I am SOO thirsty for it.

Plus, I think..with time..I'd be pretty good at it. It's time.

I made it to 26 w/out having sex -ever. But I really want it now & think about it all the time. Problem is, I haven't found a guy worthy enough for my goodies.

Sex---I wanna have it. REALLY bad.

i've come to the revelation that i'm gonna die a virgin. i believe that.

a lot of people i know are getting married and having babies or have been married for a while and have had kids for a while. i just hope that when i do get married, i get to marry my best friend.

on another note, these two songs are my jams right now. especially this first one:



and i really love this one:



and on yet another note...i'm supposed to be starting on writing my rap song. it's gonna be a hot one, i know it.

i've been applying to biology-related jobs in atlanta and in north carolina.

thats all for now.

-jenny

oh, and another thing i've added to my bucket list is to go to a recording studio and record a hot rap track over a really hot beat. it'll happen soon. gotta start writing it.

i almost forgot that i had a blog until i got an anonymous comment from a spam advertiser a couple of days ago.

so i wish i was the type of girl that wears heels everyday and is always dressed up and wearing dresses and skirts and makeup and hair always together and nails always on point...just a girly girl. but i grew up with soo many brothers! and i grew up with my dad and i was his first girl. so it was all of these guys and then there was me. i didn't really have a mom around, so i was never around all that girly stuff. i finally started to snap out of my tomboyish-ness halfway through high school. i'd say i'm 85% tombody, 15% girl. i don't know. i kinda like being comfortable in my jeans and sneakers and tye dye shirts. like, i can picture myself in heels and skirts and such, but i think i'll forever be jeans and sneakers. its in my dna now. but when i have daughters, i'll try to make them as girly as possible. but since i don't know how and neither will my husband (?), i don't know how they'll get there. but i'll love them regardless.

but having said all that, even without the heels and skirts and makeup, i still pull the dudes, allroight! they know what's up.

anyways, i'm gonna go. i guess i'll do my yearly birthday blog roundup in a day or two.

see ya then!

-jenny

whenever i think about my first time, i think of this song.

Another thing to add to my bucket list: stand-up comedy. I'd LOVE to hit the stage with my always #WINNING jokes. It'd def help with my social anxiety too.

I was seeing a therapist for a couple of months and recently stopped going. The past couple of weeks, I've been EXTREMELY depressed. I need to start going again

I think I want a dog so bad right now cause I don't have a baby. There's a void in my life that needs to be filled :-(

Geeze, Prince William is getting married next year in April on Vickey's birthday, which is one week after my 26th birthday. I cannot believe that I'll be 26 in 5 months. That just sounds soo old, lol, dang. But I bring up the Prince's wedding because I heard about it on Wendy Williams' show. I could just imagine myself being a princess and marrying a prince. I wish someone would fall in love hard with me like that and ask to marry me, and offer me the world and actually be able to deliver. Hey, I'm still young and cute, it can still happen for me. Is make a bomb ass princess too. Is always be able to have my nails done, hair done, everything did...fancy huh? I could wear all the cute clothes, cute shoes, makeup always did, nice jewelry, just perfect. Hey, I got tons of potential, I'm just so damn lazy and just don't care about all that. That's one of my New Year's resolutions..to take better care of my body/appearance, to be more "girly" by wearing more skirts and dresses and heels, less jeans and pajamas, no more hats!, nails done, hair on point, keep up with this weight loss, be more active physically and socially, and finally, I would say spend the entire year being single, but I already know how I am, but I will try really hard. But Idk, I really want 2011 to be my year to shine, my year of change, my year to step out of my box. I'm kinda excited about it. I think something really exciting is gonna happen for me next year, a really dramatic change. We'll see. Ok, back to studying for finals for this week.

-Jenny

I'm really starting to think I was a witch in my past life. From my mom's last name to some recurring dreams I had when I was younger...Idk, maybe..

*Breathes deeply* Aah. Fresh air. Smells nice! It's been far too long, but exactly what I needed. I want to do it right this time so it'll be perfect next time.

There are things that I need to do more of in my next relationship and there are things I need to do less of. Each relationship is a learning experience and I am REALLY ready to meet "Thx One". I keep saying this, but I'm 26 almost and I still haven't found a man who is on the same page as me. I'm almost 30 for God's sake. Maybe I'm just too picky and should just take what I've been getting...but I know I deserve soo much more than what I've had. I don't know, I think I'll wait for however long it takes to get what I really want. I'm too good to settle for the B.S. I've been getting.

