i'll try to get my pictures up here by next weekend. i finally got them scanned, just need to go pick them up.

i went to this place today and i had this stuff written on my arm right. so this drunk old guy comes up to me, grabs my hand and starts writing on my arm. it's his number. yeah fucking right you jackass. he tries to put his arm around me, but that's when i had to let him know. 'don't put your fucking hands on me, you do not know me.' it was so funny. sam started laughing, but i was pissed off. i hate when guys touch me uninvited-ly...that's not a word is it. well anyways, i'm at the library. gonna go now. gonna try to get to a computer to blog more often. holla!

jenn

these dreams i'm having are getting out of hand...two naughty dreams in a row. i'll write about them later.

holla!

jenn

oh i miss my blogger so so so much. i plan on restarting this in a week or so. i can't take it. it makes me feel so much better to be able to write down my problems you know. so yeah, i got work this out. holla.

jenn

oh yeah, i forgot...sam said the funniest thing i've ever heard...well not really, but it was pretty funny.

she was doing some homework and found out that she was left-brained. you know, there are right brained people and left brained people. so she's left brained and this is what she says that cracks me up...

"it looks like i'm left-brained...yeah that's the crip side"

it was so f-ing hilarious. you know from that snoop dogg song. it still cracks me up. ok, back to work, peace!

jenny

if anyone knows me, they know i hate bugs. i am terrified, horrified of them. i was taking the trash out the other night and there was this leaf looking thing on the wall outside and i was walking past it down the stairs and stopped to see what it was. by the time i realized what it was and tried to jump away, the damn that had already jumped on my leg and that's when i lost it. i completely broke down. i screamed so fucking loud and was jumping all over the place. i dropped the trash and made a real scene. my brother came running outside thinking something bad happened to me...and it did...then my stupid neighbor from upstairs came running out to see what the hell was going on. i was scared out of my mind though. i hate bugs.

speaking of that neighbor from upstairs. let me talk about what he did. so it was friday and they had blocked my blogger so after work, i went up to his apartment to use his computer. he was like, 'wait, i have to clear the screen first' cause he had all kind of porn running on there. i was like 'my boyfriend has that crap on his computer too' (i only refer to lamar as my boyfriend to this jackass cause i can't stand him and he's always trying to get me to go somewhere with him) but anyway, this stupid bitch starts rubbing on my back and gets really close to my face and is like 'oh really? do y'all watch it together?' all this while he's 2 inches from my face and rubbing my back. i stopped everything i was doing, looked at him, and told him to get his hands off of me. what the fuck did he think i was gonna do? have sex with him right there on his damn floor just because i might watch porn with my boyfriend? ha! yeah fucking right. i really can't wait for that bastard to get a clue. i won't be going up there again. i need to get darnell up there to beat his ass. darnell, we have to set that up sometime soon. darnell is a good friend. when i'm having a problem with someone, he offers to beat them up for me. that's what a best friend does for you right there. i'd beat up someone for him too. hey, that's what friends are for.

anyway, wrote too much, gotta save some good stuff for later. holla!

jenn

ok, so now it's not blocked, but it'll be blocked again. this job is weird. one day a site will be blocked and the next day it won't. but anyways, i had a pretty good weekend this week. stayed out of the house pretty much the whole weekend. had something to do at all times, which was good. hopefully my weekends will stay packed like that. i guess people are realizing how much fun it is to hang out with me. it's about time! so anyways, that's that.

i'll holla.

jenn

they blocked my blogger at work so i'll be out of business for a while. maybe a couple of weeks until i get my computer and internet set up. gonna miss it. ok, until then.

holla!

jenn

well, last night...same thing. but this time, it was my fault. people finally wanted to talk, but i was so tired. i actually got off of work a little after 5! i could not believe that! i went home, had some pie and ice cream, worked out. it was great. so much free time. a little too much. i'm thinking i'm going home early today too and tomorrow, hopefully. even though i do nothing, it's still nice.

i'm thinking of going to florida to see my mom and the rest of my family for my one week vacation. i wanna go when it's warm though, so i'll have to wait a while, but i think that's a pretty good plan. i only talk to my mom and see her like once every four or five years and i'm not even exagerrating. i have seen her in a few years, so i think the time is coming up. i don't even know if the lady is dead or alive though. gotta write to her since she has never in her life had a phone. come on now!

