Me and riche were talking about why a guy will never admit that he cheated on you even though you've been broken up forever. They still have hope of a reunion.

i am feeling so bad today. i don't know what i ate yesterday, but whatever it was had my body all jacked up.

in other news...me and torrey are back together. surprise surprise. you know, that's just me. that's just how i do what i do.

see...i don't even give it up and i still pull 'em in. ok, so a guy gets their foot in the door with me, they find out that i don't have sex, they stick around thinking that they'll be that one to change me and if not, they'll just move on. but what always happens? i get 'em! yeah, that love bug hits 'em strong and they don't know what to do. lol. they can't get enough of my jokes, my smile, my laugh...just me. so i'm starting to think...i can have perfectly healthy sexless relationships forever. i don't ever need to have sex to have a good relationship. of course that's not gonna happen cause i DO want to eventually do it, but i don't really have to be stressing myself out about it because there's always gonna be a guy who wants to be with me whether theres sex or not.

i mean with torrey, he could have chosen to stay broken up and gone off to be with someone else who he had at least some chance of sleeping with, knowing that he wouldn't be sleeping with me. but aaahhh...guess what?! ya girl got it locked down. ;) usually it's me who tells him that i want to work on it again after a few days or a week or two. but it's been a couple months now and he hadn't heard from me, so he actually contacted me first and said he wanted us to try it again. i really wasn't excited about trying it again at all. actually, i kinda refused at first, but then he asked that we at least try it and we did and so far it's going all right.

so now i'm feeling good today. it's 9-9-09 (oooooohhhh). i spent sunday and monday with torrey for the most part. i went to his place after i got off work sunday and slept over there then we just hung out for the rest of the day and then again the next day. it was good. it was nice.

ok. well gotta go. peace out.

ohhh...i finally bought Superbad on dvd today and i am sooooo excited about it.

and i forgot to talk about what happened to me the other week at my volunteer thing. i volunteer at the aids clinic right? so this guy (a regular) always hits on me and this dude was sitting there telling me about taking his meds and how he was finally starting to feel really good and this and that. well then he asked me if i had a man and that he would treat me really good and asked me if he could take me out. i'm just like...HELLO! not this time, but thank you though. i mean, this dude has AIDS and he wants to take me out. i'm not saying there's anything wrong with that. but asking a girl out means you want to eventually have some kind of intimate moment with that person and that ain't gonna work. so that was akward.

all right, ttyl.

jenny "apparantly someone has an exam" jenn jenn

so, i really love this picture of me and vickey and sam at the bowling alley a few months back. vickey has had it as her profile picture on myspace for a while. it was my profile pic for a minute. sam had it as hers for a minute.

anyway, here it is.

God forbid, but i think i'm gonna die in a car. Thats what i think.And i think that someone that i've been really close to is gonna die this year too if not me.

Ohh...i saw that dude dancing at 5 points but i had to get to work so i couldn't stop to record him. Damn! I'll get him next time though. He was hittin it too.

I'm gonna get a pedicure at some point this weekend. I've only had them a couple of times but i think i need/want one now. But other than that, life is good.

When i'm really tired like this, i just like to lie in bed with a guy and just fall asleep next to his big warm body. Guess i'll just go to bed alone this time.

Just ate a really awesome yellow apple, but i have no idea what kind it actually was. So big shout out to all those yellow apples out there...lol.

i love this pic by the way.

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just took a steaming hot shower. i'm feeling good and i'm heading to sleep.

it's gonna be another long ass week. but i need to make it do what it do.

i haven't called or texted torrey in days. i haven't seen him in days. i'm doing good.

-jenn jenn

damn. i've had this damn blog since i was 17 y'all! that's going on 8 years now. one day i'm gonna go back and read every single post i ever made. i've gone through a lot of changes. i've gone through jobs, cars, guys, houses, school, a lot of stuff man. i keep contemplating whether or not to get rid of this blog, but i don't have the nerve. there's just so much history in this thing. and i'd like to have a lot more history on here.

i want my marriage(s?), births, deaths, graduations, new jobs, new houses, new whatever on here. then towards the end of my life, i'll write an autobiography from it or something. or show it to my kids one day so they can see what i was going through at whatever point in my life.

ok, i gotta go take a nap. bye-bye.

