Im hating GA more & more every day.A change of scenery is way overdue.Its bout time to get the hell up outta here.Ive been here long enough.

Bout to start this 4 hour calculus class. I had to drop calc a few semesters back cause i got zeros on everything! Pray for me y'all.

i saw this picture and i just thought it was the bomb.

Just got to Charlotte. Body is ACHIN. Head is BANGIN. Could really use a full body rub-down. Anyways, graduation tonight, big party tomorrow night in ATL cya!

Just got back from the dentist and i may need to get 5 teeth pulled!!! Please pray for ya girl.

I have been craving my dads lasagna for the longest. And some garlic bread too...girl stop.

I just had a really disturbing dream about bugs and spiders and fish and dog food. Don't ask.

Damn, my foot is acting up again. I'm getting so tired of this. They need to go ahead and chop it off or something. It hurts sooo bad.

Its rainin and stormin outside and theres nothing i'd like more right now than slow, deep, sensuous kisses-just laying in a bed with a big warm body holding me.

and one more to represent my german side ;)



i'm gonna do a post completely in german one of these days.

jenny "ich bin McTyler" jenn jenn

...and the wackest video i've ever seen on youtube.




jenny "i'll be like the iron chef of pounding vag!" jenn jenn

this is the most awesome video i have ever seen on youtube.





jenny "what are you trying to be, an irish r and b singer" jenn jenn

I love spending money and buying things...but now i need an older man to help me with that.

by the way, i'm sending this from my rumor. I'm glad i learned how.

i've been single for just a couple of weeks and one of riche's friends is already trying to holla. i guess he saw me talking to her on her facebook wall back and forth and he saw what he liked ;) riche is having this drinking social at her place sometime this summer and i cannot wait. i need to kick back and have some drinks with some cool people.

but nah, that's not for me. actually, riche got me hooked up with daniel. daniel is the only dude to ever break up with me and ends things with me. usually, it's me who ends things. that's really actually intriguing to me. he has a girlfriend now. they have been going out for like the past five months. dang, he never tells me anything. but i'm proud of him. he's condo shopping in atlanta right now. he just graduated from georgia tech. he's gonna start working for this financial company in august. i'm really proud of him.

today, vickey reminded me that when i first got bac, to atlanta two years ago, all i wanted to eat was hot wings. i love hot wings. i'm gonna have hot wings, banana pudding, and buttercream cake at my wedding. those three are definites. anyways, i'm gonna take a shower.

ohh...that reminds me. i forgot to talk about this when it happened to me a couple months back. so i was taking a shower and i had this nicely lathered up bath towel and i was washing myself. i was working my way down to my...ehhm...you know. so i was washing myself and my finger slips from underneath the bath towel and i STAB myself! oh my god! yeah, my finger slips in and i cut myself. and my finger had a pretty long, sharp nail on it. so it didn't really hurt, so i thought i was all right...until a few seconds later when all this bright red blood starts flowing out of me. i started to really freak out. i thought that i had broken my hymen. i called up torrey and darnell (cause he's supposed to be really experienced) and told them about it. they didn't really offer any good advice about it. but later, i started to notice that it burned a little when i peed, which more than likely meant that i just scratched the inside of my vagina and didn't break my hymen. it was waaay too much blood to be from a broken hymen.

anyways, now that i bring it up, i better go get a pelvic exam now and a pap smear. you're supposed to get one when you turn 18 or when you become sexually active, whichever one comes first. but i haven't had sex yet, so i never really went to get one. i'm gonna try to remember to schedule one by next week. but i need to get one because when you cut yourself or break skin, you get an influx of new cells to the damaged area. well these new cells start diving to repair and replace the new skin/tissue that was damaged. well with cancer, the cells just keep dividing and dividing and don't know when to stop. they keep diving and can cause huge bundles of cancer cells (tumors) or can be small bundles of cancer cells that travel throughout the blood or circulatory system and spread throughout your body. so i need to go get tested for that.

anyways, that's TMI for one night. i'll holla bitches.

jenny "car 98 on it...you dumb fucking whore" jenn jenn

today has not been a good day for me. i got nothing done, i'm exhausted, i'm in a bad mood...

i've taken a vow of single-acy. i'm gonna stay single for at least tweleve months. that's gonna be so hard for me cause i'm so dependent on being in a relationship. i think the longest time i've spent in between guys was like two months. i need to show myself that i don't need to be with a guy to be me. and my problem is that i end up making the guy my best friend. so being my best friend and my boyfriend is messing me up i think. i need to keep my friends seperate and my boyfriend seperate.

i've had three very different boyfriends over a large period of time and i'm still not getting it right. i need to do something different. i'm gonna be leaning toward an older man next time. maybe somebody in his 30s. i think that's maybe what i need next. maybe i'll meet him when i get to med school.