really wish i could come home to somebody so i could get some lovin. in time i guess. just gotta be patient.

holla!

jenn

i felt so bored and so lonely last night. everybody i called was too busy to talk to me. even my brother cj! and he always talks to me when i'm bored. oh well. so i'm sitting at home all bored, then go pick my brother up at like 8 and then get back home from wal-mart and subway and watch this russian documentary and i try to get up after that and i just feel so drained. this is like around midnight. i just feel so week, i can barely stand up and my legs feel all shaky. and on top of that, i had a headache all day and i couldn't sleep. so i get up and bake this pie. i was all excited about baking it too and i was gonna have a piece when it was done, but i finally got sleepy around 2, had to take the pie out early and went and laid down and fell asleep. then the phone rang...thinking somebody finally wanted to talk to me...anybody, i was so disappointed when they asked for josh.

yep, that's pretty much how the rest of the week is gonna go i'm sure, but hopefully that'll be changing really soon.

holla, jenn!

last weekend was pretty fun. me and sam dressed up in these 30's costumes and had these huge tommy guns and jack daniels bottles and stacks of money and robbed this one bar at carowinds. no, we just posed for some old-time pictures and they came out really good. we spend the whole day out there and it was my first time, but i had a lot of fun. then later that day, we got dressed up, drove down to eastland mall and took some pictures as blue kiss. those turned out really well. i'm gonna try to get them scanned soon and put them up on here. but anyway, the weekend was all right. could have been better, but it was ok.

so my boss shari asks me to...for the next couple months or so...work double shifts. a couple of our senior typists are leaving and until they can hire a few more people and get them trained, she asked if i could stay and do the two girls that are leaving shifts. i basically do it every day anyways, so i told her sure. so that's it for me for the next couple months. sleep, work, sleep, work. big difference from what i'm doing now right? right.

oh, i've been talking to this new guy. i was getting change at the store because i had to pay someone for something and i have this really short skirt on cause i call myself trying to look cute for carowinds in case i wanted to holla at somebody and this cute guy comes up and starts talking to me. so his name is clint and he's 26 and we exchange numbers. so i talked to him a couple times, but i don't know about him yet. i'm not seeing anything special yet, but i guess time will tell. time will have to tell soon though or else i'm gonna have to cut him.

oh, so darnell is single now. uh oh, we're both single. no, it's kinda weird that they would break up over some stupid stuff that i made up. i'm really sorry darnell, but y'all will work it out. i know it. it's nothing serious like the shit i've had to go through. anyway, i won't touch on that today. i have to just leave that in the past and move on.

ok, so i'm gonna holla. get ready for this long ass day. peace!

jenn

i think i'm gooing into my depression-mode again. ohhh it sucks so bad.

jenn

ok, first of all, to set the record straight, me and darnell did nothing. we only hung out one time since we graduated like two years ago and that's it. i did not see the "black thunder" ok. it was all a joke, so people need to calm down. i thought it was extremely funny, but to others, i guess not. come on, if i didn't have sex with my own boyfriend of 3+ years, i'm not gonna have sex with a person i've only seen once in 3+ years.

anyway, i waited 30 minutes for gas yesterday.. there's been this gas scare and everyone has been rushing to the gas stations thinking the gas is gonna go up again (it's now at 3.19 in charlotte, come on now!) and that it's gonna run out. same again this morning. gas stations were packed. it was crazy.

ok, hopefully it'll all get better.

holla!

jenn

i'm learning how to play texas hold'em-poker-and this is what i figured would win. anytime there's a chance to bet, always bet the maximum you can bet. if there is no maximum, always bet the exact same amount every time. a nice high number too. do this when you have a good hand and when you have a bad hand. no matter what, always bet the exact same amount. most likely, the others players will fold. even if they don't fold, i still end up winning. by chance? who knows. by skill? i think so. i'm still confused about a couple of things in the game, but i'm getting there. soon, i'll be an ace. but i'm still not sure when to check or when to call or how one hand will be another hand. i don't really get the rank of the different hands, but i'm playing a computer and as long as somebody knows and i get my money when i win, then it's all good.

