so when i first got to charlotte, all these old dudes were tryin to holla. then all these young dudes tried to holla. now all the light skin dudes are tryin to holla. they holla in phases i guess. i guess next all the dark skinned guy are conna try to holla.

no, but there was this white guy at walmart who was tryin to holla. i said, hold up, be gone, i have a boyfriend.

there's this light skinned guy at big lots who hasn't tried to holla, but i know he's tryin to do something. he's a little older though and the last time i went to big lots to look at a bedroom set, he was there and was like, 'i hadn't see you in a long time, where'd you go?' i told him how i switched jobs and whatever. then i told him i'd come back in a couple weeks to get that bedroom set and he got all...eager. i asked him if they deliver and if i didn't have a boyfriend i would have asked him to personally deliver the mattresses if you know what i'm talking about. no, i'm just playing. but i'm pretty sure when i go there for the furniture, he's gonna try to hit up a phone number or sumthin.

yep, then there's this white guy from work. he's been really smiling a lot at me lately. ever since he saw this tattoo that i have, he's been just talking talking talking my head off. now i swear, i sat behind him for four months and he never said more than two words to me until this week when he saw the tat...now he just goes off. uh, huh, going international now.

anyways, enough of that. i had a really great long like five hour talk with lamar last night...i hadn't talk to him that long in forever...maybe never. just talking about all kinds of things but at 4:00, i was pretty much gone so i had to go...wish it could have lasted longer. really miss that boy. yep.

yeah, even though he's light skinned, i think i'll keep him. i think we can do some beautiful things together. to each other...wink wink.

so i've been trying to lose weight but its not really working out cause i can't stay away from the junk, the candy, the burger king. i try though. once i move into my apartment, i'll really try to discipline myself more and go to the gym at least three times a week. i'm gonna try anyways. yeah, i gotta do something. it's not like i'm getting really thick and fat...it's just that one little area under my belly button that's trying to stick out. i can't have that. and i have to work on my arms...i have no meat or muscle on my arms. can't even do one pull up. no upper body strength whatsoever...could never be on fear factor dangling from something caused i'd be the first to go.

here's a list a funny words that i always laugh to myself at when i hear them: coot, toot, dangle.

anyway, random thought.

and now i leave you with....

ANOTHER RANDOM THOUGHT FROM SAMANTHA
so we were talking about going to a parade...
jenny: yeah, so i might go to that parade on saturday, but i don't know. you wanna go sam?
sam: i don't know, depends on how much it costs.

she is really dumb.

i'm gonna go now. i'll holla!

so me and sam where sitting there watching jeopardy and this question came up:

category: farm math
question: georgia and north carolina's crops combine to make this percentage of the nation's strawberry's $50 million annual profit. (or something like that)
jenny: 6%?
sam: peaches?
that girl is really dumb.

anyway, so there's this guy from big lots....again. he's light skinned though. there's always a guy from big lots.

so there's this cop...from the bus station...there's always a cop.

so it looks like i'll be moving in a couple of weeks. i'm so excited...i gotta get my cable and power on, but after that the bachelorette pad will be open for business...if you know what i mean.

yep, doing big things now.

anyway, nothing to talk about. going to bad. try again tomorrow. holla!

sign that my little sister is growing up:

sam: is it raining outside?
jenny: yeah, you know what it's raining?
sam: no, what?
jenny: it's raining men, hallelujah it's raining men!
sam: well open up a window.

oh no that girl didn't! she's only 14! i could not stop laughing.

i haven't done this in a long while. but i think it's time to start this bad boy back up now that i'm starting big things.

so much has changed. i have my own apartment now. right now i'm getting it furnished and getting everything turned on so i can go ahead and move on in. i only have a living room set right now, but i'm working on things. i get my license two weeks from today...i'm gonna take the day off.

after that i'll be in my apartment. i can't wait.

so i'm just about done paying off ga state. 1000 down 2500 to go. after that i have to start saving up for fall semester at cpcc. after that i'm gonna save up for laser eye surgery so i won't have to wear glasses anymore. after that i'll save up for grad school. yeah, i definatlely have my priorities straight.

i think i'm going to new jersey in may to see lamar...if i don't have too many bills to pay that is. still haven't had the "S" yet, but we're working on it.

work is good. the money is good.

other than that...i'm just the same old jenny. ok, until tomorrow...

