Well its official. I am now an Ordained Minister who can legally perform weddings and marriages throughout the U.S. How awesome and random is that? But its true

i have lived in a:

-house
-apartment
-duplex
-trailer home
-efficiency
-hotel
-car
-with family members
-foster home
-been homeless

i have lived in:
-germany
-texas
-arizona
-florida
-north carolina
-south carolina
-massachusetts
-georgia

my brothers are:
-israel
-c.j.
-alan
-josh
-t.j.
-mikey
-landon

my sisters are:
-jevonne
-sam
-katrina

i've had a few boyfriends:
-daniel
-lamar
-torrey
-lance

just thought i'd make some lists today.

my next list is gonna look like this:
-new mexico
-big effing house
-rich, handsome, doctor husband
-dog
-parrott
-nice sports car that goes from 1 mph - 60 mph in 2 seconds flat
-friends

of course, i want to add on to that list.

my next blog is gonna be a list of qualities that are in my perfect man...the one that's waiting on me to find him. i will one day. soon i hope.

-jenn

i don't think i'm gonna block my blog after all. i'll just be more ambiguous about my identity (not so much for others, especially people who want to act the fuck up). i've deleted my profile picture and i'll stop using my name.

also, i think i'll take a little hiatus from posting new blogs for a while. i need to take a breather.

so until then...

-jennifer

kids LOOOOOOOOVE chicken nuggets. and that's a fact! if they're under 5, they love chicken nuggets.

Daaaaaammnnn!!! I've never had this many random readers on my blog before. Uh, i'm thinkng this is going private effective really soon. Ok!

and i know i said i wouldn't mention this incident again, but i forgot one thing...

lance had just told me a couple of days ago how our exes were playing too big a role in our relationship. how our exes were ruining our relationship. lmfao!! boy was he right!! but only on his part, not at all on my part. so what...torrey left a couple messages on my blog that were a bit iffy, but this asshole was sending his ex emails confessing his deep love for her. what nerve!! lol. wow. he talked about how we need to not let our exes interfere with the relationship that he and i were building. i'm sorry, but he's one of the most selfish people i have ever met in my life. there, i'm done (hopefully!). just one time, one time i want this crap to happen to him, i really do. i want him to see how it feels. it sucks. what goes around comes around. i am a full believer in karma. ok, i'm done!

ttywigb.

-jenn

so vickey knows my situation now. that's embarassing cause vickey has a big mouth. she likes to tell people that have no business knowing my business, my business. but she asked about him and how he was doing and i had to tell her about his indiscretions with his ex. she was like, "wow, i thought he was the best of all your boyfriends. looks like he was the worst. or the second worst. we both know who the worst was." then she told me that i spend way too much time with my boyfriends and that in the future i need to give them less access to me. i guess i kinda agree with that. with every single one of my boyfriends, we always spend sooo much time together. i need to stop letting guys spend the night all the time and not come over to my place. we need to meet up somewhere if we want to hang out and, surprisingly, this is some advice that i will actually take from vickey in the future. she said i needed to be single for a long time and that i just jump into relationships. this is true also. it's just my pattern. i like the companionship. i like being with someone and having someone want me that i want back. but for real for real this time, i really do want to stay single for a while. and she said i needed to just date around more and not jump into a relationship too fast. but i actually did that with torrey and my most recent ex (i won't mention his name again). i talked to them for some weeks before i made it official, but i suppose it needs to be longer than that. she told me how black men are so coniving. true again. she told me i needed to not date a black man and get with another race. i think i should try that. black dudes ain't bout shit. well, most of them, i can't say all. hell, i need to drop men all together and get a girlfriend. but those bitches probably do the same thing as guys do. *sigh*

ok, back to sleep. i slept for the first time (after i wrote the previous blog) since yesterday's episode with my ex. sleep does a hell of a lot of good. i feel scores better than i did since yesterday and for the first time since then, i know i'm gonna be just fine.

ok, gonna take a nap then do some homework. ttyl.

-jenn

so i've been thinking a lot about having sex with a virgin lately. i think that two people giving up their virginities would probably be really lame in theory, but it SOUNDS really nice, doesn't it? two people who have never ever been intimate with any other person, wanting to share something that close for the first time together. i think that sounds really special.

every year i say i want to not be a virgin by the end of the year, but it never works. i think i've told myself that since i was like 21 or 22, but i just can never do it. the thing is, i'm going to be 26 on my next birthday (daaaamn!!! for reals?!?!) and i really, truly don't need to be a 26 year old virgin, i mean, look at me. i'm sexy, come on (in the words of mikeharris from mediatakeout which i am now becoming obsessed with).

on another note...the other day i realized something. i realized that the entire time that i was with lamar, my hair did not want to grow at all! i was so stressed being with him, my hair fell out a couple times when i was stressing over him. it wasn't good. but when i got with torrey, it really started to grow. and even after torrey, it's still growing. i just needed to get away from lamar. he was my hair's bad luck charm. i cut some bangs back in february and my bangs grew back out real quick. my hair is just getting longer and longer every day and i'm loving it!

sam and vickey and landon are in charlotte right now visiting josh and the baby. i am so jealous! well that'll be me in a couple weeks. and i am so excited to see her.

ok, gotta go.

ttywigb (figure it out)

-jennifer

i heard this song for the first time yesterday and...yeah...



Hmm...hmm...mmm...mmm...