-jenny

so, i was thinking....

life is sooo short. tomorrow is not promised for ANYBODY. you can be around one day all happy and healthy without a care in the world and be gone in an instant. so you really gotta do what makes you happy. you gotta go for what you like, what you love. you gotta tell the people that you love that you love them. if you want to be with someone, you need to tell them and try to get that going. if you want to be with someone, why are you wasting your time, your life doing anything besides trying to be with them? do you wait for that person to come around, but in the meantime have someone keeping your bed warm for you? i don't think so. use that extra energy that you're putting into sleeping with that random person and try to make something out of the relationship that you really want with "THE ONE", you know? because if you really want it, you can have it. you can work for it.

at the same time, life is too short for the bullshit too. you might want to be with someone or do something that makes you happy, but at what risk?

so what do you do?

*By the way, this isn't particularly about anyone, it's just a general thought i was having. I read waaaaay too many Sandra Brown and Danielle Steele books.*

-jennifer

I'm feeling really depressed again today and i have no idea why. Ok, gonna take a nap then do this biochem homework. TTYL.

I'm at work...eating chocolate cake...with buttercream! Why do people put buttercream on chocolate cake? It's too much!

heading in to work now. i slept about ten hours today and i'm still feeling tired. i don't know what's going on. i'm sooooo tired all the time now.

anyway, i'm feeling good though, besides the tiredness. good night.

-jenny

i am sooooo sleepy.

So i was sitting in orgo lab and all of a sudden, i almost choke on my lip ring. The ball in the front was mysteriously gone. IDK. Gotta go get a new one now.

lately, every single time i step on the scale, my weight just keeps going down and down. usually it goes down, then back up, then back down, then back up. but now it's going down and down and down and down.

i guess this is generally what happens when i have a breakup. i lost a lot of weight when me and lamar broke up one time (from where, i have no idea) and it looks like my body is trying to do the same thing. i think it's me and torrey's break up plus the fact that i just do not have time to eat on most days.

i have class five days a week, i work four days a week, and i volunteer three days a week. i am sooooo busy. on some nights, i only get 2.5 hours of sleep. on a good night, i can get 6 or 7 hours of sleep. but that's only like two nights a week.

i got mistaken for 15 years old the other week. the paramedics were at our house checking up on vickey and so i had to go pick up sam from the train station and when i got back they were like..."should you be driving? how old are you?" you should have seen the look i gave this woman. i stared at her for a while and then i said "i'm 24." she was like "ohhh! oh my god, i thought you were, like 15. i was gonna ask are you old enough to be driving." then she did this stupid laugh.

then today at the post office, the dude mistook me for 17. i laughed and said i was 24 and he had the same reaction as the other chick. and then another lady at the post office thought i was 16 and had the same reaction too. it does get really annoying when this happens, but i really can't be mad at it cause in about 10 years when all my peers and i are well into our 30s, i'll be all Demi Moore/Halle Berry on they asses. so i'll take it and love it.

i think that's part of the reason i like to get tattoos and piercings, to make me look older. but then i grew to love them, so....


ok! goodnight!

-jenn

so i think i'm getting better now. i was really missing torrey earlier this week, but now i think i'm good. i still miss him, but it's getting better. i miss going over to his place though and sleeping in with him on saturday and sunday mornings after i get off work.

i would get off work, go home to take a shower, then go over to his place and just get in the bed with him and snuggle up with him until i fell asleep. he would let me stay in bed and sleep while he got up after a while and did homework or whatever. i think i miss that the most right now.

but i'm about to get my own place (well, me and sam) and so i'm gonna whore it up now and have all kinds of dudes over. ok, probably not...but it's a possibility now.

ok, well i'm bout to make it do what it do. i'll holla at this blog later tonight when i'm done with classes. there's still a lot i want to talk about.

good night.

jenny "do you have any non-infant clothes" jenn jenn

*i'm starting to run out of Superbad quotes. oh shit! i hadn't seen it in months. I knows there's lots more. I gotta go ahead and buy the dvd and refresh myself. i'm so ashamed i've gone this long without seeing it.*

Looks like me and sam are gonna rent this 2 bed/2 bath house/duplex in mid sept. to oct 1st. Can you say housepar-tay?