jenny

i am so excited, in the like six years that i've lived in charlotte, i am finally going to carowinds this saturday. it's gonna be a small group of us too, so that's even better. me, sam, josh, and his girlfriend mylanta, milk of magnesia, kaopectate (her name is mylanda, but i always call her something else-like nice soft chocolatey laxative). but she's a big girl. a really big girl, but hey, if that's what you're in to.

i've been doing these crunches and been on this 1,000 calories or less a day diet. i just wanted to tighten my stomach up and it is really working. i can't wait for darnell to come back to charlotte. we're gonna be up at the gym all the time and he's gonna be my work out buddy. that's gonna be my motivation to go cause i won't keep going by myself.

oh yeah, i gotta limit what i say about darnell. his "girlfriend" might be reading. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK! darnell, i gotta let the secret out...your girlfriend has to know about that one time you came over and we were supposedly gonna be "watching tv". that was some sweet lovin'. and those other times when we were supposed to be just "hanging out". the best i ever had. and if she has anything to say about it, just pop her in the lip for me ok?

anyway, working now, holla!

jenn

i just read this thing about teens who wait till 18-after high school or higher to have sex. they did this research on 18-38 year olds and came up with this:

• 
  They completed an average of one year more of higher education.
  
  
• Their incomes were 20 percent higher.
  
  
• They had about half the risk of divorce.
  

so, i'm still sure i made the right decision-am making the right decision-who cares what darnell and lamar says.

and darnell, you're supposed to be my buddy, my friend, you need to stop feeding me that bullshit about me being selfish...we're supposed to be on the same team! i wiped your lip! doesn't that mean anything?

anyway, holla!

jenn

this just isn't my week.

jenny

weekend was pretty decent for the first time in a long time. i had won tickets to go to this sister hazel concert, this like alternative rock band from the early 90s...anyways, i was gonna go, but there was some confustion with my tickets and where they were so i was just like, "it's not that serious, that's okay" and that was it. but whatever. next weekend, labor day weekend, 3 days, should be much better. sam's gonna hang out with my all weekend. darnell might spend one day over. i don't know, we'll see how it goes. either way, it should be much more fun than this past weekend.

all righty then, gonna get started on work. work has been so slow lately. the past week, i've been getting off at 4:30 and 5:30, that has been sick. i can't believe it. it feels so weird to get home that early. looking for the same kind of schedule this week. i can finally catch up on conan. i hadn't watched that in weeks.

ok, holla!

jennifer

i keep doing this thing where i'm typing and pull my hair across my lip and start typing with a mustache. it is so funny. this job is so friggin boring that i have to amuse myself.

i didn't wear a bra to work today...is that wrong?

Title: Shake It Off [chorus]
I gotta shake you off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake you off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake you off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake you off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
Shake you off
By the time you get this message
It's gonna be too late
So don't bother paging me
Cause I'll be on my way
See I grabbed all my diamonds and clothes
Just ask your mama she knows
You're gonna miss me, baby
Hate to say I told you so
Well at first I didn't know
But now it's clear to me
You would cheat with all your freaks
And lie compulsively
So I packed up my Louis Vuitton
Jumped in your ride and took off
You'll never ever find a girl
Who loves you more than me
[chorus]
I gotta shake you off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake you off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake you off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy, I gotta shake you off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby, and that means I gotta
Shake you off
[bridge]
I gotta shake, shake, shake, shake, shake it off [repeat]
I found out about a gang
Of your dirty little deeds
With this one and that one
By the pool, on the beach, in the streets
Heard y'all was
Hold up, my phone's breakin' up
I'ma hang up and call the machine right back
I gotta get this off of my mind
You wasn't worth my time
So, I'm leaving you behind
Cause I need a real love in my life
Save this recording because
I'm never coming back home
Baby, I'm gone
Don't cha know
[chorus]
I gotta shake you off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake you off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake you off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciated all the love I give
Boy, I gotta shake you off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby, and that means I gotta
Shake you off



it's so perfect.

jenn