bus, then that's was it. that's all i remember.

that was really the weirdest dream i have ever had in my life. i was so disturbed by it. anyways, it's 5:20 and i have been up all night. i'm gonna go to sleep now and hopefully not have any dreams like that tonight. excuse me, this morning. i'll holla.

jenny

it's hard not to cry at the end of "my girl".

i've noticed that if i sleep by myself, i always wake up in the middle of the night and stay up for a couple of hours. i go to bed earlier too.

but if someone is with me, i always sleep through the night.

hmm.

sam and i are driving down the road at night in complete silence and sam goes:


'if i hit a dog, i would be really shaken up about it.'

ohhh.....k.k.k.

jenny

so...wassup boo? that's how i always answer the phone when vickey calls and she hates it, but i can't help it.

i noticed that i stop blogging once lamar comes around. but i'm not gonna do that anymore. gavin degraw might be stopping by my blog one day and notice that i haven't written in a while and decide not to be with me. but anyway, getting back to reality, i have to go to work now. nothing really to blog about today.

i'm planning on going to atlanta during labor day weekend and getting loose. i'm planning on getting a couple more tattoos and piercings. ooh, can't wait. i'm gonna wait one more week though so i can be absolutely sure.

anyways, i'll holla.

jenny

RANDOM PICS

extreme close up (that's how an eye is supposed to look, but i was holding it wide open. my eyes don't stay open that wide like that.)
taking a snooze?
mustache?
cool?
cool wal-mart bag purse right? and it holds to much.

SAM AND JENNY F*%$ING AROUND

me messing around
sam getting toasted
prince toasted
way too much free time

KISSES PART II


i just realize that i've actually kissed four guys. the fourth guy, who could forget madison.

nobody really knows this story but lamar. i haven't even told riche.

when i was living in college park, i was working in riverdale at value village and i had this one boss there. madison. madison was like 19 years older than me or something like that we had the same birthday, april 22. he was really short too, like my height, 5'3. he would always flirt with me at work and i would flirt with him. you know, just playing around. so you know, on the last day that i worked there, the day before i left to go back to charlotte, me, madison, and a few girls from work go to this sports bar to hang out and celebrate and whatever, have a one last get together before i left. so we drink, well they drink, i was 19. we eat, listen to music, have great conversation. it was so much fun. so after a couple hours or however long it was, we all decide to leave, to go home. so of course i don't have a car and walk wherever i need to go, and it's kinda late, so madison offers to take me home. ok, great, i don't have to walk, but i knew it was coming and i knew what was gonna happen when he dropped me off.

so we're talking on the way back to my apartment. random stuff. and when we get there, he said something like, 'can i get a kiss?' or 'can i taste those lips' or something like that. so i lean over and we start kissing and it's just really weird. it wasn't the worst, but it was weird. then it got worse when he stuck his big wet tongue in my mouth. gross. so after a little wihle of that, i pull away and am like "well i'm gonna go now". and he was like 'one more' and so i went in again and kissed for a little bit then that was it.

and the thing that's so bad was, he was like 37 and had two kids and was married! oh my god, i am such a slut. that's so funny. it's actually really sad. and he actually thought he was gonna go upstairs with me and have sex. that dude was really out of it. so, yeah, that was the fourth.

so maybe the fifth will be better. i'm counting on it.

JENNY AND LAMAR

that was me and lamar in new jersey last december
aww, so cute
aww, the only picture i have of us together
lamar trying to attack me
he won

KISSES

so i was thinking about all the different guys i've kissed. just 3. well, i was thinking about the first guy i kissed. that was bad. it was really bad. i was in the tenth grade and he was my boyfriend. he was in the ninth grade though. i know, i know. anyways, he was walking me to my bus...i know i know...and it was raining and he leaned in and started kissing me and oh my god. the worst kiss ever. he had these huge lips, which i loved, but he just didn't know how to work it. it was wet and sloppy, no tongue, just lips and...ugh! well anyways, his name is dekarl and he has a baby by a white girl now. and to think, it could've been me. anyways, that lasted 8 days. and that was the only kiss.

so the second guy, daniel, i initiated that one. we were at the mall hanging out and we're walking through like jc penny or something. and i take us into a dressing room and just like took advantage of him. it was the first time for me with tongue, so that was cool. it wasn't great, but it was pretty ok. defintely better than that first one. that was the first of many with him. it was good, but there just had to be something better. that lasted like 7 months i think. he broke up with me to be with this girl that me and riche hate. i don't even think the girl is cute, but whatever. his loss. like two months later, i got with #3.

lamar...#3. so far, he's been the best kisser. see how i said 'so far'. uh huh. no, he's the best. the first time was like a month and a half after we started going out. yeah, everybody knows i like to take things really really slowly. so we were up in like some extra room in his 'step mom's' house and scary movie was on the tv and that's where it was. not the best kiss ever, but the best first kiss i'd had. and they only kept getting better from there.

so i'm thinking, it keeps getting better with each guy, i need to be doing something here. having some fun. why not? i'm only 21. and it's only kissing. no harm in that right? i like that idea.

RANDOM PICS

this was someting around last christmas
new years eve of course.
getting the party started
around christmas again (that's some great hair)
this was someting around christmas. must have been talking to someone exciting.