So i can't stop thinking about Torrey since i saw him on Tuesday after the comedy show. It was bittersweet. Ok, i'm done now. I won't mention it again. 'Night.

I'll be 25 in exactly one week from today. Still haven't gotten it on, but thats ok. I've been through SOO much in 25 years, yet not enough. To be continued...

It was REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY good to see him. I miss him. I want him in my life again. I just want to be friends, but i want him back

Its 4 something in the morning, i'm at work, my head is banging, and i just want to go home and go to bed. New tattoos (3) in about 3-4 weeks. I'm excited. Ttyl

You won't see me cry. You won't even see me break a sweat -cause bitch i'm BAD!

I don't cry. I'm not a cryer. Its not what i do.

yooooo blogger!! waddup?!?

so i haven't really logged onto a computer and blogged in a while. i do these short 160 character blurbs from my phone, but that's about it. i think it's about time for an update. i have a lot to talk about, so i'm gonna make a little list right quick before i forget.

1.) the video i'm in love with right now
2.) my apartment
3.) light skinned dudes (precious)
4.) stalking people
5.) deal or no deal and wendy williams addiction
6.) my spring break tattoos
7.) school
8.) family
9.) birthday
10.) sex
11.) my hair!!!
12.) words and phrases i'm wearing out right now
13.) patron


1.) the video i'm in love with right now:
so right now, i'm in love with ludacris and nicki minaj's video "my chick bad". that shit is hot. i'm afraid i'm turning so hood, but whatevs. the "whatevs" always takes my hood-ness down a notch, lol. but yeah, i love the video. here it is and the lyrics:



"My Chick Bad" Lyrics
(CHORUS)
My chick bad, my chick hood,
My chick do stuff that yo' chick wish she could
My my chick bad, my chick hood,
My chick do stuff that yo' chick wish she could
My my chick bad, better, better than yours
My my chick bad, better, better than yours
My my my chick bad, better better than yours
My my chick bad, better better than yours

(Ludacris Verse 1)
Listen!
I'm saying my chick bad, my chick hood,
My chick do stuff that yo' chick wish she could,
My chick bad, better than yours,
My chick do stuff that i cant even put in words,
Her swagga don't stop, her body won't quit,
So fool pipe down, you ain't talkin' bout shit,
My chick bad, tell me if you've seen her,
She always bring the racket like Venus & Serena,
All white top, all white belt and all white jeans,
Body looking like milk,
No time for games, she's full grown,
My chick bad, tell your chick to go home!

(CHORUS)
My chick bad, my chick hood,
My chick do stuff that yo' chick wish she could
My my chick bad, my chick hood,
My chick do stuff that yo' chick wish she could
My my chick bad, better, better than yours
My my chick bad, better, better than yours
My my my chick bad, better better than yours
My my chick bad, better better than yours

(Ludacris Verse 2)
Now your girl might be sick but my girl sicker,
She rides that dick and she handles her liquor,
I knock a bitch out aaaand fight,
Comin' out swingin' like Tiger Woods's wife,
Yeah she can get a lil' hasty,
Chicks better cover up their chests like pasty's
Couple girlfriends and they all a lil' crazy,
Comin down the street like a prarade, macy's
(WOOOOOH!)
I fill her up, Balloons!
Test her and guns get drawn like cartoons,
DOH!
But I ain't talk about Homer,
Chick so bad the whole crew wanna bone her!

(CHORUS)
My chick bad, my chick hood,
My chick do stuff that yo' chick wish she could
My my chick bad, my chick hood,
My chick do stuff that yo' chick wish she could
My my chick bad, better, better than yours
My my chick bad, better, better than yours
My my my chick bad, better better than yours
My my chick bad, better better than yours

(Nicki Minaj Verse)
Now will these bitches wanna try and be my bestie,
But I take a left and leave 'em hangin like a testi.
Trash talk to 'em, then I put 'em in a hefty!
Running down the court,
I'm dunkin on them - Lisa leslie
Its going down - basement,
Friday the 13th, guess whos playing Jason,
Tuck yourself in, you better hold on to ya teddy,
It's nightmare on elm street and guess who's playing Freddy?
(SCREAMMMMMMMM)
(My chick bad)
Chef cooking for me,
They say my shoe came crazy,
The mental Asylum looking for me,
You a rookie to me,
I'm in that wam bam purple lam, damn bitch you been a fan!