HOLLA!

christmas came and went. here's what i got:

a sweater way too big for me and an am/fm radio from my dad and mattie.
a trivial pursuit game board and a pair of watermelon earrings (the game board becuase i love board games and the earrings-i now have four pairs of watermelon earrings...can't ever get enough of those) from sam.
a skirt from josh that he let me pick out at the fashion bug for the discount price of two bucks.

and that's about it. i know, i am so lucky to get all this great stuff. it's what i've wanted all year long. yay!

anyways, yeah, i was being sarcastic. but whatever, i'm still kinda happy. this is what i got everybody:

this expensive hollographic caller-id globe for my dad and mattie.
a new pair of shoes for my dad cause he always wears these busted up joints that he threw away as soon as he got the new ones.
a pair of converse chuck taylor all stars shoes for josh.
a violin for sam cause she's been asking for one for a while.
and an unncessarily expensive coat for lamar, cause that's what my baby asked for.

after christmas, it was dinner at mattie's moms house. after that, a movie. my brother josh and our cousin shawn went to go see fat albert with josh's fat girlfriend. i don't know why he likes those ugly dark skinned fat girls, but i guess that's just what he likes. we all like different stuff i guess. me and sam saw lemony snickets. i thought it was gonna be good cause jim carey was in it and the previews looked good. it was such a waste of time. we should have seen darkness. oh well. now it's sunday and i have to go to work in the morning so good night.

jenny "what am i gonna do next" jenn jenn

less than a week left. i'm gettin nervous. the plane ride's gonna be scary too. especially after watching that show 'lost' every week.

anyway...i bought so many presents this year. i spent so much money. oh well, i'll just get it all back. i kinda like my job. the money anyways. looks like i might get back to school in january. i hope so.

my new years resolutions for 2005 are:
lose some weight
learn to swim
visit lamar more this year
get back to school
pay off georgia state
maybe move into my own apartment

yeah, that all sounds pretty good. i think i'll be able to do most of them anyway. well, tomorrow is christmas. i think i'll stay up and watch a few more movies with the family then head on off to bed. i gotta remember to pack this weekend too cause it'll be the only chance i have until thursday. ok, well, merry christmas and good night.

i'll holla!

jenny "pimpin" jenn jenn

i hate when people say stuff, but don't think of what they're saying first.

so i need to start registering for my classes for next month at cpcc but then i started thinking...i'm probably going back to atlanta, so why even bother? i should just wait till this summer, move back to atlanta with riche, get an apartment with her like we planned, get my job transferred over and my license transferred over to atlanta, and go back to georgia state for night classes and summer classes.

i don't know though, i have a lot to think about. i don't know what i really want.

anyways, i'm gonna go get a mcchicken now.

jenny "i'm rich bitch" jenn jenn

there's three things that i can't go without:

the mcChicken at mcdonalds
banana chips
hershey's cookies and mint candy bar

i can't get enough of them. i eat them like every day. anyway, i'm gonna go to bed now.

jenny "love that dollar menu" jenn jenn.

hey, when's subway getting that dollar menu? that's what i'm waiting for.

two weeks left.

anyway, it really looks like i'm going back to atlanta now. i heard some news and it looks like i need to go back home.

i don't know though. i don't know what to do.

you know, there are some really stupid people out there. at the bus station, i always catch this bus that goes down south boulevard aka "mexico city" and mexicans always get on the bus that don't speak english. well whenever they try to ask a question, these dumb guys always seem to think that if you call them 'amigo', then they'll understand anything you say.
'the bus goes to walmart'-man
'que?'-mexican
'the bus goes to walmart, amigo'-man
'oh, now i understand you'-mexican

not too bright.

i haven't seen my bus station friend lately. oh well. and the guy from proff at my job has moved to the exam department all the way across the room, but he still finds time to come by and 'visit'.

anyway, i'm going to work now.

jenny "what am i gonna do" jenn jenn

another three weeks before i get to see lamar again. i'm so excited. i can't wait to see him.

now that i got that out of the way...i need to get back to school really soon. i feel like i've been wasting a lot of time lately. i need to go ahead and move on to the next step in my life whatever that is.

and just something really random, i really wanna get laser eye surgery. after i get back to school, i'm gonna start saving up for it.

ok, well...me, sleep, bed, now. good night.

jenny "damn that bitch looks good" jenn jenn

so there's this guy that i always see at the bus stop. we both sit across from each other every night and he finally said something to me last night. but the crazy part is...he started talking to me like i was interviewing him to be my boyfriend or something. he was like "my name is jeremy, i'm 22, i work at the hospital, i catch the bus cause my car is broken down. i live by myself." blah blah blah. i swear, he said all that in one sentence. i would have been a little interested but there was just one thing...he looked just like my brother alan.

he looked so much like my brother that i was so comfortable talking to him. i'm usually all shy when i talk to people i'm not really close with, but i was just talking my head off to him, like i hadn't had anyone to talk to in months. i think he kinda likes me, but i ain't even goin there with him.

but you know, i always hook up with these successful, so non-thug guys. that's what i attract. good cause i don't like thugs anyway.

the funny thing is, there were two really ghetto girls in these tight jeans and tighter weaves sitting near us, but he decides to come up to me in my business slacks and dress shirt and dress shoes and talk to me. that's what i'm talking about. that's the kind of guy i like. the kind that doesn't even pay those ghetto girls no mind.