-Jenn

I'm almost 26. I know what I want, but I don't have it yet..not even close. It shouldn't be this hard but it is this hard..for me. I'll just have to pray on it.

i have been "reading" a lot of stephen king books. i listen to his books and stories at work and so far, i've listened to:

-Carrie
-Salem's Lot
-The Shining
-Jerusalem's Lot
-Graveyard Shift
-Night Surf
-The Mangler
-The Boogeyman
-Gray Matter
-Battleground
-Sometimes They Come Back
-Strawberry Spring
-The Ledge
-The Lawnmower Man
-Quitters, Inc.
-I Know What You Need
-The Last Rung on the Ladder
-The Man Who Loved Flowers
-The Woman in the Room
-The Dark Tower I: The Gunslinger
-Rita Hayworth and the Shawshank Redemption
-Apt Pupil
-The Body
-The Breathing Method
-Pet Cemetery
-The Talisman
-The Monkey
-Mrs. Todd's Shortcut
-The Raft
-Gerald's Game
-Rainy Season
-Suffer the Little Children
-The Green Mile
-Desperation
-Bag of Bones
-The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon
-Hearts in Atlantis
-Blood and Smoke
-Riding the Bullet
-Dreamcatcher
-Black House
-Autopsy Room Four
-The Man in the Black Suit
-All That You Love Will Be Carried Away
-The Death of Jack Hamilton
-In the Deathroom
-The Little Sisters of Eluria
-Everything's Eventual
-L. T.'s Theory of Pets
-The Road Virus Heads North
-Lunch at the Gotham Cafe'
-That Feeling, You Can Only Say What It Is In French
-1408
-Luckey Quarter
-The Colorado Kid
-Cell
-Lisey's Story
-Duma Key
-Willa
-The Gingerbread Girl
-Harvey's Dream
-Rest Stop
-Stationary Bike
-The Things They Left Behind
-Graduation Afternoon
-N.
-The Cat From Hell
-The New York Times At Special Bargain Rates
-Mute
-Ayana
-A Very Tight Place
-Thinner

Believe it or not, this is not even half of the stuff Stephen King wrote. He's sooo good. I want to eventually read ALL of his writings. He's really good. And I've noticed that whenever he writes about a black person, they always seem to have some special power; whether it be telekinetic power, mind-reading power, healing power, it's always something. It's very interesting.

Anyway, back to this homework.

-Jenny

i actually got to use this line on someone for the first time the other week! LOL, it was hilarious (to me). they told me: "if you scratch my back, i'll scratch yours" and i said: "the funny thing about my back is...its located on my cock!" then i fell out. i finally got to use it! its been sitting in my back pocket for years and someone finally set me up to use it. LMAO.

i already can't wait to use it again the next time someone different asks me.

on another note, i finally set up an appointment with a therapist. let me tell you, BOA offers amazing benefits. i get my first three sessions absolutely free (no copay or nothing) then i am covered to go as many times as i want throughout the year, but i have to pay a $15 copay after the third free visit. that's not bad cause BOA gives us a $600 debit card to use for our copays each year (which is completely free to us). BOA has the best benefits ever, i swear. i get 24% off my sprint bill and we get discounts and reduced prices for like everything and the health benefits are just awesome. i think i pay like $25 a week, $100 a month for my health insurance and it is well worth it. even part time people get all these benefits. i don't ever want to leave BOA. i think once i find a full time job, i'm still gonna try to work part time for the bank just to keep the benfits. they have some positions that are only like 10 hours a week.

i'm trying to find a real job. soon. i ultimately want to end up out west, but idk. i need to do something soon.

so the therapy thing. i have my first appointment on tuesday. oh, and come to find out, my therapist graduated from gsu and told me that we can get free counseling at gsu each semester as students. well ok! but the problem is, i won't be a student after next semester, so i'll just stick with this chick i have. i wish i would have known this two years ago though. :-(

ok, ttyl.

-jenny

i'm sooo in LOVE with this game. gotta play it again real soon one of these weekends.



-jenn

PSA

This is a PSA for all of the men...

Fellas, if you run into a female that looks like this:



and this:



at another angle:



And just in case you weren't completely clear, here's a video of this thing in action. Again, DO NOT HAVE SEX WITH THIS THING!!!!

It's name is Kuato. It will make your penis sad:



That is all.

-courtesy of me,

jenny