so when i first got to charlotte, all these old dudes were tryin to holla. then all these young dudes tried to holla. now all the light skin dudes are tryin to holla. they holla in phases i guess. i guess next all the dark skinned guy are conna try to holla.

no, but there was this white guy at walmart who was tryin to holla. i said, hold up, be gone, i have a boyfriend.

there's this light skinned guy at big lots who hasn't tried to holla, but i know he's tryin to do something. he's a little older though and the last time i went to big lots to look at a bedroom set, he was there and was like, 'i hadn't see you in a long time, where'd you go?' i told him how i switched jobs and whatever. then i told him i'd come back in a couple weeks to get that bedroom set and he got all...eager. i asked him if they deliver and if i didn't have a boyfriend i would have asked him to personally deliver the mattresses if you know what i'm talking about. no, i'm just playing. but i'm pretty sure when i go there for the furniture, he's gonna try to hit up a phone number or sumthin.

yep, then there's this white guy from work. he's been really smiling a lot at me lately. ever since he saw this tattoo that i have, he's been just talking talking talking my head off. now i swear, i sat behind him for four months and he never said more than two words to me until this week when he saw the tat...now he just goes off. uh, huh, going international now.

anyways, enough of that. i had a really great long like five hour talk with lamar last night...i hadn't talk to him that long in forever...maybe never. just talking about all kinds of things but at 4:00, i was pretty much gone so i had to go...wish it could have lasted longer. really miss that boy. yep.

yeah, even though he's light skinned, i think i'll keep him. i think we can do some beautiful things together. to each other...wink wink.

so i've been trying to lose weight but its not really working out cause i can't stay away from the junk, the candy, the burger king. i try though. once i move into my apartment, i'll really try to discipline myself more and go to the gym at least three times a week. i'm gonna try anyways. yeah, i gotta do something. it's not like i'm getting really thick and fat...it's just that one little area under my belly button that's trying to stick out. i can't have that. and i have to work on my arms...i have no meat or muscle on my arms. can't even do one pull up. no upper body strength whatsoever...could never be on fear factor dangling from something caused i'd be the first to go.

here's a list a funny words that i always laugh to myself at when i hear them: coot, toot, dangle.

anyway, random thought.

and now i leave you with....

ANOTHER RANDOM THOUGHT FROM SAMANTHA
so we were talking about going to a parade...
jenny: yeah, so i might go to that parade on saturday, but i don't know. you wanna go sam?
sam: i don't know, depends on how much it costs.

she is really dumb.

i'm gonna go now. i'll holla!