(CHORUS)
My chick bad, my chick hood,
My chick do stuff that yo' chick wish she could
My my chick bad, my chick hood,
My chick do stuff that yo' chick wish she could
My my chick bad, better, better than yours
My my chick bad, better, better than yours
My my my chick bad, better better than yours
My my chick bad, better better than yours

LUDA!!! DTP!!
And when we're all alone,
I might just tip her,
She slides down the pole,
Like a certified stripper.....(4x)


2.) my apartment:
so my apartment is going great. i love it. love the privacy. it was definitely missed. still have a ton of unpacking to do. i'm so busy with school and work and volunteering, but sam is coming over tonight to help out a little. that girl is my ride or die. so hopefully we can get a lot of work done. darnell is gonna be in town all next week. i'm kinda excited cause he's kinda a ride or die too. i hadn't seen him in years, since i lived in charlotte. he's been in atlanta a few times, but i've always been too busy to meet up with him, but now that i have my own place, it should be a little easier. i'm excited to see him. i can't wait.


3.) light skinned dudes (precious):
ok, so i recently saw precious. it was fantastic. i loved it. she kept on talking about how great it would be to have a light skinned boyfriend. NOT!!! she had it all backwards. but i must say, lately, there's been a ton of light skinned dudes tryin to holla. more than i usually get. it's interesting. i'm not really interested in dating a light skinned dude, but its fun to have them holla.

4.) stalking people:
so i spent the past several hours, and i'm not even joking when i say "several" hours, stalking people online. i found a couple of awesome websites where you can find out all kinds of info about people. so i looked up family, people from my past, people from my present...i even tried looking up myself, but there are waaaay too many people with my name, i didn't find a whole lot on myself, which may or may not be a good thing. i'm a firm believer in googling guys i'm interested in dating. i highly encourage it. needless to say, i found out a lot of interesting things tonight ;-)

5.) deal or no deal and wendy williams addiction:
so i have a dvr and i've been recording every episode of wendy williams ("How YOU doin!") and Deal or no Deal. I'm addicted. it's so sad. i really wish deal or no deal was still around. i'd love to go on that show.

6.) my spring break tattoos:
so i didn't get my two tattoos that i wanted to get over the break. a couple of people who i won't name here talked me out of it, but fuck them! it's my body. i think if i meet up with darnell next week, i may get them then. i really want them! i shouldn't have let those fools talk me out of it.

7.) school:
school is going great. i love it. i love being in school. i'm doing great things. still got a little while to go though, but i'll be ending up with fat paychecks, so, i can't be mad at that.

8.) family:
family is really good right now. alan is still in korea, supposed to be coming home one of these days, but hopefully not before i get to go over there and visit for a while. cj is in afghanistan. my brother tj turned 18 in october, so now he gets his monthly $1,000 checks (from his lead poisoining as a baby) and has his own place in southern florida. i'm definitaly gonna have to go stay with him for a while whenever i get a chance to get down there. my brother (ok, sister) katrina is a full blown lesbian. we all knew she would be. she started young, you could really tell early on. but she looks like and dresses like a dude and always has. i love that girl though, but she won't be giving me any nieces or nephews :-( that's ok though, i still have 9 other brothers and sisters that will (and already have). she's going into the military after she graduates this year (or is it next year). i'm happy for her. mikey is in middle school i think. sam is in her second semester here at georgia state. she's doing really well. she works at a coffee shop at the airport and got promoted to a manager after being there for like three weeks (yep, she takes after me), so i'm proud of her too. like i said, that's my ride or die. she's planning on taking summer classes this summer like me. my brother israel is...israel, nothing new. landon has been acting up as usual and got switched to a harsher school that will act on his behavior more and discipline him more. jevonne had a baby girl in october. i'm proud of her. she's so cute too. josh got some girl pregnant--i saved the best for last. supposedly he's gonna have twin girls. oh lawd!! the girl and her mother are allegedly pushing josh to marry her, but he doesn't want her. she was just a jump off--ouch! my parents are ok. vickey was in a car accident a few weeks ago and broke her foot. she's so silly. she has this cast and crutches and has been out of work. she goes back in like 4 weeks though when the cast comes off. that's all that's new with my fam.