i had to cut things off with torrey. it was getting bad. we were falling out way too often. i don't want to end up with him like me and lamar ended up. i actually want to be friends with this dude still at least (one day) and if i continued to let it happen, we could continue to fall out and things would just go from bad to worse. i don't want that because torrey is definitely someone i can see talking to for the rest of my life and being part of my life in some way.

it's just that...i'm the most laid back black girl that i know. hell, i'm the most laid back person that i know...period. i don't know why i keep having bad luck with the fellas. i'm doing something really wrong. or i'm just dating the wrong people.

i can't stand being single. torrey told me one time that i was needy. i guess i am. damn, i hate to see how i act when i actually start having sex with a dude and then get really needy. i know it, i'm gonna be all psycho then. lol, dang mustang. whatevers...it is what it is.

i was reading cosmo and it said the best way to get back at an ex was to get really really really really hot. lol, i liked that one. letting a virgin read cosmo is like giving a quadraplegic dancing shoes. it's just like...what's the point?

on a completely different note, i'm planning my spring break 2010 to roswell and albuquerque (damn thats hard to spell) new mexico. who's coming with me?

jenny "it was between that and mohammad" jenn jenn

i just want to be happy.

jenny "mclovin! why?!?!" jenn jenn

i have been twittering and it's so wack. what's the point?

anyways, i was texting back and forth with mitch the other day. mitch will either text me or send me messages on facebook every couple months or so. anyways, he told me he was in charlotte for a week (in between classes) and was wondering if i was there. no. so he said he was gonna make a special trip up to atlanta and wanted to hang out with me. i told him, if i'm still single, we could do that. he said something about spending some QT time. cooking something, watching a movie. that's cool. i'm laid back like that. that's my thing. it sounds ideal, but i always find myself in a relationship and just don't have time for him.

yeah, mitch is definitely the one that got away for me. i've always wanted to hook up with him, but the timing was never right for either of us. he was going out with this chick and i was going out with this dick in high school, so it was never a good time. who knows though, maybe one day. i had this picture of us at prom in our senior year. i didn't go with him, but i had this really cute picture of me standing with him and his arm around my waist. i wish i could find that. i'm gonna have to fish it out. it was actually better than any picture that i took with lamar that night.

the day of the gavin degraw concert, i took a nap and dreamt that i kissed darnell. i wonder where me and darnell would be now if that chick of his hadn't emailed me up trying to lay her claim to him. i don't know, i'm a pretty solid person...i think we may be still going out. not that we were going out. we were working on getting to know each other. we were starting to make plans to see each other and hang out, even though i was here and he was in SC. that would have been interesting to see how it all would have worked out.

i've been thinking about a lot of "what if"s lately. me and torrey broke up again. he's just such an asshole. he's whiny and he can be a real jerk. not cute.

so i've been thinking about what if i was with someone else.

ok, my head is banging right now, so i'm gonna go take a bubble bath, then go knock out.

peace homies.

jenny "that's vag-tastic!" jenn jenn

i'm on Twitter now!!

...and it is sooo wack. it's like, what's the point? but my boo gavin degraw is on there, so i signed up so i could follow him.

anyways, it's here.

peace out.

jenny "hey! you know a guy named jimmy? you totally look like his brother dude. you do." jenn jenn

today was an ok day. i did a lot for and about me today. i fixed up my hair and threw on some sandals and my bag and went to campus. when i talked to a dude about my financial aid a few days ago, that douche bag said i couldn't get any more financial aid for summer. then i talked to another dude today and wound up getting over $4000 in financial aid. so i might actually get a refund this summer. cool! it's amazing what a smile can do. my smile is my moneymaker man. gotta keep this up. i'm thinking about getting braces. i have a couple of teeth that need to be put in line with the rest.

anyway, then i went to the mall by myself and did some retail therapy. then i headed to walmart. i was gone for hours. tomorrow, i'll be going through a tour of the cdc with a few people from my micro class. i'm kinda excited about it. but it's like a two hour tour. how can a tour of the cdc possibly be two hours? anyways, i'm gonna work it out.

i've been working on my freestyling skills. i'd like to think that i'm getting better and better every day. when i first started, it was really elementary. but now it's getting...a higher level of elementary, lol. it's getting better though, that's the important thing. i'm gonna be a rap superstar real soon. wayne is gonna be hitting me up for some tips. naw, let me stop. but i'm working at it.

ok. i've been out and about all day. gotta go to bed now. peace out homies.

jenny "hey! you know a guy named jimmy? you totally look like his brother man...you totally do" jenn jenn

so i checked my email today and guess what?....

once again, for the second year in a row, i won meet and greet passes to next week's gavin degraw concert!

i am so excited...that's my boo.

this will be my third time meeting him and talking with him and my fourth concert of his in the past year.

so now i gotta straighten my hair, throw together an outfit, get my nails done, all that. charge up my camera batteries cause there will be plenty of photos and video, ok!

going over to torrey's now.

peace.

jenny "i am mclovin" jenn jenn