since i've moved back to charlotte, only guys will talk to me. i can't talk to these girls. i need some more female friends.

anyway, i'm goin to bed.

jenny "fish hook" jenn jenn

i have been cleaning for a straight six hours today. i was so tired.

anyway, so there's this guy at work and i think he likes me cause i work in data entry and he works over in proof and he keeps coming over to my desk trying to strike up a conversation with me. i'm the only one he comes over to when he comes to data entry.

he does the same stuff lamar used to do before we started going out. yeah, i need to stay away from him. he's not dark skinned, but he's not light skinned either and he's thick and i like that.

this lip piercing is healing so much faster this time than when i got it last time. i think i'm gonna get my nose pierced next.

ok, well i gotta go watch the simpsons. good night.

jenny "i need to blog more often" jenn jenn

i am so so so tired of charlotte and north carolina and south carolina already. it really is time to go back to atlanta. the guys up here in charlotte. when you tell them that you're from atlanta, they eat that up up here. "oh, an atl girl, huh?" uh huh.

i realize that i have a lot more fun in atlanta anyways so this summer sometime, i gotta head on back. that's home i guess. maybe somebody will come with me but i won't push my luck.

anyways...i'm thinking of coloring my hair again that light brown, but if i do it, it'll have to be like in january. i need something different.

yeah, i want a lot of changes. my hair, where i live, school, my body, lamar...

so goodnight.

jenny "cha-cha-changes" jenn jenn

i wish that i could just follow through with my plans. i never follow through on anything.

i think i wanna cut my hair...really really short. but since i don't follow through on anything, i probably won't.

anyways, i'm gonna go watch madtv and cheaters then drift off to sleep.

jenny "chubs" jenn jenn

i bought a 93 pontiac grand am. it's white with a red interior. it's actually pretty nice for a used car and i feel so good that i paid for it and worked hard to get it.

even though i don't have my license, i'm gonna drive the hell out of it.

oh, i saw cheaters the other night and it was so funny. this black lady got cheated on and she was cussing her boyfriend out and out of nowhere, she does this little dance while she's saying "get the fuck on" and she's just tripping. i laughed so hard at that crap. that's the best part of the show, when the person confronts their cheating boyfriend/girlfriend. that's when everybody starts acting up.

ok, i'm gonna go night-night.

jenny "i need to diet" jenn jenn

me and leniqua acting up...

Bkgirl323: did you get your license
JennWitch15: no, still got my permit
JennWitch15: i'll get it in march
Bkgirl323: that's real
Bkgirl323: a car and no license
Bkgirl323: I feel you
JennWitch15: lol
JennWitch15: right
JennWitch15: just tryin to keep it gangsta
Bkgirl323: lol

and then something lawrence has in his profile...which is sooo true...

Inspiration for all my Dark Skinned Brothers:
We're like a perm box, Dark and Lovely.
Bump these light-Skinned boys:-D

jenny "keepin it gangsta" jenn jenn

sometimes i ask myself why i even bother. boyfriends can be so "AAAH!" sometimes ya know. he just needs to follow through. ugh, i don't even want to talk about it.

anyways, my sister sam's birthday was today. she's 14 now. that seems a little weird. the little girl's gettin grown. i said little, that girl towers over me, but everybody does anyways.

i got a new job. i quit the value village cause i was offered something so much better. i now work for this credit reporting company. i sit in a cubicle all day and type up property deed reports for banks. so far it's pretty good and pretty easy. plus i'm making some good money doing it. thank god, cause i have so many bills that i need to pay off. i know my credit is just crap. oh well. it's only seven years right? yeah right. that's really gonna screw me up.

i think i'm gonna go back to atlanta in a year or so. i miss it now. and south carolina/charlotte isn't really doing anything for me right now. so the plan, i think, is to do a couple years worth of catch up work at cpcc and get some experience and time in at this new job, then get everything changed over to atlanta. i'll go to an atlanta school, and i'll get my job transferred over to atlanta (i'm so glad my job has a location in atlanta). yeah, that sounds really good. riche wants me to come back and to get an apartment with her, so that's just what i think i'm gonna do.

anyways, i gotta get up early tomorrow for that 9-6. geeze louise it's gonna be a long week. good night.

jenny jenn jenn

i am so so tired. i had a long week. but it's gonna be worth it.

jenny jenn jenn

the next couple of weeks are gonna be crazy for me. i'm so excited. there's gonna be all these changes.

but other than that, there's not really anything that i need to talk about so, good night.

jenny jenn jenn

i've been through a whole lot of changes lately. well only a couple.

i miss my boyfriend.

i saw "the grudge" today with my sister and we just hung out for a few hours. i had a lot of fun.

jenny "do you have a grudge?" jenn jenn