9.) birthday:
i'll be 25 next month. vickey will be 50 and i'll be 25. we were born 7 days - one week - apart, so we're gonna have a party the weekend between our two birthdays--supposedly. we'll see how that goes. how do i feel about turning 25? well i'm still a virgin (!!) so i'm (!!). yay, let's see if i can go 25 more, lol. NOT!!

10.) sex:
yeah, still a virgin.

11.) my hair!!!:
so my hair---it's doing it! my hair is just growing and growing. i never ever ever thought my hair would ever get this long and its just getting longer and longer. i love it. i don't know what was going on in middle school and high school, but my brain finally got the message out to let my hair grow and it is doing it! so i can't wait to see how long it's gonna get. the longer it gets, the less i want to cut it.

12.) words and phrases i'm wearing out right now:
there are several terms i'm overusing right now. it's ridiculous. here they are:
a) all roight!; b) ok!; c) you ain't right; d) i'll have to ttyl; e) you ain't talkin bout nothing, so i'm bout to go (yeah, an oldie but a goodie); f) girl stop!; g) boy stop!

13.) patron:
yep, tried patron for the first time. still have some in my room. it's not as fantastic as they say, but it's ok.

ok, so i'm done now. it was good to get all this out. i need to start blogging - from my computer- more often. i find i have a lot more to say than a 160 character text will allow me to do sometimes. i need to post more pictures too. ok, going to bed now. have a full day of class tomorrow. bye-bye.

jenny "damn, i need to watch superbad again cause i can't think of a quote" jenn jenn

psyche...

jenny "seth: i am truly jealous that you got to suck on those (tits) as a baby. evan: yeah, well at least you got to suck on your dad's dick." jenn jenn

With each new relationship, i seem to push the envelope (sexually). I push myself and my actions further and further. Someday, it'll (sex) happen but with who?

So theres two more tattoos i wanna get. I'll get them during Spring Break then post the pics. One is going on my finger and the other is going on my wrist :-)

I just don't think i'm meant to have sex. I'm almost 25 and i still haven't had sex. I don't WANT sex. I don't CRAVE sex. Maybe i just haven't found "The One".

Well, the lease has been signed, got my keys, got appointment for the cable/internet. Just need to move my stuff this weekend now. I'm so excited right now.

So i hit a snag with the apartment, but should be making the big move before this month is over. The cost of living in Atlanta is a bit higher than in Charlotte

All i can say is...God is really trying to look out for ya girl right about now and i LOVE it! I'm happy. I'm making moves. I'm doing the damn thang baby!

I'm moving into this 1 bedroom apartment alone in 2 weeks. Its about time. I'm gonna be 25 in 3 months, too old to be living with Vickey. Hallelujah! Can't wait

I havent blogged in over 2 weeks.Life is good.Im working on my masters.So far so good.Only 1 hard class so far but im gonna rock that bitch cause thats how i do

its 2010. this may be my year. i'm feeling pretty good about it.

So i graduated last monday (Dec. 14) and i finally got accepted into GSU's masters bio program. I'm good right now. I plan on posting some grad pics soon. Later

on a good note: i graduate in three days (monday!!!)

on a bad note: i got DFACSS called on me (social services)...long story. they want to meet with me and talk to me...coincidently this is supposed to happen on monday too (yeah, the same monday i'm graduating) but guess what bitch??? DFACSS ain't gonna be seeing me monday! i got more important shit going on. my family is gonna be here and i am gonna be looking forward to graduating so oh well for them, they're just S-O-L. i'm gonna have to catch up with them next time.