Tonight is the night
That you make me a woman, mmm...
You said you’ll be gentle with me
And I-I hope you will, mmm...mmm...

I’m nervous and I’m tremblin’
Waitin’ for you to walk in
I’m tryin’ hard to relax
But I just can’t keep still, no

I can hear your car door slammin’
I wanna play big girl and put on a sexy smile
But I know so little about what love is
I just can’t help actin’ like a child

You’re knockin’ on my door and you’re ringin’ my bell
Hope you’re not impatient after waiting so very long
A whole year I put you off with my silly hang-ups
And we’re both old enough to know right from wrong

Tonight is the night
That you make me a woman, mmm...
You said you’ll be gentle with me
And I-I hope you will, hmm...mmm...
I’m nervous and I’m tremblin’
Waitin’ for you to walk in
Tryin’ hard to relax
But I just can’t keep still

Mmm...hey, baby
Ho, ho, baby
Ho...yeah...yeah...

Oh, but what if my mama should come home early
And catch us doin’ what we’re doin’
Not only will I never live it down
But my whole family relationship it’ll all be ruined
But we’ve gone a little bit too far now
Oh, to turn around
So let’s just pray
That true love is what we’ve found

Tonight, tonight
Tonight, tonight

Ho, I’ll never forget tonight
No, no, I’ll never forget tonight
That’s when you make me feel real, mmm...hmm...
You make me feel real, real good
Oh...oh...whoa...oh...oh...whoa...whoa...
Yeah, and I wanna thank your love
Said I’ve got to thank your love
‘Cause you make me feel good
And I love you, baby
I love you and I know it
And I ain’t too proud to show it
‘Cause I love you, baby
And I need you, baby
I want you, my love, my love
My, my, my baby
I’ll never forget tonight
No, I’ll never forget tonight
‘Cause you make me feel good
And I love you, baby
You make me feel real good
And I love you, baby
‘Cause you gave me
Uh, uh, pure love, yeah
Uh, uh, uh, pure love
Said I like that, baby
Uh, uh, pure love
Said I need that, sugar
Uh-uh-uh, pure love
There’s nothin’ phony about it
Uh-uh, pure love


Your love I can’t do without it
Uh-uh-uh, pure love, ooh

I love him, I know it
I ain’t too proud to show it
I love him, I know it
I ain’t too proud to show it
I love him, I know it
I ain’t too proud to show it
I love him, I know it
And I ain’t too proud to show it

Tonight, tonight
Tonight, tonight
Mmm...mmm...mmm...

Thank you
Thank you


-Jennifer

i wanted to blog about something specific, but now i can't remember what it was about. wah wah wah!

-jennifer

so i have this thing about guys who date girls who are virgins. a lot of guys like to date virgins cause they think they're gonna be the first guy to get up in that...but you know what, i think it turns around and bites guys in the ass in the end. they get with these girls and think that they're gonna get in that vagina, but they end up falling in love and never ever getting to have sex with them and it drives them crazy.

they fall in love, but they never get to have sex with them, so they get stuck on them forever. forever they'll have this attraction or a piece of their heart with these virgins cause they never got to give them a piece of their penis. and that's what it is. i've never slept with a single boyfriend, but i'm sure they all will hold a place for me in their hearts cause really, without all the sex, you really get to know a person and you truly get to fall in love with someone. you don't get bogged down with all that sex business.

but anyway, i'm just saying that the relationships you have in life, those long ones where you never have sex with the other person, are the most meaningful ones i think. sex just messes stuff up. leave the sex to those chickenhead hood rats from around the way and leave the meaningful relationships to us virgins. but guys want both, and so do the virgins...eventually. but this is what happens, guys always mess up the meaningful relationship with the virgins cause they want the sex with the hoodrats. its so silly. boys are so silly, cause that's what they are...boys. boys who can't see what's important in life.

now i'm not talking about anyone in particular, but i guess out of all of my exes that i could apply this to, i suppose i would have to apply it to lamar the most. granted, we did date for over five years, so i suppose i can't really blame him for straying, but he didn't have to lead me on for so long as if he weren't straying. as if i was the only one. but i've moved on to bigger and better things, so i won't sweat that right now.

what made me write about this though, was a book i was reading i think, i can't really remember. but i knew i had to say something about it.

it's good to be a virgin. we're the good guys. we get to stay alive at the end of scary movies. how can you hate us?

-jenny

You ever had a kiss soo hot you just had to say DAAAAAAMMMMNNNN! Those are always good right? I hadn't had one of those in a while...but i had one yesterday :-D

Over the past year or so, i've realized that i'm REALLY INTO facial hair on men. The more the better. I'm into that rugged, masculine look. Beards and mustaches

i'm so unlucky :-(

I'm starting to feel really depressed today :(

this is gonna be a long ass week.

-jennifer

And my babies would be really good looking...obviously!

and b-t-dubs...i misspelled my new niece's name. her name is spelled "Channel Nashae Anderson". i suppose Channel Anderson isn't that bad. awww. so precious. i want one of those things...one day...soon. i know i'd be a really good mom.

-jenny

so this is my beautiful beautiful new neice. her name is shanelle nashae anderson. it's ghetto as hell, the mother came up with the name, not my brother. it's josh's new daughter. she's so cute. vickey and sam are gonna go to charlotte this weekend to see her. i can't. i have class and work. i'm gonna try to go to charlotte in august to see her.

-jenn

I feel like i need more in my life right now. I don't exactly know what... but something more.