my mom or my brothers aren't coming anymore. that's another long story. i think only my brother josh is coming...if even that. and my cousin mane and her two kids and my dad and mattie. those are the only definites that are coming. ain't that sad?? and i invited soo many more people. whatevs. i have never asked my mother for anything in my almost 25 years on this earth, except to come to my graduation. i will never ask her for anything again.

but overall, i feel good.

ttyl
-jenn

I hate the sound of two people having sex in the next room. When i'm lying in bed with my boyfriend, its like 'Ha, listen to what you're not getting.' :(

yoooooooo!!!!! it's ya baby girl jenn! lol.

whaddup y'all. so there's been a lot going on. me and torrey decided to see other people and when i see me and torrey, i mean me. me and torrey were lacking something, so i wanted to try something new.

so having said that...i've been talking to this dude. the one i was talking about before. he's riche's boyfriend's best friend. so, i don't want to talk about a lot of details cause i know torrey still reads my blog and he just don't need to know all that.

so on our second date, we go to see 2012. he had already seen it, but he knew that i wanted to see it, so he decided to see it again. that was sweet. and he actually opens the door for me when i get in and get out. that's sweet too. this guy is weird cause he talks like a white dude, but he dresses and acts like a black dude. and not just a black dude, but a nigga...lol. at times anyway. he can be kinda thuggy. so we go see 2012 and then afterward, we were gonna go get something to eat. but we pass by this strip club and he says this is the one he and riche's boyfriend always go to and if i had ever been. i said no, but that i had always wanted to go. so we go!!!

all i can say is..."oh my sweet jesus". i could not believe what was happening. so we go in and immediately, i see ass, titties, thighs, hips. we went to a black strip club in decatur called pinups. this was actually the one me and torrey passed by a lot when he lived in clarkston and we had talked about going to on numerous occassions. so me and this dude go. his name is lance. so me and lance go in and theres ass and titties everywhere. i go to the bar, get a martini so i can get some singles for the girls, and we go and sit down near the stage. we just see all these thick black girls walking by naked. and he tells me that we can get lap dances that last for one song for $5. so during the night, we both get SEVERAL lap dances. oh my god! it was crazy. i loved it! the first girl that danced on me was kinda wack. she kept smiling at me and bending over and putting her ass all in my face. it was kinda freaky. when the first girl was dancing on me, i was the only chick in the club getting a lap dance and the dj was talking about us and making comments. i forgot what he said, but he was soooo funny. he was making funny comments all night. but i really liked the second girl cause she was interactive. she was dancing on me and touching me. she was grabbing my ass and touching my breasts and was stroking my hoo-hoo. it was so much fun though. they were definitely giving me more with my lap dances than with lance. you're not supposed to touch them, but they didn't really care. i smacked one girl's ass. lol, oh my god, i will never forget that. it was definitely an experience.

i will definitely be doing that again. i was all tipsy when i left and just smelling like cigarette smoke all over. there was this one indian dude in there that was getting a lap dance and this black dude was bent over in front of him and he was just feeling on her hips and thicks and staring at her ass. it was hilarious. there were so many creeps in there. one dude was getting this lap dance for well over an hour from the same girl. that was funny too.

so i don't like going to a club club, but i do enjoy the strip club. that's gonna be my new thing to do.

ok, that's enough of that. there's this dude in my applied micro class that's 35 and 6'6 that likes me. i'm 5'3, so whenever we walk next to each other...it's a sight to see. he can see every part of the top of my head. it's cute. i like tall dudes. we go to starbucks together sometimes and its always weird for me walking next to him cause he's so tall.

but i'm enjoying this dating around thing. i'm definitely looking for anything serious at all. i'm just having a good time doing what i do.

torrey thinks he's so slick. he went out with some girl twice and didn't tell me so i would feel guilty about going out. i didn't find out till a couple of days ago that he's been trying to talk to other girls when he made it seem like he wasn't. so i'm not gonna share stuff with him, and i'm not really gonna write about much here, but i'm gonna have fun. torrey started this blog saying he wasn't really heartbroken about us breaking up or stressing over it when i've seen the exact opposite of that. but whatever, i'm not gonna stress over him. i'm 24 and i'm gonna act like a 24 year old.

ok, well i'm done for now. i'll ttyl.

jenny